hi regards lately i have been struggling with an ocd related with thoughts of selling your soul i had these problem back when i was 11 at that time i didnt know it was ocd so i felt terrible i cried i went to confession all the time and i guess i was afraid to ask to the priest about it because in my head i was thinking tha he was going to say something like : "you are condemned you have no salvation " so i just managed to go on with my life thinking just that maybe god will forgive because i was just a child you know i also thoght that he wouldnt i started thinking that maybe i will go straight to hell and that evrything good that happened to me i didnt deserve it that it was not a blessing that i could never be blessed . now lately around a week ago i been struggling with the same type of ocd i know that god loves me i know that even though i probably dont deserve it so i decided to go something that made feel terrified at the time and i asked a priest of my church about selling your soul and he said and i quoute"you cannot sell your soul your soul belongs to god he created evrything angels archangels humans no one butt god can be the owner of your soul " and then i asked him “so all those things about selling your soul getting something in exchange is that just a myth” and he said “yes is just a myth you cannot really do it” and then i remember feeling hope like i always thought and i will never go to heaven and i really believe that there is a small chance of going to heaven now im still strglling with the same thing i just want it to stop because my soul belongs to god it have always belong to him and i as never in mortal sin however i really want overcomeit because is making depressed and less productive i will do appreciate if you could give some advice about it or pray for me
today a thought came into my mind that i will sell my soul if a coworker had a bad day i inmedietly refuse that thought and prey for him to have a good day i became obssesed with that with him having a bad day at the end he ended up having a regular day he always has good days butt today was regular i dont does that means that the devil owns my soul i really need a therapist butt i dont know i feel very depressed right now i feel suicidal i just want this to stop
today a thought came into my mind that i will sell my soul if a coworker had a bad day i inmedietly refuse that thought and prey for him to have a good day i became obssesed with that with him having a bad day at the end he ended up having a regular day he always has good days butt today was regular i dont does that means that the devil owns my soul i really need a therapist butt i dont know i feel very depressed right now i feel suicidal i just want this to stop