unpure and the past

Emmy · Jun 21, 2017

Dear unpure and the past. Turn to Matthew 22: 35-40: Jesus tells us: The first and great Commandment is: Love God with all thy heart, with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. The second is like it: love thy neighbour as thyself." Verse 40 tells us: On these two Commandments hang all the Law and the Prophets. God is Love,, and God wants loving sons and daughters.
The Bible tells us: Give up all selfish and unloving thoughts and wishes, start loving and caring. On Matthew 7: 7-10: we are told: " ask and you shall receive." We ask God for Love and Joy, then we thank God and share all love and joy with our neighbour. ( all we know and all we meet) Love is very catching, and before long we will love and care all around us. Jesus died that we might live, let us follow Jesus back to God again, and give up your unloving past, just love and obey. I say this with love, dear unpure. Greetings from Emmy, your sister in Christ.

Hall · Jun 21, 2017

Catherineanne said:
Twaddle.

Illness is NOT made worse by talking; quite the opposite in relation to mental health.

Everything in life is made worse by talking "negative" about something. Keep telling yourself that you are ill and your illness will never get better, on the other hand keep telling yourself that you are healed in the name of Jesus and your illness will get better. Many people rely on drugs for the rest of their lives because they trust more in their drugs than in Jesus. And if someone really need to rely on some type of drug to help the situation, there are many natural alternatives to prescription drugs for everything. Prescribed drugs aren't healthy at all for the body, and in many cases become addictive and end up worst in the long run. It convinces the mind that it needs it and next thing you know we are living a big lie. I know because I've been there...

Lily76_ · Jun 21, 2017

GirdYourLoins said:
If youve been fighting between Islam and Christianity it makes me want to ask if you have a personal relationship with Jesus? Are you born again? Are you filled with the Holy Spirit? Have you forgiven those that abused you? Have you forgiven yourself? The last two may only be possible after the previous ones.

Av tried to have a personal relationship with Jesus i know he is the one i need in my life but am so scared of being wrong am not saying that Jesus is wrong i need to trust Jesus but i have all these doubts about it because am so scared all the time 24/7 am scared all the time my head will not shut up with it i worry all the time as well i cant relax anywhere apart from the church that i go to and am a member of and i have friends and my husband with me i then feel safe when am at church because i know am before Jesus there but i find it hard to feel that safety any where else JESUS IS EVERYWHERE i just need to feel like that in everywhere i am Unsure why the church is so important to me

am not born again i was catholic but i walked away from am now Non-Denom and i havent been re baptized as an adult i was as a child

unsure if am filled with the Holy Spirit some times i feel that am not apart from when am at church its like a calm comes over me and i feel warm and safe loved
i havent forgiven thoses who abused me am still angry am still struggling and i have never forgiven myself either i blame me mostly i hate myself so much i self injure and i have tried to kill a few times with overdoses etc over the years the hate for myself has gotten worse i blame myself for not seeing that my step dad was mentally ill the day before he killed himself by jumping off a bridge near to wear i live i have to go over that bridge everyday going into town i cant afford to move and i have the rest of my family in the area i have asked for threapy but i have been told they have done all they can for me and will not help me get more therapy its NHS am in Scotland where you dont pay and i cant afford to pay for a non NHS therapist
i am having help from my mister who i see every few days as he runs an drop in service and groups 3 time a week and i have appointments with him as well where i can talk about how i feel witch am finding very helpful and it is helping but it will take time

paul1149 · Jun 21, 2017

_Lily_76 said:
i havent forgiven thoses who abused me am still angry am still struggling and i have never forgiven myself either i blame me mostly i hate myself

Hi Lily,
It may help to remind yourself that forgiveness is a decision, not a feeling. If you identify it by feelings, it's hard to get out of that rut, because feelings don't generally change by themselves. But if you make the decision to forgive, and identify yourself with that decision rather than with the feelings, when the old negative feelings return you can stand your ground against them. It may take time, but God is patient with you and you can be too. Eventually you will be emotionally free.

The same is true about being Born Again. If you have confessed Christ as Lord and Savior, and believe He is risen from the dead, according to Romans 10.9-10 you are Saved. Feelings have nothing to do with it. The assurance of the unfailing Word of God is more important. Stand your ground on the salvation Christ gives as a free gift, based on His righteousness and not anything we do, and in times the feelings will be gone.

No weapon formed against you shall prosper,
And every tongue which rises against you in judgment
You shall condemn.
This is the heritage of the servants of the Lord,
And their righteousness is from Me,”
Says the Lord. -Isaiah 54

All that the Father gives Me will come to Me,
and the one who comes to Me I will by no means cast out. -John 6.37

Hall · Jun 21, 2017

Lily76,
I'm not suggesting that you get off your medication because it could be dangerous to do so without consent of your doctor. It seems like whatever they are giving you isn't working well so you might want to try this: Lemon Balm tea and liquid Passion Flower extract that comes in drops. You can order it online from Amazon if you want. They are completely safe and natural, but you still need to check that your medication won't interfere with it just in case. They work well for anxiety, repetitive thought patterns, constant worry, ADD, Aspergers etc.
I wish you well soon...Hug

Apex · Jun 22, 2017

_Lily_76 said:
I havent been on this forum for while ...my OCD has been bad thinking am unpure i need to be pure but i cant so much sin ...reliving things from my past ( abuse ) and my faith am struggling a lot at this moment i feel like i want to Overdose on pills my husband has forgotten to hide from me he has to lock everything up for that reason
i need to be pure i cant get to heaven if am not pure oding will not get me in heaven
the abusers took my pureness and i now keep sinning so ill end up in hell
i cant live my life over i cant stop them its too late all too late i'll be in hell no matter what happens dont want to remember the abuse but its keeps playing over and over in my head
too much pain ...

Jesus reversed and reformed the purity rules and boundaries. It is no longer that which is external that makes you impure, but what is internal. When Jesus came into contact with a corpse, leper, or menstruating woman he did not become unclean (as was typically the case), instead he made them pure/clean/whole.

Mark 7:18-23
And he said to them, "Then are you also without understanding? Do you not see that whatever goes into a person from outside cannot defile him, since it enters not his heart but his stomach, and is expelled?" (Thus he declared all foods clean.) And he said, "What comes out of a person is what defiles him. For from within, out of the heart of man, come evil thoughts, sexual immorality, theft, murder, adultery, coveting, wickedness, deceit, sensuality, envy, slander, pride, foolishness. All these evil things come from within, and they defile a person."

No person, other than yourself, can make you "impure".

Galilee63 · Jun 22, 2017

Hi Lily,

A long time ago I suggested to you visiting a Catholic or Christian Bookshop, picking up a set of Holy Rosary Beads,Jesus on His Cross, our Blessed Virgin Mother Marys Holy Rosary Beads and The Holy Brown Scapula, taking them to a Priest and asking Jesus and Holy Spirit to Bless these through one of His thousands of good Priests.

Also below here is our Lord Jesus own Holy Wound Chaplet Jesus delivered to Saint Marie Martha Chambon in the early 1900s with many of Jesus Holy Messages it would not copy from one of the many websites.

www.catholictradition.org/Christ/holy-wounds.htm

Galilee63 · Jun 22, 2017

I will include you in our Blessed Virgin Mother Marys Most Holy Rosary tomorrow Lily - I have written your name down to remember tomorrow

DennisTate · Jun 22, 2017

_Lily_76 said:
I havent been on this forum for while ...my OCD has been bad thinking am unpure i need to be pure but i cant so much sin ...reliving things from my past ( abuse ) and my faith am struggling a lot at this moment i feel like i want to Overdose on pills my husband has forgotten to hide from me he has to lock everything up for that reason
i need to be pure i cant get to heaven if am not pure oding will not get me in heaven
the abusers took my pureness and i now keep sinning so ill end up in hell
i cant live my life over i cant stop them its too late all too late i'll be in hell no matter what happens dont want to remember the abuse but its keeps playing over and over in my head
too much pain ...

If you will scroll down to the section
The Truth of Grace and
read all of this I believe that you will be greatly encouraged.

The Final Quest [English] Rick Joyner

paul becke · Jun 23, 2017

Lily, I think it might be because there is a little kind of monitor or monitor-like function in our brain that ordinarily would have perceived a glimmer of a bad thought and immediately repressed it, before it reached our consciousness. For whatever reason, with some of us that monitor malfunctions, and we end up trying to consciously SUPpress it retroactively.

Watching the inappropriate contentography that they seem to insert in all Hollywood films these days would not help. I got rid of my television several years ago. But that might be an extreme reaction, partly, as I feel your sufferings are likely to be 100% redemptive, sharing in Christ's sufferings mostly for the sake of other people, rather than your own sins - which I strongly suspect in your case would be very trivial, venial sins, however 'dirty' on the face of it.

paul becke · Jun 23, 2017

_Lily_76 said:
Av tried to have a personal relationship with Jesus i know he is the one i need in my life but am so scared of being wrong am not saying that Jesus is wrong i need to trust Jesus but i have all these doubts about it because am so scared all the time 24/7 am scared all the time my head will not shut up with it i worry all the time as well i cant relax anywhere apart from the church that i go to and am a member of and i have friends and my husband with me i then feel safe when am at church because i know am before Jesus there but i find it hard to feel that safety any where else JESUS IS EVERYWHERE i just need to feel like that in everywhere i am Unsure why the church is so important to me

am not born again i was catholic but i walked away from am now Non-Denom and i havent been re baptized as an adult i was as a child

unsure if am filled with the Holy Spirit some times i feel that am not apart from when am at church its like a calm comes over me and i feel warm and safe loved
i havent forgiven thoses who abused me am still angry am still struggling and i have never forgiven myself either i blame me mostly i hate myself so much i self injure and i have tried to kill a few times with overdoses etc over the years the hate for myself has gotten worse i blame myself for not seeing that my step dad was mentally ill the day before he killed himself by jumping off a bridge near to wear i live i have to go over that bridge everyday going into town i cant afford to move and i have the rest of my family in the area i have asked for threapy but i have been told they have done all they can for me and will not help me get more therapy its NHS am in Scotland where you dont pay and i cant afford to pay for a non NHS therapist
i am having help from my mister who i see every few days as he runs an drop in service and groups 3 time a week and i have appointments with him as well where i can talk about how i feel witch am finding very helpful and it is helping but it will take time

If you want greater assurance of Jesus' unconditional love for you, Lily, you should watch the 'near death experiences' about heaven that many people have had. There would be few thngs as uplifting as to see and listen to the NDEers as they are called, describing how overwhelming God's love is for them, 'warts and all'. They know the 'being of light' who talks with them is Jesus, even though he doesn't say it. Also, he won't be drawn on which is the true church, etc. It's just all about showing love to other people, especially those who are suffering more than most of us. They become very emotional and tearful, tears of joy - and regret that they have to go back for a while. But the experience always changes the priorities in their lives. I can recommend some, if you want to PM me.

paul becke · Jun 23, 2017

_Lily_76 said:
Av tried to have a personal relationship with Jesus i know he is the one i need in my life but am so scared of being wrong am not saying that Jesus is wrong i need to trust Jesus but i have all these doubts about it because am so scared all the time 24/7 am scared all the time my head will not shut up with it i worry all the time as well i cant relax anywhere apart from the church that i go to and am a member of and i have friends and my husband with me i then feel safe when am at church because i know am before Jesus there but i find it hard to feel that safety any where else JESUS IS EVERYWHERE i just need to feel like that in everywhere i am Unsure why the church is so important to me

am not born again i was catholic but i walked away from am now Non-Denom and i havent been re baptized as an adult i was as a child

unsure if am filled with the Holy Spirit some times i feel that am not apart from when am at church its like a calm comes over me and i feel warm and safe loved
i havent forgiven thoses who abused me am still angry am still struggling and i have never forgiven myself either i blame me mostly i hate myself so much i self injure and i have tried to kill a few times with overdoses etc over the years the hate for myself has gotten worse i blame myself for not seeing that my step dad was mentally ill the day before he killed himself by jumping off a bridge near to wear i live i have to go over that bridge everyday going into town i cant afford to move and i have the rest of my family in the area i have asked for threapy but i have been told they have done all they can for me and will not help me get more therapy its NHS am in Scotland where you dont pay and i cant afford to pay for a non NHS therapist

i am having help from my mister who i see every few days as he runs an drop in service and groups 3 time a week and i have appointments with him as well where i can talk about how i feel witch am finding very helpful and it is helping but it will take time

If I were you, Lily, I would give serious thought to going to Confession in a Catholic church ; making a general confession, your life history sort of thing. It is a wonderful source of peace of mind and soul. I used to be a rabid anti-Catholic, but reverted to the faith at about 20. I don't normally try to proselytize, as I have a lot of respect for some major Protestant churches. Also God (the Hound of Heaven, of Francis Thompson's poem of that name) and Our Lady don't readily let go of their sprogs in the RC church.

Lily76_ · Jun 24, 2017

i cant go to a Catholic church my flashbacks are very bad at the moment and going there will make them worse i have some Holy Rosary Beads that have been blessed my nice got them from Roman when she was visiting there a few years ago i have always kept them and i use them but rarely maybe i should use them more The Church i go to is the only Church my husband will go to as he is a new Christian and is very picky what type of Church he will go to
We are going to Our Church on Sunday am hoping the Minster who has been helping me is there tomorrow as i really need to talk to him but he has been ill for a while and things with me have gotten worse during that time...i know i should see a priest and go to confession but i cant at the moment as i am too scared the flashbacks will get worse

paul becke · Jun 24, 2017

_Lily_76 said:
i cant go to a Catholic church my flashbacks are very bad at the moment and going there will make them worse i have some Holy Rosary Beads that have been blessed my nice got them from Roman when she was visiting there a few years ago i have always kept them and i use them but rarely maybe i should use them more The Church i go to is the only Church my husband will go to as he is a new Christian and is very picky what type of Church he will go to
We are going to Our Church on Sunday am hoping the Minster who has been helping me is there tomorrow as i really need to talk to him but he has been ill for a while and things with me have gotten worse during that time...i know i should see a priest and go to confession but i cant at the moment as i am too scared the flashbacks will get worse

Hi Lily

Maybe sometime you'll be able to phone for a priest to come to you to hear your confession. He will reassure you, and the blessing he gives you from Christ through the Church will put a stop to any flashbacks you were having then. I think it would advance your healing, though it would normally take time, commitment and prayers.

The problem is, bad thoughts always come out of the blue, without warning. With me, mostly when I am actually praying, and when I am lost in thought ('lost' seems an unfortunate word in the context, but less pretentious than 'thinking deeply' !), trying to understand something. But I can't let that stop my prayers and attempts to understand things. However, I do find the short prayers very effective in the morning, when washing, shaving, etc.

brinny · Jun 24, 2017

Praying (((hug)))

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