I thought Christianity is only about salvation or believing the gospel of Christ and sharing it to others. I loved God very much when I got saved, when I realized He really chose to die for me and my sins.
After that my life has been even duller and more boring than before getting saved! I have started to doubt deeply that God even exists. Days feel like 15 minutes and I can't manage to do good works. I sound so depressed when I talk about Jesus to unbelievers that when I am trying to save them, they think that I need help!
How can I change my life? How can I have strong faith in God's existence again? How can I let God take control of my life against the will of my flesh?
After that my life has been even duller and more boring than before getting saved! I have started to doubt deeply that God even exists. Days feel like 15 minutes and I can't manage to do good works. I sound so depressed when I talk about Jesus to unbelievers that when I am trying to save them, they think that I need help!
How can I change my life? How can I have strong faith in God's existence again? How can I let God take control of my life against the will of my flesh?