- Nov 16, 2013
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Hi, for a couple months now I've been emotionally attached to stuffed animals. I literally treat them like real people. I have ages for them (3 years old) and names (Joy, Sweet heart, and Fluffy). They are my babies. I can't go ANYWHERE without them or I'll have an anxiety attack. I keep them in my purse if I go out somewhere. I even take them to church and stick their little heads out of my purse so they can listen to the preaching lol. No one but my family knows about this. My mom and older sister say I'm delusional but I see one of the best therapists around and she says attachments are normal. Especially if you've been sexually abused and have no social life due to social anxiety disorder, but my mom says otherwise. She calls me stupid and all kinds of names all because I'm kissing or petting my babies. She calls this "a game" and says she doesn't want to be a part of it. She's very mean to me. I asked her to pet one of my stuffed animals and she always says no and that I'm crazy 
. I'm not crazy. For her to reject my stuffed animals is like rejecting me. I have EXTREME BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) so I react with screaming and sometimes violence, but understand that I have 0 control over myself. When I feel like someone made me feel hurt, abandoned, and like a failure, I will get angry and scream. That's highly common with BPD so don't say I have no right to react this way because I can't help it. Anyways, it's very traumatizing to me for her to call me these names and reject me like this. .She claims to be "Christian" and yet she rejects me for being me. Did you know I was sexually abused and no one called the cops? My mom made excuses for my molester. I was abandoned when I really needed someone. Years later he was allowed in my home and even hugged me. I was so scared but no one cared. And I'm supposed to just forget about it ever happening? NO! I just want someone to care about my feelings. My dad supports me fully and when I ask him to give my stuffed animals attention, he does. My mom always tells him not to because it's spoiling me (she says it in the most bitter way) but he says there is no wrong in it. I'm so glad he supports me and I thank God I have a dad so caring. But my mom doesn't seem to care. I know she loves me and I love her dearly but she is hurting me so bad right now. Please pray this can stop. If you can, pray for her too because she's very unstable even though she refuses to admit it. That's common with personality disorders. We often don't see any wrong in our behaviors and blame others. I do that quite often but I know I have BPD. She doesn't. Sorry if this is a long post, I'm just really sad and needed to tell someone my problems if that's ok.
. I'm not crazy. For her to reject my stuffed animals is like rejecting me. I have EXTREME BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder) so I react with screaming and sometimes violence, but understand that I have 0 control over myself. When I feel like someone made me feel hurt, abandoned, and like a failure, I will get angry and scream. That's highly common with BPD so don't say I have no right to react this way because I can't help it. Anyways, it's very traumatizing to me for her to call me these names and reject me like this. .She claims to be "Christian" and yet she rejects me for being me. Did you know I was sexually abused and no one called the cops? My mom made excuses for my molester. I was abandoned when I really needed someone. Years later he was allowed in my home and even hugged me. I was so scared but no one cared. And I'm supposed to just forget about it ever happening? NO! I just want someone to care about my feelings. My dad supports me fully and when I ask him to give my stuffed animals attention, he does. My mom always tells him not to because it's spoiling me (she says it in the most bitter way) but he says there is no wrong in it. I'm so glad he supports me and I thank God I have a dad so caring. But my mom doesn't seem to care. I know she loves me and I love her dearly but she is hurting me so bad right now. Please pray this can stop. If you can, pray for her too because she's very unstable even though she refuses to admit it. That's common with personality disorders. We often don't see any wrong in our behaviors and blame others. I do that quite often but I know I have BPD. She doesn't. Sorry if this is a long post, I'm just really sad and needed to tell someone my problems if that's ok.
BPD is just that: a personality disorder. A DISorder. God takes all our DISorder and makes order from it... keep a journal of things you like and things you don't and WHY...and begin to become orderly in your thinking. "let this mind be in you which was also in Christ Jesus" This can be done; God never told us to do something we cannot. Stuffies are fine and you won't always need them so stop worrying 
