I spiritually perceive that you are "baby" Christ-follower in the first baby steps of your journey...a
SALVATION EVENT ...THEN...A
SANCTIFICATION PROCESS.
Mine the Scriptures for those 2 words.
RECOMMEND: seek and find an assembly "church" ask for a written "Doctrinal Statement" a Great ONE is found HERE:
Doctrinal Statement | Dallas Theological Seminary (DTS)
Read / spiritually discern the entire Bible SYSTEMATICALLY. For example" "Through the Bible in 1 year" courses
I recommend the NASB version STUDY BIBLE (Ryrie) because it the most LITERAL translation from the original languages.
ORDER:
1. read all of John (the elder)...Gospel + Letters + Revelatiion...THEN: Matthew=> Luke => Mark => Acts
2. Then read ALL the letters of Paul IN ORDER starting with Romans...his PH.D. dissertation
3. Then read the rest of the NT
The NT will reference the OT, especially the first 5 books ~= the Torah. Go there when quoted/referenced.
You should be in an assembly/"church' for fellowship with the wiser / more mature in Christ + BIBLE STUDY. God might find you a mate there! (IF you need one!)
Why have I taken the time to rant above? My spirit was moved me to so do.
Luke 2:40
The Child continued to grow and become strong,
increasing in wisdom; and the grace of God was upon Him.
Hebrews 5:13
For everyone who partakes only of milk is not accustomed to the word of righteousness, for he is an infant.
1 Peter 2:2
like newborn babies, long for the pure milk of the word (of God),
so that by it you may grow in respect to salvation,
Ephesians 6:10[ The FULL Armor of God ]
Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of His might.
1 John 2:14
I have written to you, fathers, because you know Him who has been from the beginning.
I have written to you, young men, because you are strong, and
the word of God abides in you, and
you have overcome the evil one.
Ecclesiastes 12 is FULL of wisdom! (Soloman?)
2 Chronicles 15:7
But you, be strong and do not lose courage, for there is reward for your work.”
Job 17:9
“Nevertheless the righteous will hold to His way,
And he who has clean hands will grow stronger and stronger.
Psalm 18:2
The Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer,
My God, my rock, in whom I take refuge;
My shield and the horn of my salvation,
my stronghold.