- Mar 27, 2017
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My main abuser was a woman and she raped me. I feel she was trying to also make me a lesbian like she might be. She said that I should be a lesbian because of the men that raped me. She said no man would want me anymore as I am. She said that I am disgusting and evil and ugly. She said that a girl would want me more than a man. She said that handsome men would not want me and that I was too much a sinner to be healed. She said that lesbianism would heal me from my trauma but I dont think that it will. Because she raped me and she was a woman too I feel violated and feel maybe men would no longer be attracted to me or see me as beautiful. I often feel worthless as a woman.