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I met an amazing man 14 months ago. We started talking, everything was great! Up until he confessed he wasn’t over his past relationship, it hurt a bit but I moved on.
He came around again after 2-3 months and said he was certainly ready now, if I would forgive him. I did. After two months of talking again we started dating officially. As months went by he started a new job, he became more busy and stressed. We had a long distance relationship. He decided to end things because it wasn’t fair to have me waiting. I was heart broken.
3-4 months after he cane around again, for some reason, yeah love, I gave him another chance. We started back again as friends, but pet names and I love you’s we’re said all the time. We started to encourage another to go to church, read our bible and have a Christ centered relationship. Hebrought up marriage through us getting to know each other, the kids. He was the first to say he loved me. He told me I made everyday better, that I was the answer to so many prayers. That hevowed to save himself for me. I thought this is what I have been praying for! For over 13 years.God was finally going to bless me.
He started to tell me he was confused as to what God wanted for us. Whether he needed to make it official or not. He was praying to be directed. This went on for weeks. He told me “don’t worry I’m not going anywhere, I love you” . Last Wednesdayhe told me he wasn’t sure of what he felt for me. I was heartbroken. He assured me “don’t overthink it, we will be fine. I’m praying”. After the whole week telling me he was swamped at work, so wedidn’t communicate much. Thursday night He tells me he only loves me as a friend. He said he tried, that he prayed, but just couldn’t. After 14 monthshe dragged me along. I met his parents 2 weeks ago.
It felt like he told me I forced my self to love you, but couldn’t. You’re an amazing woman, buuut. How do you get back up from that?
I feel humiliated, lied to, hurt, heartbroken, and so angry. He knew he felt like this the first time around, he had to. Or even the second time around. My faith has taken a hit, my self esteem is on the floor.
The enemy tells me, “you were not enough....see he even prayed and you couldn’t entice love within him” “you are ugly and worthless” “some other woman will get what you wanted” “ no other good looking guy like him will ever want you”
I truly fell in love with this man. He wanted to stay in contact since he “loves me and cares for me as a friend” I couldn’t. I cut out all communication with him. Got rid of social media and the things he gave me. It’s day two and I am feeling so discouraged, so down.
I know God is close to the broken hearted, and gives strength to the weak. And I’m so silly to be angry at him, when I know in time I will realize that God is protecting me from a horrible sad future. I had to beg for attention. I was always sad, because I wasn’t a priority.
I can’t help but to want him back. Yes, I have low self esteem. He was what I prayed for , even looks exactly as what I had been praying for.
I’m asking for prayer, like I have never before. I am so weak right now. I am running on no fuel. Any advice and prayers would be so greatlyappreciated. Im finding it so hard to recover from this.
I met an amazing man 14 months ago. We started talking, everything was great! Up until he confessed he wasn’t over his past relationship, it hurt a bit but I moved on.
He came around again after 2-3 months and said he was certainly ready now, if I would forgive him. I did. After two months of talking again we started dating officially. As months went by he started a new job, he became more busy and stressed. We had a long distance relationship. He decided to end things because it wasn’t fair to have me waiting. I was heart broken.
3-4 months after he cane around again, for some reason, yeah love, I gave him another chance. We started back again as friends, but pet names and I love you’s we’re said all the time. We started to encourage another to go to church, read our bible and have a Christ centered relationship. Hebrought up marriage through us getting to know each other, the kids. He was the first to say he loved me. He told me I made everyday better, that I was the answer to so many prayers. That hevowed to save himself for me. I thought this is what I have been praying for! For over 13 years.God was finally going to bless me.
He started to tell me he was confused as to what God wanted for us. Whether he needed to make it official or not. He was praying to be directed. This went on for weeks. He told me “don’t worry I’m not going anywhere, I love you” . Last Wednesdayhe told me he wasn’t sure of what he felt for me. I was heartbroken. He assured me “don’t overthink it, we will be fine. I’m praying”. After the whole week telling me he was swamped at work, so wedidn’t communicate much. Thursday night He tells me he only loves me as a friend. He said he tried, that he prayed, but just couldn’t. After 14 monthshe dragged me along. I met his parents 2 weeks ago.
It felt like he told me I forced my self to love you, but couldn’t. You’re an amazing woman, buuut. How do you get back up from that?
I feel humiliated, lied to, hurt, heartbroken, and so angry. He knew he felt like this the first time around, he had to. Or even the second time around. My faith has taken a hit, my self esteem is on the floor.
The enemy tells me, “you were not enough....see he even prayed and you couldn’t entice love within him” “you are ugly and worthless” “some other woman will get what you wanted” “ no other good looking guy like him will ever want you”
I truly fell in love with this man. He wanted to stay in contact since he “loves me and cares for me as a friend” I couldn’t. I cut out all communication with him. Got rid of social media and the things he gave me. It’s day two and I am feeling so discouraged, so down.
I know God is close to the broken hearted, and gives strength to the weak. And I’m so silly to be angry at him, when I know in time I will realize that God is protecting me from a horrible sad future. I had to beg for attention. I was always sad, because I wasn’t a priority.
I can’t help but to want him back. Yes, I have low self esteem. He was what I prayed for , even looks exactly as what I had been praying for.
I’m asking for prayer, like I have never before. I am so weak right now. I am running on no fuel. Any advice and prayers would be so greatlyappreciated. Im finding it so hard to recover from this.
