How do I make something of myself?

One suggestion, if you're looking to get into office work. Have you tried temping? I moved from retail into office based work (and then up the ladder) by starting out doing some data entry as a temp. Yes, the data entry was mind-numbing, but at first I could do that while still keeping the part-time retail job as a safety net; and good temps are routinely offered ongoing work. I'd moved into a more interesting role within the organisation within the year.

Have you thought about going to trade school and learning a trade instead of going to university? It might be a better option. HVAC or something similar will always be in demand.

You have a job and are not a drain on society. It could be much worse. In some trades, the employer will pay for you to go to trade school.

Spend 3 months and absorb a programming language. It's almost free, not that difficult, opens doors, and potentially pays very well.

.Mikha'el. said:

I'm posting here because I'm really scared and worried. I see myself as having no life or future, and no prospects of ever having a prosperous, productive, and fulfilled life. I'm in my early 30's, still living with parents, working a dead-end part-time retail grocery job

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You are a staff member here, isn't that a job??

Moderators - and most staff here - volunteer our time.

Said a prayer for you, hoping for guidance and comfort to come your way. God bless you.

Matthew 10:39
Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it.

You know brother it is really difficult to get anywhere in life when we look at our problems, or hurts, or our unmet needs, rather than at look Jesus and the place He wants us to be. Yet this is so very easy to do, especially when we suffer from depression or other mental issues.

I suggest that instead of trying to work out where to go from here using the conventional ways, is to drop the load you are carrying down at Jesus feet, time and again, and pick up His loving grace to carry you passed these barriers - time and again.

For I know that when we operate under His love command then we are free from any burdens we may otherwise need to carry and are also able to love God and neighbour freely and productively for His love moves us rather than our pains.

This involves having to deny ourselves the right to focus on our needs, wants and desires and focus on loving God and neighbour instead. Which can be extremely hard to to do when we are caning our needs and wants, but just then is so important to let go of! For us hurting our needs and wants is precisely how the wicked keep us down and out chaining us to our own inner misery so to speak.

To my amazement I have found that each need, want or desire that I successfully handed over to Jesus - died to in other words - I ended-up receiving in ways I could have never anticipated or I realised that such was not fro me and was able to let go of it. Though I do admit that at times I struggled to die in part of myself for years because I put me up front all the time and not Him - yet it amazed me how quickly Jesus made my need or desire come true or set me free from hurting it - once I was able to do so.

So to die to our need or want is not to deny ourselves the right to have them, but much rather to love Jesus more than our desire or want and place and desire Him above our own own will. So when in our heart we hear - Here I am, I want to Your will Oh Lord rather than burn/hurt/crave our unmet desires - then we know we are free - not before.

The great thing about this is that at least we can move on from where we are stuck doing it this way. For for years I was stuck with unmet desires and they tortured me because I wanted them so badly. However when I finally died to wanting my desires in favour of loving God and neighbour I learned to love and serve Jesus in those parts of my life instead of suffering needlessly.

I sincerely hope and pray you can find freedom from your inner pain brother and that Jesus can lead you to freedom with regards to the issues you have.

Peace.

Matthew 9:28-30
Jesus said to them, “Truly I tell you, at the renewal of all things, when the Son of Man sits on his glorious throne, you who have followed me will also sit on twelve thrones, judging the twelve tribes of Israel. And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life. But many who are first will be last, and many who are last will be first.

I'm sorry you're struggling! I'll pray for you. Hopefully you'll be able to graduate and get that job that you wanted. If it doesn't work maybe Galatea is right, and you should try a trade school.