- Nov 2, 2016
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I am trying to follow Christ but sometimes I feel like the most lost person in the entire universe... crazy confusion, not understanding life or who I am. I'm not living in my home town and I feel like a complete alien here... and on top of that, in order to follow Christ you have to be separate from the world, so trying to be separate from the world in Christ in a foreign town with a different culture and stuff is just causing lots of confusion. I keep isolating from society, I think it is an attempt to ''protect'' myself from fears I have because of childhood trauma on top of my own sin and past evil. I've been praying and seeking the Lord for several years now trying to heal and get delivered but I'm still not there yet... life is short and I don't know how much longer it's going to take or what else I can do, I've been pursuing Christ for almost 6 years now... I don't know what I'm doing wrong.
I had a dream about a month ago that I was trying to enter into a drug-rehabilitation program but my car was full of all kinds of trash and the counselor in the program looked in my program and said I wasn't allowed to have that stuff in the program... I feel like the trash is a symbol of darkness that I am holding onto that is not allowed in Gods kingdom and I don't know what else I can do to get rid of the trash. My family are all athiests and do not support me pursuing God and I don't have a church or any real-life fellowship... like I said im in a foreign town and really just feel isolated
I had a dream about a month ago that I was trying to enter into a drug-rehabilitation program but my car was full of all kinds of trash and the counselor in the program looked in my program and said I wasn't allowed to have that stuff in the program... I feel like the trash is a symbol of darkness that I am holding onto that is not allowed in Gods kingdom and I don't know what else I can do to get rid of the trash. My family are all athiests and do not support me pursuing God and I don't have a church or any real-life fellowship... like I said im in a foreign town and really just feel isolated