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I think we're in the same boat. I've been going through something similar for almost two years. When I first started seeking God's favor through Jesus, I very quickly began to think that he wanted me to abandon everything (family, possessions, dog) and go and be homeless and tell people about Him. Everytime I tell people my whole story they tell me I shouldn't go but I still struggle with it. It went away for a while but it's come back. One time I quit my jobs , and when I had finished working my last week or so, I parked my car at a park and ride and tried to hitchhike out of town for a couple hours praying that God would give me a ride because the longer I sat there the more I didn't want to go through with it. Eventually I gave up and decided maybe He didn't want me to go because otherwise He would have given me a ride.
I quite honestly still struggle with it but I also know there were somethings I took way out of context and kinda just was letting my conscious be what was guiding me. I thought when Jesus said call no man your father that I couldn't actually call my dad my dad. I was reading Revelation and thought that the Jehova's witness' were the true religion. I thought that I could never talk to my parents ever again or my brother.
This might sound weird and I don't want to say I'm glad you're going through this but it's interesting to hear that someone else seems to be going through something so similar to what I've been going through. I've been reading the Bible a lot and honestly ready to do it but I'm not %100 positive it's God's will to do so. What has been helping me is reading the gospels and learning more about who Jesus is and what He wants from us. He held the Law of God in high regard and even mentions honoring your parents in at least two of the gospels.
I quite honestly still struggle with it but I also know there were somethings I took way out of context and kinda just was letting my conscious be what was guiding me. I thought when Jesus said call no man your father that I couldn't actually call my dad my dad. I was reading Revelation and thought that the Jehova's witness' were the true religion. I thought that I could never talk to my parents ever again or my brother.
This might sound weird and I don't want to say I'm glad you're going through this but it's interesting to hear that someone else seems to be going through something so similar to what I've been going through. I've been reading the Bible a lot and honestly ready to do it but I'm not %100 positive it's God's will to do so. What has been helping me is reading the gospels and learning more about who Jesus is and what He wants from us. He held the Law of God in high regard and even mentions honoring your parents in at least two of the gospels.
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