Hi, I’m Jas , coming to you guys with an open mind and heart seeking any advice or encouragement to heal. In the past 9 years I have been in 3 nearly serious relationships and just when things seemed to be working they each got someone pregnant and left me for the one they were expecting with. My last relationship would have been going on 5 years in 2018,we planned to marry next year and concieve since i lost the baby we were pregnant with but he cheated with his ex and she bore his first son and he decided that he will stay with her . I have never been so depressed and hopeless in my life . I always believed that God truly has a purpose for the pain and that for every tear he will repay me but at this point God has seen my pain over and over and I only gained more heartache nearly suicidal. Why will God watch and allow it if he knew the pain coming to me.