what are you feeling right now? (24)

Jeshu · Jun 22, 2017

I know I be wearing sackcloth from now on.

Jeshu · Jun 22, 2017

So excited right now! Jesus is The Name to be praised!

Jeshu · Jun 22, 2017

Which way to turn
but down
when everything
is upside
to how it should be!

I love free falling
without chute
such speed
friction glowing
red hot

Impact will be
The End of the old
New beginning
coming down
from Heaven instead.

Press On · Jun 22, 2017

chaoticfirefly said:
I think I might pick up a second job.

What type of job?

chaoticfirefly · Jun 22, 2017

Press On said:
What type of job?

I don't know. I quite the other one. Too toxic.

Maybe I'll work at Target or something.

chaoticfirefly · Jun 23, 2017

I'm getting bad, intrusive thoughts again.

I don't know how to explain it to my therapist.

TimAM · Jun 23, 2017

Been doing better lately.

Press On · Jun 23, 2017

TimAM said:
Been doing better lately.

Press On · Jun 23, 2017

chaoticfirefly said:
I'm getting bad, intrusive thoughts again.

I don't know how to explain it to my therapist.

Common problem with a lot of us, Firefly. I have recently redoubled my efforts to rid myself or at least greatly reduce them. It's a battle....no.....WAR!

I'm not a big fan of videos/audios but I recently came across some that are helpful online......Scripture based.

Your therapist is trained and educated to deal with this stuff. I'm sure he/she will help you through this. Be of good courage; you'll see progress.

SeekerOfChrist94 · Jun 23, 2017

My head is absolutely killing me today. I've never had it hurt so bad before. Also kind of hating myself

Jeshu · Jun 23, 2017

chaoticfirefly said:
I'm getting bad, intrusive thoughts again.

I don't know how to explain it to my therapist.

Tell your therapist that darkness got into you and is attacking you and hurting you because you love light to be not darkness. I'm sure you will be able to explain much better the content of the darkness hurting you to her or him after that.

It is the ugly truth you (and us all,) are battling isn't it?

Much love finding words to expose the darkness and your pain because of that.

:hug:

(Intrusive thoughts by Caroline Rear.)

Jeshu · Jun 23, 2017

Feeling sadder every day. Sad that our Lord must hurt us so badly 2000 years after He made everything Okay. What has satan done with The Truth down here?

Not that Scripture says it wrongly, The Word of God never does, though the bible can't match that truth, there is still very much Word of God in it.

Just look at the beast of the earth devouring this planet all around us, the very evil we sinners released upon God's beautiful Creation. Already 1/3 of The oceans is polluted beyond repair! Pollution that will kill and maim all life down here for thousands of years to come is leaking into the sea irreversibly right now and there is nothing people can do about that. Talk about Scriptural accuracy prophesying how bad life within humanity will bring humanity to the battle called Armageddon, One of those Wheels of truth within His truth is so very close by right now.

When will our Lord Come?

Not only that my sin don't stop. I have battled sin all my life and I'm still at it though I have learned to hate it and know there is safety with Christ for everything in me that belongs to Him.

I know for life in sin itself there is no hope at all and it will all perish. So why have I still have life in it? Why keep producing more black matter? Why continually expand my reality/soul like that - driving all those awesome sons and daughters of God further and further apart, and bringing everything down to sub zero degrees inside swallowing-up all my light? Confusing mattes even more as far as I'm concerned.

I want my universe to collapse!
I want my black matter to light up!
I want The Heavens BACK in PLACE!

How I long for Jesus to come and make this all right. I'm up to here with myself as is.

2 Petter 3:3-18
Above all, you must understand that in the last days scoffers will come, scoffing and following their own evil desires. They will say, “Where is this ‘coming’ he promised? Ever since our ancestors died, everything goes on as it has since the beginning of creation.” But they deliberately forget that long ago by God’s word the heavens came into being and the earth was formed out of water and by water. By these waters also the world of that time was deluged and destroyed. By the same word the present heavens and earth are reserved for fire, being kept for the day of judgment and destruction of the ungodly.

But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.

But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything done in it will be laid bare.

Since everything will be destroyed in this way, what kind of people ought you to be? You ought to live holy and godly lives as you look forward to the day of God and speed its coming. That day will bring about the destruction of the heavens by fire, and the elements will melt in the heat. But in keeping with his promise we are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth, where righteousness dwells.

So then, dear friends, since you are looking forward to this, make every effort to be found spotless, blameless and at peace with him. Bear in mind that our Lord’s patience means salvation, just as our dear brother Paul also wrote you with the wisdom that God gave him. He writes the same way in all his letters, speaking in them of these matters. His letters contain some things that are hard to understand, which ignorant and unstable people distort, as they do the other Scriptures, to their own destruction.

Therefore, dear friends, since you have been forewarned, be on your guard so that you may not be carried away by the error of the lawless and fall from your secure position. But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.

Press On · Jun 23, 2017

Jeshu said:
Tell your therapist that darkness got into you and is attacking you and hurting you because you love light to be not darkness. I'm sure you will be able to explain much better the content of the darkness hurting you to her or him after that.

It is the ugly truth you (and us all,) are battling isn't it?

Much love finding words to expose the darkness and your pain because of that.

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(Intrusive thoughts by Caroline Rear.)

Love the graphic, Gerry. That about says it all.

Press On · Jun 23, 2017

Jeshu said:
Feeling sadder every day. Sad that our Lord must hurt us so badly 2000 years after He made everything Okay. What has satan done with The Truth down here?

Not that Scripture says it wrongly, The Word of God never does, though the bible can't match that truth, there is still very much Word of God in it.

Just look at the beast of the earth devouring this planet all around us, the very evil we sinners released upon God's beautiful Creation. Already 1/3 of The oceans is polluted beyond repair! Pollution that will kill and maim all life down here for thousands of years to come is leaking into the sea irreversibly right now and there is nothing people can do about that. Talk about Scriptural accuracy prophesying how bad life within humanity will bring humanity to the battle called Armageddon, One of those Wheels of truth within His truth is so very close by right now.

When will our Lord Come?

Not only that my sin don't stop. I have battled sin all my life and I'm still at it though I have learned to hate it and know there is safety with Christ for everything in me that belongs to Him.

I know for life in sin itself there is no hope at all and it will all perish. So why have I still have life in it? Why keep producing more black matter? Why continually expand my reality/soul like that - driving all those awesome sons and daughters of God further and further apart, and bringing everything down to sub zero degrees inside swallowing-up all my light? Confusing mattes even more as far as I'm concerned.

I want my universe to collapse!
I want my black matter to light up!
I want The Heavens BACK in PLACE!

How I long for Jesus to come and make this all right. I'm up to here with myself as is.

2 Petter 3:3-18
Above all, you must understand that in the last days scoffers will come, scoffing and following their own evil desires. They will say, “Where is this ‘coming’ he promised? Ever since our ancestors died, everything goes on as it has since the beginning of creation.” But they deliberately forget that long ago by God’s word the heavens came into being and the earth was formed out of water and by water. By these waters also the world of that time was deluged and destroyed. By the same word the present heavens and earth are reserved for fire, being kept for the day of judgment and destruction of the ungodly.

But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years are like a day. The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.

But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything done in it will be laid bare.

Since everything will be destroyed in this way, what kind of people ought you to be? You ought to live holy and godly lives as you look forward to the day of God and speed its coming. That day will bring about the destruction of the heavens by fire, and the elements will melt in the heat. But in keeping with his promise we are looking forward to a new heaven and a new earth, where righteousness dwells.

So then, dear friends, since you are looking forward to this, make every effort to be found spotless, blameless and at peace with him. Bear in mind that our Lord’s patience means salvation, just as our dear brother Paul also wrote you with the wisdom that God gave him. He writes the same way in all his letters, speaking in them of these matters. His letters contain some things that are hard to understand, which ignorant and unstable people distort, as they do the other Scriptures, to their own destruction.

Therefore, dear friends, since you have been forewarned, be on your guard so that you may not be carried away by the error of the lawless and fall from your secure position. But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be glory both now and forever! Amen.

Prayers and intercession, my brother. Would that I could lift this oppression off you; it grieves me.

SeekerOfChrist94 · Jun 23, 2017

My ex messaged me last night and he's trying to maneuver his way back into my life. I told him no and he's acting like a baby about it because I used to never tell him no and I would never stand up for myself. I wish he didn't message me because now it's opening all these bad memories and wounds.

Jeshu · Jun 23, 2017

Press On said:
Prayers and intercession, my brother. Would that I could lift this oppression off you; it grieves me.

Please feel free to grief with me Ron, and thanks a lot for loving me enough and for taking the time doing all that for me, God bless you brother.

I mourn on, it is chapter 1 and chapter 11 of the book of Revelation all over again and very much Zechariah 12:12 of course.

Remember me telling you I done three cycles in sixes in my worldly self trying to keep up with my Jewish self and almost 3 cycles in sevens in my believing self.

However me idolizing those 3 horns ( which I in my stupidity thought where sevens but turned out to be sixes, :sick:

) in my life awoke with a shock when the fourth

came to light.

For this didn't only make the sum 28 instead of 21 years, as I had thought, but revealed the four black smiths (horns) Zechariah prophesied about so long ago in a completely different light than ever before! All of Scripture really!

And exposed in me a king ruling my inner world of being in a completely different light as well! Daniel 7:11 coming true instantaneously within chapter 16:12-16 of the book of Revelation - and has me not only wailing - but also freaking The Word of God in me big time!

Just seeing all of this living within me attacking me big time a sinner who believes in God's grace in Christ and upping the persecutions of the Saints tenfold.

So I haven't even completed my third seven year cycle yet, but already know who the fourth horn represents without a doubt, both Zechariah ( the Jews in me, ) and the book of Daniel chapter 7 ( sin ruling in me,) and am astonished to see the harlot ridding on the dragon once more within a depth of understanding of life inside of me I never even contemplated existed.

Honest Ron The word of God growing within is a total spin out - time and again!

The sixth angel poured out his bowl on the great river Euphrates, and its water was dried up to prepare the way for the kings from the East. Then I saw three impure spirits that looked like frogs; they came out of the mouth of the dragon, out of the mouth of the beast and out of the mouth of the false prophet. They are demonic spirits that perform signs, and they go out to the kings of the whole world, to gather them for the battle on the great day of God Almighty.

“Look, I come like a thief! Blessed is the one who stays awake and remains clothed, so as not to go naked and be shamefully exposed.”

Then they gathered the kings together to the place that in Hebrew is called Armageddon.

Jeshu · Jun 23, 2017

SeekerOfChrist94 said:
My ex messaged me last night and he's trying to maneuver his way back into my life. I told him no and he's acting like a baby about it because I used to never tell him no and I would never stand up for myself. I wish he didn't message me because now it's opening all these bad memories and wounds.

That can be hard dear sister, but the pain also shows you that you haven't dealt with your emotions rightly yet.

Please consider bringing all your pain, but also anger and fears about your ex to Jesus - time and again - until you have not only been able to completely forgive him for all the horrible things he said and done, but also are able to pray for his salvation and well being with a clean heart and not freak or dislike his presence any longer.

Not until Jesus has accomplished this in you will you be free from the emotional pain this man has caused you. For the pain is there to tell you things are not okay. While Jesus is there to help you deal with the pain and the causes of it. So from that perspective let the inner pain bring you to Jesus not drive Him (nor your ex,) away but rather help heal you.

Much love and courage doing that. :hug:

Psalms 6:2
Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint; heal me, Lord, for my bones are in agony.

Press On · Jun 23, 2017

SeekerOfChrist94 said:
My ex messaged me last night and he's trying to maneuver his way back into my life. I told him no and he's acting like a baby about it because I used to never tell him no and I would never stand up for myself. I wish he didn't message me because now it's opening all these bad memories and wounds.

Any way you can block his communications? If so, do it for your own peace of mind if you really don't want to deal with this person.

Jeshu · Jun 23, 2017

SeekerOfChrist94 said:
My ex messaged me last night and he's trying to maneuver his way back into my life. I told him no and he's acting like a baby about it because I used to never tell him no and I would never stand up for myself. I wish he didn't message me because now it's opening all these bad memories and wounds.

Press On said:
Any way you can block his communications? If so, do it for your own peace of mind if you really don't want to deal with this person.

that's right one step at the time, stop the bleeding and the one causing it first, for all beaten up we can't do anything at all.

Keep having to remind myself of that one.

LoyalToGod · Jun 23, 2017

Hey everyone! Sorry for my seemingly long absence. I have good news: I'm going to driving school pretty soon! And a big thank you to all of you in this part of Christian Forums

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