- May 4, 2017
- 17
- 23
- 29
- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Pentecostal
- Marital Status
- Single
I don't know. I have so many thoughts. Right now I'm angry with my brother for the worst thing that could ever happen. I see him and instantly want to cry. Him me and my sister are really close. We are best friends. This litteraly broke us apart. We are in the youth leadership and we haven't spoken in two days. I can't see a way past this. I'm scared this has changed our bond. It's too hard to see past what he has done. I can't really explain. But I just needed to write it out. I want to scream from the top of my lungs and kick and cry like a child. I need to be strong since I'm in leadership. I just want to run and run and run away from it all. This issue involves other youth but I can't tell them. I'm angry at them. I'm annoyed and just want to explode. I can't tell my brother to stop texting someone or talking to them. I can't tell him how to act or feel. I want to pray for him and stuff but I can't. I'm angry so angry. Like I can't see the light. I feel like leaving my church. It feels like I can't stand up for myself. I need to submit. And have control. I need to scream!!!!!!!!!!!