- Jan 5, 2018
- 18
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- Country
- Philippines
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Single
Before I got my job i really adore her or even
desire to be like her. Shes our admin, so kind i think, so fluent, and all. I desire to be trained by her. Time goes by all my expectations gone... As I knew her being with her in the four corners of the room make my heart suck. I discover a lot of flaws... A lot of imperfections but embracing it still as part of my being in Christ. I know i need to be humble still understand her, respect her. Doing my job for Christ fixing my eyes on Christ. At night I always pray that God will change her but end up changing myself changing my heart. And I am sharing this because its very hard. Hard to love the unlovable but still thats what God desire for us. They are times im trying to be good at her but sometimes i fail in my mind is a negative things that i dont like her. I battled i wrestled... But still i fail and fail. Im ok outside when people see me but im not on the inside. All i want is to vanish this what i feel because it is not pleasing to God. I tried to talk to her end up crying in front of her but still things come and come. Nothing change... Shes so insensitive i thought but dont know again how to handle it. I always say sorry to her whenever I cant control myself. But time goes by Im always the one who always humbling down. Im sick and tired of it. Time comes a while ago... I dont ask sorry because i thought its always been like that even it was her words. But now Gods conviction is very strong.... I need to. Why its always like this? Should i need to be always like this at her? She still dont listen.
desire to be like her. Shes our admin, so kind i think, so fluent, and all. I desire to be trained by her. Time goes by all my expectations gone... As I knew her being with her in the four corners of the room make my heart suck. I discover a lot of flaws... A lot of imperfections but embracing it still as part of my being in Christ. I know i need to be humble still understand her, respect her. Doing my job for Christ fixing my eyes on Christ. At night I always pray that God will change her but end up changing myself changing my heart. And I am sharing this because its very hard. Hard to love the unlovable but still thats what God desire for us. They are times im trying to be good at her but sometimes i fail in my mind is a negative things that i dont like her. I battled i wrestled... But still i fail and fail. Im ok outside when people see me but im not on the inside. All i want is to vanish this what i feel because it is not pleasing to God. I tried to talk to her end up crying in front of her but still things come and come. Nothing change... Shes so insensitive i thought but dont know again how to handle it. I always say sorry to her whenever I cant control myself. But time goes by Im always the one who always humbling down. Im sick and tired of it. Time comes a while ago... I dont ask sorry because i thought its always been like that even it was her words. But now Gods conviction is very strong.... I need to. Why its always like this? Should i need to be always like this at her? She still dont listen.
