I don't feel right.....

Jenniferdiana said:

Deep down in my heart i feel like i belong to God and that he loves me...i feel close to him but at the same time I feel like God is against me...i don't know how to get God to see that I truly do love him..from what I'm experiencing, I know he is angry with me. Disappointed in me. What can I do to prove that I want to do right and that I truly love him? Is it too late because his anger is upon me​

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Why would God be against you?

If you know Christ as Saviour, then He will never leave you nor forsake you. I don't know what your walk is- mine is rather weak. That may be why you are experiencing these feelings. But if He is your Father, He loves you even if you are not walking as closely with Him as you should be.

Just pray and talk to Him. Tell Him how you feel and that you desire to be in closer fellowship. Ask Him to help you get rid of whatever is keeping you from Him in your walk.

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What does the Bible say about you? Faith comes by hearing and reading His Word. God will withdraw from you, not because He has stopped loving you, but to get you to transfer your faith from your feelings to His written Word. It is a great bonus to feel close to God and God close to you, but it is not a reliable foundation for faith. What you need to do is to study the scriptures about your relationship with God, in their proper context. You will find that your faith will increase and strengthen because you are seeing and believing what is in the Bible for you. Jeremiah repeats God's attitude to us: "I know the thoughts I have for you...to give you a hope and a future." Look that scripture up and see the blessing of it. It is true no matter how you feel. I don't feel close to God when I stumble out of bed bleary-eyed on a Monday morning, but God's Word says that He is closer than a brother, and I believe it regardless of my grotty feelings as I try to wake up.

The devil is a liar. He will come and tell you that you are not close to God because you don't feel that way. But he is defeated when you go to God's Word and quote encouraging scriptures back to Him, like" "I will never leave you nor forsake you." "When I go to the Father, I will send you a Comforter, who will not only be with you; He will be in you."

The Holy Spirit is in your spirit. He is deeper than your feelings and emotions. He is always there, believe it because God's Word says so. You are beloved of God, accepted in His family, Jesus is your brother and He is not ashamed to acknowledge you as such, and He is at God's throne praying for you all the time. That's what the Bible says about you.

This is why God withdraws a sense of closeness - to get your faith firmly based on what is written in His Word. "Your Word have I hidden in my heart that I might not sin against you." "Your word is a light to my path and a lamp to my feet."

I figure that one thing we can assume for certain out of all the many ideas that are associated with our religion...

...is that God knows our hearts and thoughts.

If you want very much for him to know that you love him, relax. He already knows.

A good book to read is by the Puritan author William Bridge, "A Lifting Up Of the Downcast". This is the best book I have found for discouraged believers. Don't be put off because it was written in the late 1600s. His language is clear and straight forward. This book is transcribed from his sermons on the topic. You will find that the Puritan authors wrote clear and simple language to give their teaching because their vision was to get the truth of God's word to ordinary people who were in the most uneducated. This is why we can read these texts and understand them as clearly as those who lived in the 17th Century did. That was the golden era of Biblical teaching, and has influenced most of the major men of God who followed in later centuries, including John Wesley, George Whitfield, and Charles Spurgeon.

William Bridge strongly advocates faith in God's written Word rather than in impressions and feelings. This is why some Pentecostals don't like Puritan teaching. I encountered some flak when I was a deacon in a Charismatic church and started teaching Puritan theology. The teaching went right against the Charismatic dependence on impressions and "senses of the Spirit", and who made what they believed the Spirit speaking to their hearts more or equally important to reading it from the Bible. William Bridge would not have approved that current Charismatic way of getting "spiritual" impressions or isolated verses coming to mind. He would say, "Go and study the Bible to check out the validity of your impression."

William Bridge's book can be downloaded as a PDF or a Kindle document for free, and if you take the time to read it through, it will make a big difference to your faith.

Jenniferdiana said:

What can I do to prove that I truly love him?

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Trust.

The barrier between you and God, even as a Christian, is sin. When we sin, we put up a barrier between us and God. God isn't against you, He is against your sin. The way we get around that is constant renewal of our repentance. Don't get me wrong, once you repent and "become saved" that is one-time only, but continued repentance is what opens up our relationship to Him again. That's why Jesus taught us "The Lord's Prayer" and it says "forgive us our sins" - we ask for forgiveness for our sins constantly. Also in the Lord's Prayer we reaffirm we want God's Will to be done and that we be delivered from evil. What happens after we pray in that fashion? We usually sin again, we do evil at some point, we go against God's Will at some point. That's why our prayer should include those elements of the Lord's Prayer (or just pray the Lord's Prayer).

But that is why you feel some degree of separation - it is sin. This is ongoing in the walk with God, we will need to always ask forgiveness and always reaffirm that we want His Will to be done and that we be delivered from evil. It doesn't mean we have lost salvation but it means that we, although Christians, are still imperfect and still sin and we need to "reset" ourselves with God.

Jenniferdiana said:

Deep down in my heart i feel like i belong to God and that he loves me...i feel close to him but at the same time I feel like God is against me...i don't know how to get God to see that I truly do love him..from what I'm experiencing, I know he is angry with me. Disappointed in me. What can I do to prove that I want to do right and that I truly love him? Is it too late because his anger is upon me​

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Do not trust your feelings. Read what the Lord has written to you. Trust in his word and not in your own understanding.

Repent...can you confess to Him whatever it was youve done wrong? He will forgive you if you admit youve done wrong and ask forgiveness. Whatever it is. Sometimes if we dont fess up it just eats away at us and thats what gives us awful feelings. Hes waiting. And Jesus will show you a way to break free of sinful habits. Then you will have His peace. .

Oscarr said:

What does the Bible say about you? Faith comes by hearing and reading His Word. God will withdraw from you, not because He has stopped loving you, but to get you to transfer your faith from your feelings to His written Word. It is a great bonus to feel close to God and God close to you, but it is not a reliable foundation for faith. What you need to do is to study the scriptures about your relationship with God, in their proper context. You will find that your faith will increase and strengthen because you are seeing and believing what is in the Bible for you. Jeremiah repeats God's attitude to us: "I know the thoughts I have for you...to give you a hope and a future." Look that scripture up and see the blessing of it. It is true no matter how you feel. I don't feel close to God when I stumble out of bed bleary-eyed on a Monday morning, but God's Word says that He is closer than a brother, and I believe it regardless of my grotty feelings as I try to wake up.

The devil is a liar. He will come and tell you that you are not close to God because you don't feel that way. But he is defeated when you go to God's Word and quote encouraging scriptures back to Him, like" "I will never leave you nor forsake you." "When I go to the Father, I will send you a Comforter, who will not only be with you; He will be in you."

The Holy Spirit is in your spirit. He is deeper than your feelings and emotions. He is always there, believe it because God's Word says so. You are beloved of God, accepted in His family, Jesus is your brother and He is not ashamed to acknowledge you as such, and He is at God's throne praying for you all the time. That's what the Bible says about you.

This is why God withdraws a sense of closeness - to get your faith firmly based on what is written in His Word. "Your Word have I hidden in my heart that I might not sin against you." "Your word is a light to my path and a lamp to my feet."

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This is great advice

Jenniferdiana said:

Deep down in my heart i feel like i belong to God and that he loves me...i feel close to him but at the same time I feel like God is against me...i don't know how to get God to see that I truly do love him..from what I'm experiencing, I know he is angry with me. Disappointed in me. What can I do to prove that I want to do right and that I truly love him? Is it too late because his anger is upon me​

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God knows your every thought and your intentions.. So you do not have to convince God of anything in relation to your thoughts about Him..

God will often disapline those He loves.. In fact if God does not disapline us then we are not Gods Childeren.. So get into the teachings of Jesus in the Gospels believe him and just do your best to be a better person.. Also pray to God and ask Him to bring to your attention anything in your life or beliefs that run counter to His will...

May you be blessed

Jenniferdiana said:

Deep down in my heart i feel like i belong to God and that he loves me...i feel close to him but at the same time I feel like God is against me...i don't know how to get God to see that I truly do love him..from what I'm experiencing, I know he is angry with me. Disappointed in me. What can I do to prove that I want to do right and that I truly love him? Is it too late because his anger is upon me​

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I'm going through something similar to you, and more or less just coming out of it (or snapping out of it). Looking at some of my past posts on here, they look rather embarrassing to me now, only because I went from an on-fire high point, to a crashing low point and came here for help. I was confused and deeply distressed over this, thinking God condemned me and was so angry with me that he rejected me.

Oscarr helped me, and many others, and I came to realize truth > feelings. I know it's hard, but if I've always truly believed in Jesus, and I truly believe in God's word, then I have to accept what the bible says about me, no matter how I feel or perceive things.

And if I accept what the bible says, then that means the negative thoughts and feelings are from the devil and the flesh. I went through fear, doubt, anxiety, condemnation, depression, guilt, regret. I thought God cut me off. It took some time but after going through scripture and meditating on multiple verses as well as discerning other things, I feel much better. I had to stick with the truth over feelings.

God isn't against you, no matter how you feel. You ask how to get Him to know how much you truly love him? Well, you have to understand that He knows your heart better than you do.

How do I know this? One example: God said years before David was born (after Saul's sin) that he chose a new king, "A man after mine own heart." Think about that for a minute. Isn't that amazing? He knew David's heart towards Him before he was born. He knew every single one of us before we were born.

Another example: He made Moses write down in the scriptures that he was "very meek, above all the men on the face of the earth." I wonder what Moses thought when God revealed that to him while he was writing this stuff down? Moses couldn't have known that, but God did.

I'd say get yourself back into studying the word and renew your mind. That's what I'm doing and I can tell my faith is climbing back up. I'm now speaking to my fears and doubts in the name of Jesus, and they flee. Some points in the day I even feel like Smith Wigglesworth lol, telling my body how to feel. I'm even waiting on a couple more bible translations and a strong's concordance in the mail for study because I'm catching the bug! I want to immerse myself completely in His word. The best cure for anything the devil throws at you is God's medicine!

"He that is not with me is against me; and he that gathereth not with me scattereth abroad." (Matthew 12:30)

"If a man love me, he will keep [submit to and rely upon] my words" (John 14:23)
"He that loveth me not keepeth not [submits not to and relies not upon] my sayings" (John 14:24)

Jenniferdiana said:

Deep down in my heart i feel like i belong to God and that he loves me...i feel close to him but at the same time I feel like God is against me...i don't know how to get God to see that I truly do love him..from what I'm experiencing, I know he is angry with me. Disappointed in me. What can I do to prove that I want to do right and that I truly love him? Is it too late because his anger is upon me​

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Luk 10:38-42 The Lord and his disciples were traveling along and came to a village. When they got there, a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. She had a sister named Mary, who sat down in front of the Lord and was listening to what he said. Martha was worried about all that had to be done. Finally, she went to Jesus and said, "Lord, doesn't it bother you that my sister has left me to do all the work by myself? Tell her to come and help me!" The Lord answered, "Martha, Martha! You are worried and upset about so many things, but only one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen what is best, and it will not be taken away from her."

It is easy to get discouraged, and think God does not care, but in reality those thoughts just come from the devil, God cares for you, and your needs. He is waiting for you to spend some time with him. Just one on one, just your heart to his.

Jenniferdiana said:

Deep down in my heart i feel like i belong to God and that he loves me...i feel close to him but at the same time I feel like God is against me...i don't know how to get God to see that I truly do love him..from what I'm experiencing, I know he is angry with me. Disappointed in me. What can I do to prove that I want to do right and that I truly love him? Is it too late because his anger is upon me​

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The Lord knows your heart more than you know it. If your love for the Lord is sincere He will know it. You don't have to force it. Only try your best to keep His commandments and be obedient to Him.