I'm finding my life as an Orthodox Christian (convert) to be a very lonely existence. I am middle aged, divorced with no children and my extended family does not live nearby. I do have many friends, however, who are Protestant here in town from former churches I have attended.
I've been a member of an Orthodox parish for a few years now, a parish where most people are upper-middle class, highly educated professionals, which I am not. I am active at church in our women's group and over the past few months we have been busy with various events sponsored by our women's group, all of which I've been apart of. So, it's not like I just attend liturgy on Sunday and immediately leave, not interacting with anyone. I'm usually helping to set up for coffee hour and/or cleaning up after coffee hour. However, as involved as I am at church, I am very lonely, especially for the company of people that I can discuss the faith with. There are unspoken cliques at church that I don't fit into - young married couples with children, professional women who are juggling family and career, people who are retired 65+. Now, I know most everyone and everyone knows me, and they interact with me to a point, but it seems like everyone is so wrapped up in their own cliques that I find it hard to break through. It is hard also to go on social media and see a post of multiple photos of individuals and families from church, along with the priest and his family all at a get-together that you weren't invited to with the caption "I just love my church family". It comes across to me too in getting to know people that status matters, being financially well off and being well established in one's chosen profession and I can tell in people's interactions with me that someone, such as myself, who just has a job to meet my financial obligations with a modest place to live, doesn't seem to fit in.
Guess I said all of the above to say this. For Thanksgiving it was only my long-time Protestant friends who invited me to spend the day with them and tomorrow for Christmas my Protestant friends have again invited me to join them. No one from my Orthodox church has even asked me if I have any plans, not even my godparents, and it would be my Orthodox family who I really would have wanted to spend Christmas with. To be honest, I'm hurt and alone in my "Orthodox world" and don't know if I should continue to struggle where I am.
I've been a member of an Orthodox parish for a few years now, a parish where most people are upper-middle class, highly educated professionals, which I am not. I am active at church in our women's group and over the past few months we have been busy with various events sponsored by our women's group, all of which I've been apart of. So, it's not like I just attend liturgy on Sunday and immediately leave, not interacting with anyone. I'm usually helping to set up for coffee hour and/or cleaning up after coffee hour. However, as involved as I am at church, I am very lonely, especially for the company of people that I can discuss the faith with. There are unspoken cliques at church that I don't fit into - young married couples with children, professional women who are juggling family and career, people who are retired 65+. Now, I know most everyone and everyone knows me, and they interact with me to a point, but it seems like everyone is so wrapped up in their own cliques that I find it hard to break through. It is hard also to go on social media and see a post of multiple photos of individuals and families from church, along with the priest and his family all at a get-together that you weren't invited to with the caption "I just love my church family". It comes across to me too in getting to know people that status matters, being financially well off and being well established in one's chosen profession and I can tell in people's interactions with me that someone, such as myself, who just has a job to meet my financial obligations with a modest place to live, doesn't seem to fit in.
Guess I said all of the above to say this. For Thanksgiving it was only my long-time Protestant friends who invited me to spend the day with them and tomorrow for Christmas my Protestant friends have again invited me to join them. No one from my Orthodox church has even asked me if I have any plans, not even my godparents, and it would be my Orthodox family who I really would have wanted to spend Christmas with. To be honest, I'm hurt and alone in my "Orthodox world" and don't know if I should continue to struggle where I am.