I thought I could give a bit proper reply to this. It builds up and strenghtens sharing own experiences with one another, as well as we will also be learning from each other.
Especially when sharing about what God has done and is still doing in our lives, I wish I also had someone whom I could have met face to face too over here where we live, someone I could be confident with about these things, e.t.c...
So far I don't have this type of friendship, most people rather talks more about secular stuff, which can be fine too, though I am the type who loves talking about the "deeper" sides of life. I do ponder way too much, perhaps?
It seemes to me that most people, both non-Christians and Christians prefers engaging more in easy secular talks, rather than trying to think more of the bigger questions and answers of life. I know it should be more than enough having God to talk to, and I do talk with Him too. Yet, I have times where I also miss having someone I could communicate with as a friend face to face as well, or someone I could confide in.
I do know God can bless us with new friendships, and at this point he has blessed me with friends through the internet as well as penfriends, which I am grateful for as well(though most of these friends aren't the types who enjoyes talking about what I have mentioned for you in here, except for in here with you or with others in this forum). Although I sometimes miss a friend whom I could meet over here too, but I also know that at this point God wants my whole attention, something which still needs a lot of work.
I think I can be somewhat stubborn, this can be both in a good as well as in a bad way. Still much to be worked on in me.
True, our own righteousness isn't as good as God's righteousness, same way with our own understanding too. Our understanding is really that "limited", and yet we sometimes think we may understand beyond our own capacity.
You are truly a strong lady of God's Kingdom, He has helped you overcome a lot, and I believe He still keeps on helping you now too!? Without His strenght and help we won't manage anything, we are nothing without Him. But when we stand in Him and keep ourselves close to Him and in His Word, then we become great in His eyes. Not great in a way so that we can boast in ourselves, but we become great when we stay grounded in His love and truth!
God bless you too, and His grace shine on you, forever and ever!