- Jun 4, 2017
- 81
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- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Non-Denom
- Marital Status
- Single
I am in a place where I feel totally stuck. I have a Very weak conscience in many things, especially things that are not addressed in the bible. I struggle with simple everyday decisions like whether or not I should join somebody for a trip to the grocery store, or what church to attend because so many churches and church members do not act or think like me. It's not the actions that I think are sinful, it's the sin I believe I would be committing my doing them. For example, in the case of the trip to the grocery store, I begin thinking, what if God wants me to fast? or what if I'll be tempted to buy something unhealthy?
I honestly feel most Christians I meet are very casual about their walk with Christ, very okay with worldly things that I am not. I may sound like a hypocrite but just to be honest, I deliberately sin daily because of this weakness I have. I don't obey my conscience because it has become too strict. So yes, I do see the hypocrisy in judging others for being worldly and being disobedient myself. I just don't know how to overcome a weak conscience. If there was something I could do I would have done it by now, but I don't see a way out of this. I have to be obedient in order to keep fellowship with God so I can get well, But my strict conscience makes obedience feel like I'm going to go crazy. I mean, it makes normal life hard to live. I don't see how I can function normally and still obey a conscience like mine. I question everything, every decision I make when I do try to obey, but truthfully much of the time I give in and just ignore my conscience altogether because it's just too much.
I would really be encouraged by anyone who has dealt with a weak conscience or knows someone who did but got back to normal. I know reading the bible is supposed to help, its just I never feel I have the clean conscience enough to read the scripture with a receptive spirit where I would be helped. It's a daily struggle.
I honestly feel most Christians I meet are very casual about their walk with Christ, very okay with worldly things that I am not. I may sound like a hypocrite but just to be honest, I deliberately sin daily because of this weakness I have. I don't obey my conscience because it has become too strict. So yes, I do see the hypocrisy in judging others for being worldly and being disobedient myself. I just don't know how to overcome a weak conscience. If there was something I could do I would have done it by now, but I don't see a way out of this. I have to be obedient in order to keep fellowship with God so I can get well, But my strict conscience makes obedience feel like I'm going to go crazy. I mean, it makes normal life hard to live. I don't see how I can function normally and still obey a conscience like mine. I question everything, every decision I make when I do try to obey, but truthfully much of the time I give in and just ignore my conscience altogether because it's just too much.
I would really be encouraged by anyone who has dealt with a weak conscience or knows someone who did but got back to normal. I know reading the bible is supposed to help, its just I never feel I have the clean conscience enough to read the scripture with a receptive spirit where I would be helped. It's a daily struggle.