I believe 110% with ALL my heart that God exists. I accept Jesus as my Lord and Savior. I have a Bible that I love dearly and take THE BEST CARE of it as I can. It has NO rips or any harm to it WHATSOEVER and I've had it for years!
100% is good but Satan believes 100% that God exists.
The physical bible can be used, worn, torn, you can write notes in it and if pages fall out, glue them back or just buy another -- no worries.
I don't pray often, which I know i should. Should I start praying every morning and night?
Prayer is talking to God, communicating with Him.
Our primary purpose is to be reconciled to Him through Jesus so we can have a relationship. If you didn't talk to your parents at all, how much of a relationship would you have? Especially as a child. When you become a Christian, you are like an infant -- so you need to talk to Daddy! God already knows what is in your heart, what your needs our, He just wants you to have faith. When He answers prayers, then your faith is confirmed.
When you read the Word often, then you will know that "faith" is a gift that is not taken back and it will grow. You have to nourish your faith -- like you would water a seed planted. Some have weak faith and therefore are fearful and insecure.
READ, the more you know Jesus, the less you will fear.
But fear of God is the beginning of wisdom and knowledge. This fear of God is actually a good fear, it means you take Him seriously. You are just still insecure in your faith and so are getting carried away and jumping to conclusions.
It really sounds like He's concluded that you won't suffer Hell. He is a God of LOVE, but also a god of JUSTICE and He will judge, punish and ultimately destroy sinners who do not repent.
It is godly sorrow that leads us to Him. He's drawing you to Himself. But when He forgives your sins -
You did ask for forgiveness of your sins, right? Because it sounds like you claim you never did anything wrong which is not true. We are all like dirty rags that need cleansing.
So confess that you have many sins to be forgiven. We come to the Lord in humility, sorry for our sins. How do we know what sin is? We look first at the Law/ Commandments. Do not lie, do not steal, do not covet, do not commit adultery, honor parents, etc. You may have avoided those but we are all confident that you failed like the rest of us. Loving God is especially the one that we've all failed at. And if you don't even know what that means, you need to find out.
Don't leave Him out of any part of your life! That is why prayer is important.
Satan is working hard to put those doubts in your head AND uncontrollable fears. Prayer example:
"Heavenly Father, thank you for all that your have given me ... keep me safe Lord, out of danger and accidents, protect me from the enemy, give me peace, guide me, increase my faith in You, help me to understand Your Word, transform me into the person I should be, tell me which way I should go ... in Jesus name, Amen"
I don't believe in the stories of Adam and Eve and Noah and such, but I do try my VERY HARDEST to believe in it. I just can't seem too. I respect EVERY story in the Bible fully, but I can't force myself to believe it. I mean, I believe that Jesus died on the cross for our sins, but the other stories... I just can't.
I didn't believe either in the beginning, so I just studied the New Testament, believed in that and once I realized Jesus believed in the scriptures as well (since He is the Author) and I believed in Him, then you must eventually realize that the entire Bible is true. Of course, salvation has no prerequisite of knowing and believing it all before you are saved. Many people before the printing press, knew little and had a basic knowledge and faith.
Does God understand that I'm trying my hardest to believe everything?
Yes
I do absolutely NO wrong. I've never hurt anyone in my WHOLE life with words or anything; my hands have never touched a person harmfully. I always help homeless people when I see them. I respect everybody. I never express hatred.
This is where you err. You have committed many, many sins as we all have. To make a statement like this above suggests since you have done nothing wrong, then you shouldn't need forgiveness and so don't need to ask for it AND why would you be afraid of Hell? You are afraid because you know you have sinned.
You need to realize you are a sinner and ask for forgiveness.
I just want God to know that I love Him more than anything. I have never once put anyone BEFORE Him.
There you go again, yes you have. You have put your own ways first before you even realized God. Stop saying that, it is a lie. Remember, be humble, admit you are a sinner and that you went your own way for a long time and now you want to follow Him.
Don't try to paint a pretty picture of yourself among others.
Remember, prior to our cleansing, we are all dirty rags!
I suffer from severe depression, severe anxiety and suicidal thoughts on a daily basis. Practically every second. The only reason why I haven't killed myself is that's going against God and I would never do that! I respect God and I would never throw away what He blessed me with. Even if I struggle everyday.
Read the Bible, pray, get close to God and these fears will leave. Pray for God's healing EVERYDAY. Be specific with each fear.
Read comforting scriptures:
21 Best Bible Verses for Depression - Encouraging Scripture Quotes
But I'm still SO terrified of going to hell. Can someone help me with knowing for sure that I'll go to Heaven? Because I want to be with God. I want to be with my family that has passed.
Faith in Jesus eliminates the wages of sin, which is death.
Spiritual death is destruction in the Lake of Fire - WHICH ONLY UNBELIEVERS SUFFER.
So Christians need to realize that
the gift of SALVATION from God is forever -- otherwise, we would all be nervous and worried. The Bible says, do not worry.
