I am so lost...

Bee_Brian · Mar 8, 2018

I am so lost...

In fact, I am so lost that I'm not even sure what kind of advice I should seek out. Here's some background information to start with...

When I was a teenager, I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. In my early twenties, I got diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder. With the grace of God, I was approved to receive disability benefits from the US government. It was a relief both for me and my mother.

I am not sure if this is because I am unemployed with lots of free time, but for some reason, I am all over the place. I am happiest when I'm devoted to something, but no matter how hard I try, I always find reasons to quit with what I am devoted with...

Like I said, I'm really lost. I'm not even sure what kind of advice I should seek...

Your thoughts?

Sorry for not being so clear...

rockytopva · Mar 8, 2018

For whatsoever is born of God overcometh the world: and this is the victory that overcometh the world, even our faith. - 1 John 5:4

If E = mc2 then we can divide and conclude that...

Mass (m) = Energy (E/c2)

And there are three varieties...

Natural E/c2 - All mass is basically cooled plasma
Mental E/c2 - Mentally, A mathematical formula, but this has chemical and spiritual properties as well.
Spiritual E/c2 - E (motivation, warmth, love) / c2 (faith, hope, charity, joy)

I would begin by building my faith, and then go on from there...

1 . Outer Gates - Faith - Therefore we conclude that a man is justified by faith without the deeds of the law. - Romans 3:28 Cut your teeth on Word of Faith doctrine. Noting the need to move on from there!
2. The Altar - Salvation - Christ our passover is sacrificed for us: - 1 Cor 5:7
3. The Laver - Sanctification - Conforming oneself to some righteous believers standard.
***The Inner Temple = Inner Sanctification***
4. The Table of Shewbread - The reading and meditation of God's word.
5. The Lampstand - Acquiring the proper E/c2... E (energy, motivation) / c2 (faith, hope, charity, joy)
6. The Altar of Golden Incense - Prayer and praise - It came even to pass, as the trumpeters and singers were as one, to make one sound to be heard in praising and thanking the Lord; and when they lifted up their voice with the trumpets and cymbals and instruments of musick, and praised the Lord, saying, For he is good; for his mercy endureth for ever: that then the house was filled with a cloud, even the house of the Lord; - 2 Chronicles 5:13
***The veil is what divides the Inner temple from the Holy of Holies***
7. The Baptism of the Holy Spirit - The Ark of the Covenant - In which, William Seymour, the architect of this doctrine issues the following warning... “Whenever the doctrine of the baptism in the Holy Ghost will only be known as the evidence of speaking in tongues, that work will be an open door for witches and spiritualist and free loveism. That work will suffer because all kinds of spirits can come in.”

Bee_Brian · Mar 8, 2018

rockytopva said:
For whatsoever is born of God overcometh the world: and this is the victory that overcometh the world, even our faith. - 1 John 5:4

If E = mc2 then we can divide and conclude that...

Mass (m) = Energy (E/c2)

And there are three varieties...

Natural E/c2 - All mass is basically cooled plasma
Mental E/c2 - Mentally, A mathematical formula, but this has chemical and spiritual properties as well.
Spiritual E/c2 - E (motivation, warmth, love) / c2 (faith, hope, charity, joy)

I would begin by building my faith, and then go on from there...

1 . Outer Gates - Faith - Therefore we conclude that a man is justified by faith without the deeds of the law. - Romans 3:28 Cut your teeth on Word of Faith doctrine. Noting the need to move on from there!
2. The Altar - Salvation - Christ our passover is sacrificed for us: - 1 Cor 5:7
3. The Laver - Sanctification - Conforming oneself to some righteous believers standard.
***The Inner Temple = Inner Sanctification***
4. The Table of Shewbread - The reading and meditation of God's word.
5. The Lampstand - Acquiring the proper E/c2... E (energy, motivation) / c2 (faith, hope, charity, joy)
6. The Altar of Golden Incense - Prayer and praise - It came even to pass, as the trumpeters and singers were as one, to make one sound to be heard in praising and thanking the Lord; and when they lifted up their voice with the trumpets and cymbals and instruments of musick, and praised the Lord, saying, For he is good; for his mercy endureth for ever: that then the house was filled with a cloud, even the house of the Lord; - 2 Chronicles 5:13
***The veil is what divides the Inner temple from the Holy of Holies***
7. The Baptism of the Holy Spirit - The Ark of the Covenant - In which, William Seymour, the architect of this doctrine issues the following warning... “Whenever the doctrine of the baptism in the Holy Ghost will only be known as the evidence of speaking in tongues, that work will be an open door for witches and spiritualist and free loveism. That work will suffer because all kinds of spirits can come in.”

Umm, I honestly don't know how this pertains to my original post. Sorry.

joshua 1 9 · Mar 8, 2018

Bee_Brian said:
Your thoughts?

You need the mind of Christ and the Divine thoughts of God. "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind."2Tim1:7 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new. 1cor5:17

Take Heart · Mar 8, 2018

Personally, I have found that when I have a clear-cut goal, it helps me to work towards it. Like..just having 1 or 2 goals for the entire year helps me to focus instead of feeling overwhelmed by all the things I want to do. Not sure if this helps at all as I'm just trying to guess with what you've mentioned. But yeah..I just find that it helps to have a few realistic goals and even hobbies that are new to us or have been enjoyed in the past before. For me, I loved to paint. It's been a while since I've painted, but it's a goal I want to achieve this year- to paint a small canvas with some motivational scripture on it or motivational words and hang it on my bedroom wall. It's not easy to focus on things especially when affected by schizophrenia, etc. I always like to write down a list of things I like doing and new things I want to try doing/experience. Then pick a few from those list and tackle them one at a time. Just remind yourself that it's worth finishing the task through. It's a great victory when we accomplish things no matter how small or big

dreadnought · Mar 8, 2018

Bee_Brian said:
I am so lost...

In fact, I am so lost that I'm not even sure what kind of advice I should seek out. Here's some background information to start with...

When I was a teenager, I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. In my early twenties, I got diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder. With the grace of God, I was approved to receive disability benefits from the US government. It was a relief both for me and my mother.

I am not sure if this is because I am unemployed with lots of free time, but for some reason, I am all over the place. I am happiest when I'm devoted to something, but no matter how hard I try, I always find reasons to quit with what I am devoted with...

Like I said, I'm really lost. I'm not even sure what kind of advice I should seek...

Your thoughts?

Sorry for not being so clear...

Whenever I hear someone say they have this mental disease or that mental disease, I am skeptical. I tend to believe that when we are doing the Lord's will, things will go pretty well for us.

Bee_Brian · Mar 8, 2018

Spirit Reborn said:
Personally, I have found that when I have a clear-cut goal, it helps me to work towards it. Like..just having 1 or 2 goals for the entire year helps me to focus instead of feeling overwhelmed by all the things I want to do. Not sure if this helps at all as I'm just trying to guess with what you've mentioned. But yeah..I just find that it helps to have a few realistic goals and even hobbies that are new to us or have been enjoyed in the past before. For me, I loved to paint. It's been a while since I've painted, but it's a goal I want to achieve this year- to paint a small canvas with some motivational scripture on it or motivational words and hang it on my bedroom wall. It's not easy to focus on things especially when affected by schizophrenia, etc. I always like to write down a list of things I like doing and new things I want to try doing/experience. Then pick a few from those list and tackle them one at a time. Just remind yourself that it's worth finishing the task through. It's a great victory when we accomplish things no matter how small or big

Thank you very much.

Kit Sigmon · Mar 8, 2018

Bee_Brian said:
I am so lost...

In fact, I am so lost that I'm not even sure what kind of advice I should seek out. Here's some background information to start with...

When I was a teenager, I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. In my early twenties, I got diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder. With the grace of God, I was approved to receive disability benefits from the US government. It was a relief both for me and my mother.

I am not sure if this is because I am unemployed with lots of free time, but for some reason, I am all over the place. I am happiest when I'm devoted to something, but no matter how hard I try, I always find reasons to quit with what I am devoted with...

Like I said, I'm really lost. I'm not even sure what kind of advice I should seek...

Your thoughts?

Sorry for not being so clear...

Do you know what the symptoms of schizoaffective disorder are and how
all that affects you?
Are you taking meds? are you getting psychotherapy/being taught self management techniques, are connected with a support group etc?

Bee_Brian · Mar 8, 2018

Kit Sigmon said:
Do you know what the symptoms of schizoaffective disorder are and how
all that affects you?
Are you taking meds? are you getting psychotherapy/being taught self management techniques, are connected with a support group etc?

I'm taking meds. I'm seeing a psychiatrist regularly.

I don't really know how my mental condition is affecting me...

nanlm3 · Mar 8, 2018

dreadnought said:
Whenever I hear someone say they have this mental disease or that mental disease, I am skeptical. I tend to believe that when we are doing the Lord's will, things will go pretty well for us.

A mental disease/illness is NO different than heart disease, cancer, cold, arthritis, fibromyalgia, migraines, IBS, Chrons, depression, flu, Parkinson’s, MS, diabetes, etc... they are ALL an illness. Our brain is not separate from our body, it ALL goes together, our body/brain/Head is one.

To all that respond, please be kind. Please don’t be cruel by implying a mental illness is some kind of curse or punishment from God, or that disease/illness occurs because one struggles with following God’s will. That just isn’t true. If it were, NOT one person one earth would be healthy. We’d ALL riddled with horrific diseases. We ALL fall short. Thank you, Jesus for your love, grace and mercy each and every day, all day

.

I’ve read similar responses it other post and it breaks my heart, as I’ve witnessed many suffer in silence because others have dismissed their (invisible) crippling, mental disease/illness. Some resorting to suicide.
So, please be thoughtful, even if you’re a skeptic or simply don’t understand.

FutureAndAHope · Mar 8, 2018

Bee_Brian said:
I am so lost...

In fact, I am so lost that I'm not even sure what kind of advice I should seek out. Here's some background information to start with...

When I was a teenager, I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. In my early twenties, I got diagnosed with Schizoaffective Disorder. With the grace of God, I was approved to receive disability benefits from the US government. It was a relief both for me and my mother.

I am not sure if this is because I am unemployed with lots of free time, but for some reason, I am all over the place. I am happiest when I'm devoted to something, but no matter how hard I try, I always find reasons to quit with what I am devoted with...

Like I said, I'm really lost. I'm not even sure what kind of advice I should seek...

Your thoughts?

Sorry for not being so clear...

Just learn to be joyful and happy in life. Don't worry about failed missions. Missions are tough, require work. Start with small steps, small goals, and build on them. Try for a job, or if you can't work right now study something. Even just a little each day. Take a day at a time. Just be joyful and seek God for His help. Seek God to heal your thoughts, and improve your vision.

dreadnought · Mar 9, 2018

nanlm3 said:
A mental disease/illness is NO different than heart disease, cancer, cold, arthritis, fibromyalgia, migraines, IBS, Chrons, depression, flu, Parkinson’s, MS, diabetes, etc... they are ALL an illness. Our brain is not separate from our body, it ALL goes together, our body/brain/Head is one.

To all that respond, please be kind. Please don’t be cruel by implying a mental illness is some kind of curse or punishment from God, or that disease/illness occurs because one struggles with following God’s will. That just isn’t true. If it were, NOT one person one earth would be healthy. We’d ALL riddled with horrific diseases. We ALL fall short. Thank you, Jesus for your love, grace and mercy each and every day, all day.

I’ve read similar responses it other post and it breaks my heart, as I’ve witnessed many suffer in silence because others have dismissed their (invisible) crippling, mental disease/illness. Some resorting to suicide.
So, please be thoughtful, even if you’re a skeptic or simply don’t understand.

I believe in some cases mental diseases are physical. I believe, however, that they are spiritual far more often than people realize.

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Bee_Brian

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rockytopva

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joshua 1 9

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Take Heart

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dreadnought

Lip service isn't really service.

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