Faith IS. It doesn't come in amounts. God granted to you the Faith to confess and believe Him as Savior, and to follow Him as Lord. It is a grant ... it doesn't go away, and you don't have to work to sustain it. Rather than push back against the Faith that is already yours, pray! Jump start it, get involved in it, witness to others about it, rejoice in it. You are knocking at His door, when He has already opened it and invited you to pull up a chair.I'm trying to use what little I got but its just flopping.. I haven't read all of gods promises yet(going to soon) but I know a few like him taking care of our needs, and I'm having trouble believing that, I habitually ask, or say that i need his help, but i shouldnt be asking, i should KNOW he'll help me without having to ask. i have horrible anxiety, i worry about everything and it just doesnt stop.. so if i have faith about something the worry just comes in like "what if" or "yeah but".. i can't control it and i can't faith it away, otherwise i'd be somewhere by now.. i have started to take this medicine similar to zoloft and its supposed to help with anxiety, ocd, depression but its not working with the ocd and anxiety. I'm writing verses that pop out, and that apply to my situation down so my faith can increase and still not much change in faith,.. not sure what to do.. my mind just works this certain way I can't change it. I've seen how it works a couple of times and its gotta be anxiety. I even trying to do gods will fully, like I'm even gonna give my i7quadcore laptop to my friend because its a worldly thing that i love too much.. where am i going wrong im doing gods will fully and leaning on his understanding?? i need people who have faith to pray that god will give me faith, because i dont have barely any faith. he's right beside me poking me to help guide me when certain thoughts come but even thats not helping me gain any faith in him. sorry about this scambled mess.
glad i've finally came across someone who understands. I wish my anxiety would go away more than i wish to go to heaven because its making me feel trapped inside my own head, trapped from having faith in god, trapped from god. it'd be heaven on earth just to live without the anxiety, and being able to have faith without doubting everything everywhere i look and think, It's not fair, why me, its not fair other people have it easier. it makes me dream of the day i die because every moment is just a hellish rat race full of horrible emotions for me just to get on good terms with god so I can go to heaven and be in peace for eternity. thats how f***ing bad i have it. the moment im back in my sin, im mentally in hell again, literally. the bible is not exagerating when it says demons leave when filled with the spirit then come back to check with 7 more demons harsher than before. everything is too hard. too hard, I wish I could truly give up but I was made to endure everything without breaking, im trapped.I suffer badly with anxiety so understand 100%.
May God rest his healing hands on you and guide you through life.
God tells us that "Faith comes by receiving His Word with a desire to do it," my own paraphrase of Romans 10:17. Lord, guide this one into knowing that for their faith to grow and be and stay strong, You tell us to spend time reading, meditating, even memorizing, but especially obeying through applying Your Word. Guide them into the true understanding of Your Word, and to a church and people that can teach them what it truly says and teaches, and not to some church and people that don't. May they get to know You better from reading the Bible, and grow in faith, and leave the fear and uncertainty behind. Amen.I'm trying to use what little I got but its just flopping.. I haven't read all of gods promises yet(going to soon) but I know a few like him taking care of our needs, and I'm having trouble believing that, I habitually ask, or say that i need his help, but i shouldnt be asking, i should KNOW he'll help me without having to ask. i have horrible anxiety, i worry about everything and it just doesnt stop.. so if i have faith about something the worry just comes in like "what if" or "yeah but".. i can't control it and i can't faith it away, otherwise i'd be somewhere by now.. i have started to take this medicine similar to zoloft and its supposed to help with anxiety, ocd, depression but its not working with the ocd and anxiety. I'm writing verses that pop out, and that apply to my situation down so my faith can increase and still not much change in faith,.. not sure what to do.. my mind just works this certain way I can't change it. I've seen how it works a couple of times and its gotta be anxiety. I even trying to do gods will fully, like I'm even gonna give my i7quadcore laptop to my friend because its a worldly thing that i love too much.. where am i going wrong im doing gods will fully and leaning on his understanding?? i need people who have faith to pray that god will give me faith, because i dont have barely any faith. he's right beside me poking me to help guide me when certain thoughts come but even thats not helping me gain any faith in him. sorry about this scambled mess.