There's stuff in my life that have caused me a lot of pain and anger for some time now. Finally it just blew up on me where I just finally, on my way to work in my car, just blew up and screamed at God.
And when I ask Him why, I get no response. I am left here wondering "are you even there." I know that Job did the same thing and got no answer to His suffering but in the end, God came through and He was extravagantly rewarded for his faith. I am here receiving neither an answer nor a reward for what I have gone through and the trust that I have put in Him.
Sounds like you're having a real rough time. I can empathise with that.
Sometimes God answers in ways that you "think" you don't hear, maybe because it doesn't come as a voice inside your head - maybe it comes from a friend, someone answering your cry on CF, or even something you see on a billboard, when in fact it is coming through them from him... and you, like me, don't recognise it's from him.
Your first sentence caught my attention. It sounds like you have been letting stuff build up for some time - until it just blew! Perhaps God's answer is right there... don't let things "build up" - deal with them as soon as possible. In his sermon on the mount (Matt 5-7) he tells us "when you go to worship God and remember that someone has something against you,
leave your offering (your worship) and go get right with that person!
Then come back and worship God." He doesn't want to receive your worship until you settle things with the other person. Later in the same book, he gives a similar pieve of advice, but this time it's if you remember you have something against another person.... In either case, (you have wronged or been wronged) we have always the responsibility to take the initiative to reconcile. I don't know what's been bugging you and causing frustration to build up - but you do, and you know whether or not I'm way off the mark.
Another thought that your frustration with the "silent treatment" is that most often the act of prayer (even for another person) does more to us and for us, than anyone else. Be angry, but don't sin. Be angry at God, he is big enough to take it (with grace) but don't sin. Lots and lots of people have had the silent treatment, and their later thoughts on it are very different. It can be different for the same person at different times. Sometimes I have later realised, that there really wasn't a need for an answer - I knew deep down what to do, without having to ask him - I just wanted to get a different answer, and was annoyed that he wouldn't give it to me. His answering "silence" said lound and clear (if I only noticed) "Monna, come on, you know the answer already. Just do it." Franscis Schaeffer wrote a whole book called "He is there and he is
not silent." Often we are simply not picking up the signals, or not wanting to get the particular signal that's coming in so we turn a deaf ear, while deceiving ourselves that we're not getting anything. Other times I have realised that I was asking the wrong question, focusing on the wrong issue, and the "non-answer" I was getting didn't fit the Question I actually asked - but did fit the question I should have asked. You got angry at God, and then wrote about it on CF out of frustration with his silence. As a result you're getting a lot of tips about different things - some of which you think are irrelevant to your question, but maybe somewhere in among all the replies there are things that He wants you to know. Maybe He was the one that got you to the keyboard and got you writing - as a way to get answers to questions you didn't even know you should be asking.
Keep on keeping on. Go back to him, cry out to him the simple "help!" and "forgive me." Remember you have the Holy Spirit communicating for you, expressing your deepest feelings and longings in words that are better than yours, words that
will touch the Father. Remember too, that you have a mediator - the man Christ Jesus - standing at the right hand of the Father, interceding for you. Thank him for his work there, ask him for grace and strength and wisdom and perseverance. You can't learn perseverance without persevering - like you can't learn patience without waiting. So hang in there - or rather, let him hold onto you, and relax in his love for you. God bless!