Hopeless spiritual crisis

Gabriel Anton · Jan 19, 2017

Galnaros said:
Hello Gabriel, thanks for your concern.

I'm afraid I can't follow the path that was set out for me. I can't even function in this society anymore because I have totally lost my personality,sense of humor, love, etc. I'm basically a zombie. I don't talk a lot anymore simply because I have forgotten how to be myself. I just don't know how to reply to people when having small talk conversations. I'd just sit and stare and answer with 'yes', 'hmhm' 'no' etc. All I can talk about is the problems I face now. I have become an empty shell without any emotions or feelings.

I will answer the new questions below:

Q1.
Was the Bible you bought hardbound or softcover?
Hardbound

Q2.
How much did you pay for the Dutch Bible?
I don't remember buying it because I was in such ecstacy from the love I experienced given by the Holy Spirit.

Q3.
Do you love your Dutch Bible?
No, I don't love anything or anyone anymore.

Q4.
What was the name of the 2nd Pope?
I don't know. I barely put any effort into preparing for my Theology studies, because I began doubting my call pretty early.

Q5.
How many Popes have there been?
Not sure, around 250?

Q6.
How many years does it take to become a Priest in
Tilburg Shool of Catholic Theology?
I'd say 5 years (3 years bachelor, 2 years master)

Q7.
Which books of the Bible have you read?
Genesis, Exodus,Samuel,Kings
Matthew,Mark,Luke, John.
And more, but I have forgotten most books because of my mental numbness.
I quit reading my Bible at some point when I had lost my faith, because my eyes were closed to the truth. I remember reading the Bible and experiencing a great feeling of rest after doing so. When that stopped, I didn't bother reading my Bible anymore.

Q8.
Has there ever been a Dutch Pope?
Don't think so.

Q9.
Do you know what a Rosary is?
Yes

Q10.
Do you know how to say the Hail Mary?
No

Peace be with you, Sinan.

You were either called by God or you were not.

If you were called by God, you answer the Call. There's no such thing as turning your back to God when you get the Call.

If you were not called by God, then you were delusional and just dreamt all these things up.

When you are called by God, you act like this:

Matthew C4 (CEB)
18 As Jesus walked alongside the Galilee Sea, he saw two brothers, Simon, who is called Peter, and Andrew, throwing fishing nets into the sea, because they were fishermen. 19 “Come, follow me,” he said, “and I’ll show you how to fish for people.” 20 Right away, they left their nets and followed him.

21 Continuing on, he saw another set of brothers, James the son of Zebedee and his brother John. They were in a boat with Zebedee their father repairing their nets. Jesus called them and 22 immediately they left the boat and their father and followed him.

If you were called by God and you turned your back on the Call, then I am unable to assist you any further as it would contravene the Will of God. You Must answer God's Call.

When you turn your back on God's Call, you are saying, "I have no need of anything from You, O God, I know what is best for my own life."

Then when your life turns out empty and you feel like a zombie, you ask God for "Help." How is God suppose to help you when you have turned your back on God and refused the path that He has drawn out for you?

So, what you are feeling now is basically a small taste of what life is like without God which will follow you to the next life unless you decide to answer God's Call. Then God will know you have decided to follow Him so He will heal you. It's not very complex really.

Being called by God is Life's Greatest Honour, besides Living and Dying for the Glory of God for the Salvation of Souls.

God bless you.

Open Heart · Jan 20, 2017

Galnaros said:
Hello all,

My name is Sinan Shamun, 21 years old and I come from the Netherlands.
In December 2015 I was very depressed and was looking for a cause to live for. I never understood who I was and what the hell I was doing here in the first place. Then suddenly, in February 2016 I felt amazing, I was full of love,joy, creativity and basically all positive things imaginable. I was killing it at my job and it felt as if I was in heaven every moment of the day. Then in March, during the communion of my little sister I found my faith in God, it was a great happening and I finally understood life after being an atheist for 20 years. I learned that it was the Holy Spirit which was dwelling in me at the time. I was constantly communicating with Jesus as if he were my best friend, and I loved it. As time passed I became very introspective and got to know my relation to God even better.
Then the great day came, God told me that I was the complete package to become a Roman Catholic Pope, me out of all people, after all those years. (I assume this happened to the current Pope when he was my age and suddenly switched from a Chemistry major to pursuing his path to become the Pope). I then learned that I had to spread my wings and fly away, become a total new person, find new Christian friends and live a holy life. At first I was totally flabbergasted by all of this. I decided to sign up for my Theology major in Utrecht at a Catholic school and was so grateful for being given a cause in life.
Then,unfortunately, all things went downhill. I realized that becoming a Catholic Pastor meant not being able to have sex and a wife and all other worldy pleasures, so I started avoiding God. Avoiding reading the Bible I bought and continuing a sinful life (smoking, using drugs, etc) after all that God had done for me. I became less and less full of positive energy and my connection with God was decaying and decaying. I showed up at the meeting day prior to starting my Theology major when I was totally unprepared, I had not become the person God wanted me to become and I just sat there with the other students looking like a complete fool, not knowing what to say. I left the meeting day by just running away from the other students and I went home.
Eventually, my thinking reached a point where I had sudden realization which totally destroyed God for me. I convinced myself that God is an all between the ears thing and that I don't own it anymore. It was gone, totally evaporated. I even remember cussing at the Holy Spirit for leaving me after I had failed God in a shameful way and I am actually 100% sure that I have committed the unforgivable sin, since I am not genuinely worried about committing it anymore. My heart wants to know nothing about God but my mind knows God is everything I need, but I have screwed up. I can't blame God for all that has happened, I was even warned prior to me finding out I was elected to become a Pope. God told me to 'choose wisely' and he warned me of a curse. It was all or nothing for me and it sure as hell turned out to be nothing and my destination will be hell for sure.
I had such a beautiful life ahead but all my stupid 20 year old self could think of was sex at the moment, instead of being able to help many souls including those of my friends, who weren't Christians either. My mind has become corrupt and worthless because I lost God and my introspectivity has reached so far that I have basically committed spiritual dialysis. I'm stuck with a mind that thinks about useless goalless garbage all day long. I spent months in a mental ward, taking medicine because the psychiatrists believed I was deluded and got myself into a psychosis. After all those months of medicine and super long tedious days it turned out that they were wrong and that my spiritual experience was from God. I have nothing now, all joy, love, personality and everything positive have evaporated into absolute nothingnes. 7 months of hell have passed and no progress was made. Many prayers have been prayed but all of them were in vain. I was helped by spiritual healers and therapists but nothing worked.

I have no idea what to do and am really feeling the urge to throw the towel in the ring because this life is terrible. A clinical depression is an ecstacy trip compared to what I'm going through and I'd cut off my limbs were it that I'd get my mental and emotional state back to 'normal' again. I am seriously considering to end it all and just accept my fate, which is probably hell. I'd take physical pain of flames over this mental numbness any day.

Has anyone heard of a story similar to mine and/or does anyone have any tips for me? Can anyone confirm that I should just accept my fate since there is nothing I can do about all of this? I read my bible while in the mental ward but it got me nowhere. No revelations or real understanding.

Thank you.

Hello my friend.

I have had many experiences like yours. I am bipolar. When I am manic, it is like being in heaven. I feel like God has given me some sort of special purpose on earth. But when I swing down into the depressions (and bipolar depressions are the very worst) I would become an atheist.

As the years went by, I began to realize that my moods were very unreliable gages of truth. For example, if the only time I don't believe in God is when I'm outrageously depressed, well then that's a pretty good sign I'm being irrational. And I learned to recognize that when I get these ideas that God has some kind of special purpose for me (like a grand purpose, similar to you becoming pope) that this was my mania.

It took a long time to get this under control, largely because so many years I was misdiagnosed, and then when they finally got my diagnosis right, it took them a long time (trial and error) to get just the right combination of medications that would help me.

Don't give up on your doctors. It may take them a very long time before they are able to help you, but in the end it will be worth it. You won't have to ride this roller coaster forever.

Galnaros · Jan 20, 2017

Gabriel Anton said:
If you were called by God and you turned your back on the Call, then I am unable to assist you any further as it would contravene the Will of God. You Must answer God's Call.

When you turn your back on God's Call, you are saying, "I have no need of anything from You, O God, I know what is best for my own life."

Then when your life turns out empty and you feel like a zombie, you ask God for "Help." How is God suppose to help you when you have turned your back on God and refused the path that He has drawn out for you?
.

This is exactly why I think God won't help me out of the mess I got myself in. I was indeed called by Him and I did indeed turn my back on Him. I somehow deserve what I'm going through now. I could have had such a beautiful life if I decided to stick with God and live in this heavenly state of mind/union with God I used to live in. I am not capable of trying to get back on the path that was set out for me simply because I have lost my faith, which I see as something substantial. You either have faith or you don't and I certainly have lost it.
I am going to try new antidepressants today, perhaps they'll manage to change my mind a bit.

com7fy8 · Jan 20, 2017

Galnaros said:
This is exactly why I think God won't help me out of the mess I got myself in. I was indeed called by Him and I did indeed turn my back on Him.

There is our basic calling, as God's children > this includes >

"And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one body; and be thankful." (Colossians 3:15)

You have not said anything about God making you aware of this being in His basic calling of you. Also . . . in our love calling with God >

"I, therefore, the prisoner of the Lord, beseech you to walk worthy of the calling with which you were called, with all lowliness and gentleness, with longsuffering, bearing with one another in love, endeavoring to keep the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace." (Ephesians 4:1-3)

Our basic Christian calling, then, is our love calling. This brings us into whatsoever is really God's ministerial and service calling. So, God does not only tell us some thing we are going to do, but He prepares us in His love. And this is with one another, including how one another will help us to know and do all which God means > no calling is an isolation thing.

You can read and feed on how our Apostle Paul lived . . . loved in . . . his calling to be the apostle to the Gentiles >

"But we were gentle among you, just as a nursing mother cherishes her own children." (1 Thessalonians 2:7)

Paul as a great church leader was like a nursing mother, cherishing the children of God whom he cared for. So, this would be basic to becoming a real pope

This would be what God means if He were to tell you you would be a pope. And God makes things like this clear to His whom He has chosen and qualified and approved.

Also, I offer how Paul uses a nursing mother as his way for showing how he related with Christians. I can see he learned from Christian mothers as his role model. So, he depended on other Christians, in order to find out how to love in his ministering. Like this, a real pope in preparation would need women and others to help him find out how to love so he could care for God's children in our Father's cherishing way.

So, being a real pope is not at all about only "influence" >

"nor as being lords over those entrusted to you, but being examples to the flock." (1 Peter 3:4)

Galnaros said:
I somehow deserve what I'm going through now.

I offer, that in the kingdom of sin and Satan, we can suffer greatly painful consequences, but this pain can be so much more than the pain we have caused. This is because things are not fair, in Satan's kingdom. Not all is God's measured punishment, but our own nature makes us able to suffer so much more than we might deserve.

It's what you make it,
how you take it . . .
just don't you fake it!!

Galnaros said:
I could have had such a beautiful life if I decided to stick with God and live in this heavenly state of mind/union with God I used to live in.

Being with God is not only a feeling, but in His love we grow in stability. He makes us stronger so we do not get away from Him. His love matures our character so we stay with Him, even becoming "as He is" "in this world." (in 1 John 4:17)

This is what His love has us experiencing and feeling.

Galnaros said:
I am not capable of trying to get back on the path that was set out for me simply because I have lost my faith, which I see as something substantial. You either have faith or you don't and I certainly have lost it.

Real faith is indeed substantial > our Apostle Paul says we need >

"faith working through love" (in Galatians 5:6).

I offer how Paul says this faith works. It does not fail. "Love never fails," we have in 1 Corinthians 13:8. So, if whatever you had has failed, love "hopes all things", we have in 1 Corinthians 13:7.

So, because of how love "hopes all things", you can not trick or convince us into giving up hope for you, or on anyone else who seems like he or she is an impossible case ! ! !

Because God is the One who decides

truefiction1 · Jan 20, 2017

Galnaros said:
This is exactly why I think God won't help me out of the mess I got myself in. I was indeed called by Him and I did indeed turn my back on Him. I somehow deserve what I'm going through now. I could have had such a beautiful life if I decided to stick with God and live in this heavenly state of mind/union with God I used to live in. I am not capable of trying to get back on the path that was set out for me simply because I have lost my faith, which I see as something substantial. You either have faith or you don't and I certainly have lost it.
I am going to try new antidepressants today, perhaps they'll manage to change my mind a bit.

This, yes.

Galnaros · Jan 22, 2017

truefiction1 said:
This, yes.

I am wondering though. What if I were to kill myself anytime soon. Would I go to hell? Could I convince God that it was all just a mishappening and be forgiven? I know I would've had a great life if I were to follow the path to become a Pope, and I know it was foolish of me to go my own way, which eventually lead to my awful state of being.
Would God actually send me to hell now that I'm not, as they call it, 'in Christ' anymore?
I just can't believe that I had one chance and one chance only, isn't God a God of multiple chances or endless chances? Why does it seem that my life is already screwed up before it even started? So many questions

Galnaros · Jan 22, 2017

I mean, I didn't even ask for Him to intervene in my life, even though having Him on my side in the way He was back then was the greatest phase of my life. I know I was wrong by not just go with the flow and do what He asked me to do. I have literally lived in hell the last 8 months and it strikes me as if He has completely forgotten about me and left me to my own crappy devices. Why can't He show me that He still loves me and that there might be another purpose for my life, something that doesn't require me to become a Pope. I thought God was loving and merciful, but now He just strikes me as a sadistic, non-caring God.

W_McCarthy · Jan 22, 2017

Sinan,
As far as dying outside of Christ, the bible is very clear about what would happen. As far as finding forgiveness apart from becoming the pope, of course this is available. God is not sadistic and he does care about you.
It is very easy to become caught up in a deception about God and believe he has "forgotten to be gracious" Psalm 77:9.
This pain that you are experiencing can be something that is only temporary, if you would just continue seeking The Lord.
I read the reasons why you believe that God was calling you to be the Pope and I can say that there is not any Biblical basis for any of it. God doesn't want you to be the pope, He wants to save you and know that He loves you.

I'd like to make a suggestion that you go to a gospel preaching church next time you get a chance and find some help there. Not because we don't like writing to you and trying to help, but because it is nice to meet people face to face and talk about God. Tell them your story. Stay far away from Catholicism, can you see all the unbiblical practices in the RCC? You're not going to find a perfect church but you can certainly find a better one.

W_McCarthy · Jan 22, 2017

But God commendeth His love towards us in that, while we were yet sinners, Christ died for us - Romans 5:8

But God, who is rich in mercy, for his great love wherewith he loved us, even when we were dead in sins, hath quickened us together with Christ, (by grace ye are saved)- Ephesians 2:4-5

They that are whole have no need for a physician, but they that are sick: I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance- Mark 2:17

truefiction1 · Jan 22, 2017

Galnaros said:
I mean, I didn't even ask for Him to intervene in my life, even though having Him on my side in the way He was back then was the greatest phase of my life. I know I was wrong by not just go with the flow and do what He asked me to do. I have literally lived in hell the last 8 months and it strikes me as if He has completely forgotten about me and left me to my own crappy devices. Why can't He show me that He still loves me and that there might be another purpose for my life, something that doesn't require me to become a Pope. I thought God was loving and merciful, but now He just strikes me as a sadistic, non-caring God.

God Loves us so much that we cannot even begin to understand just how much. Sometimes we are stricken by things that, to us, seem evil, but will lead us to Eternal Life. He chastises those whom He Loves. How do you know that Going down the path you had chosen would not have lead you into eternal perdition by filling you with incurable pride and conceit, and God, in His abundant mercy has allowed this sickness to befall you so that you will ultimately be saved by having been humbled; to come to possess true poverty of spirit?

Maybe God is going to reveal His chosen purpose for your life. It could be that He plans for you to come out of your illness after having patiently bore your sufferings for awhile, so that you will be able to help some of His other sheep who suffer as you have to find Eternal Life. Only God knows the outcome of all things.

Galnaros · Jan 28, 2017

Why don't I get a second chance at life when I ask Jesus for it? How can it be that my life is already at it's end at the age of 21? What kind of God allows anyone to get in this kind of situation in the first place? I am really losing my patience and there is nothing I can do about it. New medications haven't changed anything yet, probably because being spiritually dead can't be treated with meds. The first calling of God was a bit too much for me, but why can't I just get a green light for a normal life with a wife, job and children? I really can't believe that this all is happening yet it is. I had another attempt at suicide and I failed...again.

I ask God to forgive me and unharden my heart so I can be sincere in my requests again, but nothing seems to work.

LastServant · Jan 28, 2017

Galnaros said:
Hello all,

My name is Sinan Shamun, 21 years old and I come from the Netherlands.
In December 2015 I was very depressed and was looking for a cause to live for. I never understood who I was and what the hell I was doing here in the first place. Then suddenly, in February 2016 I felt amazing, I was full of love,joy, creativity and basically all positive things imaginable. I was killing it at my job and it felt as if I was in heaven every moment of the day. Then in March, during the communion of my little sister I found my faith in God, it was a great happening and I finally understood life after being an atheist for 20 years. I learned that it was the Holy Spirit which was dwelling in me at the time. I was constantly communicating with Jesus as if he were my best friend, and I loved it. As time passed I became very introspective and got to know my relation to God even better.
Then the great day came, God told me that I was the complete package to become a Roman Catholic Pope, me out of all people, after all those years. (I assume this happened to the current Pope when he was my age and suddenly switched from a Chemistry major to pursuing his path to become the Pope). I then learned that I had to spread my wings and fly away, become a total new person, find new Christian friends and live a holy life. At first I was totally flabbergasted by all of this. I decided to sign up for my Theology major in Utrecht at a Catholic school and was so grateful for being given a cause in life.
Then,unfortunately, all things went downhill. I realized that becoming a Catholic Pastor meant not being able to have sex and a wife and all other worldy pleasures, so I started avoiding God. Avoiding reading the Bible I bought and continuing a sinful life (smoking, using drugs, etc) after all that God had done for me. I became less and less full of positive energy and my connection with God was decaying and decaying. I showed up at the meeting day prior to starting my Theology major when I was totally unprepared, I had not become the person God wanted me to become and I just sat there with the other students looking like a complete fool, not knowing what to say. I left the meeting day by just running away from the other students and I went home.
Eventually, my thinking reached a point where I had sudden realization which totally destroyed God for me. I convinced myself that God is an all between the ears thing and that I don't own it anymore. It was gone, totally evaporated. I even remember cussing at the Holy Spirit for leaving me after I had failed God in a shameful way and I am actually 100% sure that I have committed the unforgivable sin, since I am not genuinely worried about committing it anymore. My heart wants to know nothing about God but my mind knows God is everything I need, but I have screwed up. I can't blame God for all that has happened, I was even warned prior to me finding out I was elected to become a Pope. God told me to 'choose wisely' and he warned me of a curse. It was all or nothing for me and it sure as hell turned out to be nothing and my destination will be hell for sure.
I had such a beautiful life ahead but all my stupid 20 year old self could think of was sex at the moment, instead of being able to help many souls including those of my friends, who weren't Christians either. My mind has become corrupt and worthless because I lost God and my introspectivity has reached so far that I have basically committed spiritual dialysis. I'm stuck with a mind that thinks about useless goalless garbage all day long. I spent months in a mental ward, taking medicine because the psychiatrists believed I was deluded and got myself into a psychosis. After all those months of medicine and super long tedious days it turned out that they were wrong and that my spiritual experience was from God. I have nothing now, all joy, love, personality and everything positive have evaporated into absolute nothingnes. 7 months of hell have passed and no progress was made. Many prayers have been prayed but all of them were in vain. I was helped by spiritual healers and therapists but nothing worked.

I have no idea what to do and am really feeling the urge to throw the towel in the ring because this life is terrible. A clinical depression is an ecstacy trip compared to what I'm going through and I'd cut off my limbs were it that I'd get my mental and emotional state back to 'normal' again. I am seriously considering to end it all and just accept my fate, which is probably hell. I'd take physical pain of flames over this mental numbness any day.

Has anyone heard of a story similar to mine and/or does anyone have any tips for me? Can anyone confirm that I should just accept my fate since there is nothing I can do about all of this? I read my bible while in the mental ward but it got me nowhere. No revelations or real understanding.

Thank you.

The ruler of this world is still in control and has many false prophets believing they are godly men preaching the true gospel. However, Satan never tells them that the Beast is causing men to build false gods with their human hands and practicing religion according to the Beast.

The true God had to destroy the Satan in you and hopefully, he is going to take you through the justification process of confessing ALL your sins and repenting of them. This has to be totally completed before he can make you one of his servants.

All Satan has to do is have you read and study the Bible and makes you believe that you can become of one those saints or prophets without the need of the Holy Spirit of God. In fact, Satan tells his people that they have the Holy Spirit in them after saying the confession prayer.

All us servants of God who were used to testify to the knowledge of Christ are taken out of religions and keeps us from practicing false traditions and believing in false doctrines that have deceived all the readers of the Bible.

truefiction1 · Jan 28, 2017

Galnaros said:
Why don't I get a second chance at life when I ask Jesus for it? How can it be that my life is already at it's end at the age of 21? What kind of God allows anyone to get in this kind of situation in the first place? I am really losing my patience and there is nothing I can do about it. New medications haven't changed anything yet, probably because being spiritually dead can't be treated with meds. The first calling of God was a bit too much for me, but why can't I just get a green light for a normal life with a wife, job and children? I really can't believe that this all is happening yet it is. I had another attempt at suicide and I failed...again.

I ask God to forgive me and unharden my heart so I can be sincere in my requests again, but nothing seems to work.

I don't know. SSRI meds for depression take time to build in your nervous system before they can begin to have effects. It could take a couple of weeks or more. You could have a normal life with a wife, job, and kids when you get well again.

truefiction1 · Jan 28, 2017

I don't know what medication approaches have been tried by your doctors. I'm not a doctor, but if you suffer from what is termed "major depression" and your doctors have only prescribed traditional drug therapies (Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors), there are still other medicines that may work where these have failed. If your drugs aren't helping you then perhaps you could ask your doctors about trying a treatment with buprenorphine. If nothing else is working, what have you got to lose?

Buprenorphine Antidepressant

Galnaros · Jan 28, 2017

truefiction1 said:
I don't know what medication approaches have been tried by your doctors. I'm not a doctor, but if you suffer from what is termed "major depression" and your doctors have only prescribed traditional drug therapies (Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors), there are still other medicines that may work where these have failed. If your drugs aren't helping you then perhaps you could ask your doctors about trying a treatment with buprenorphine. If nothing else is working, what have you got to lose?

Buprenorphine Antidepressant

The doctors have put me on anti-psychotics and lithium, because they thought my God experience was part of a manic phase of a Bipolar disorder. After months of taking those medicines nothing really changed. I am sure that it was an actual Divine revelation and had nothing to do with a mental illness. I started taking Escitalopram a week ago and it hasn't changed anything yet, but it could start working in 2-3 weeks. The thing is though, I don't feel depressed, I am not sad at all. I am pretty much just complete blank, every imaginable human feeling or emotion has faded into nothingness.
What I have got to lose? Well, in the current state I'm in time is really hard on me. Every day consists of me fighting this complete emptyness and self-aware useless thoughts all day long.

I will suggest the Antidepressant you recommended, thank you.

truefiction1 · Jan 28, 2017

Galnaros said:
The doctors have put me on anti-psychotics and lithium, because they thought my God experience was part of a manic phase of a Bipolar disorder. After months of taking those medicines nothing really changed. I am sure that it was an actual Divine revelation and had nothing to do with a mental illness. I started taking Escitalopram a week ago and it hasn't changed anything yet, but it could start working in 2-3 weeks. The thing is though, I don't feel depressed, I am not sad at all. I am pretty much just complete blank, every imaginable human feeling or emotion has faded into nothingness.
What I have got to lose? Well, in the current state I'm in time is really hard on me. Every day consists of me fighting this complete emptyness and self-aware useless thoughts all day long.

I will suggest the Antidepressant you recommended, thank you.

Depression isn't always characterized by sadness. It can take the form of a total lack of any meaning or purpose whatsoever within oneself. There are no feelings to be had that make life worth living and this state culminates in chewing up and spitting out useless thoughts in cyclical ways that lead to nowhere but unbearable emptiness inside and being without any hope of escape from this hell. This is despair: the worst kind of depression. Yours could be due to a bipolar syndrome. I wish there was something I could do to help you recover and learn to manage this problem so that you can be happy. All I can really do is to ask you to try your best to be patient and to work with your doctors and psychotherapists in hopes that you'll become well again. And I pray to God for your healing, and ask the Mother of God to pray to Her son for your deliverance from this. Lord have mercy.

truefiction1 · Jan 28, 2017

It's possible that the Escitalopram might actually start helping soon. It sounds as though the lithium wasn't really doing enough to help relieve your depression.

Galnaros · Apr 3, 2017

truefiction1 said:
It's possible that the Escitalopram might actually start helping soon. It sounds as though the lithium wasn't really doing enough to help relieve your depression.

The escitalopram, as I had already expected, did not work at all. I'm using it for 2 months now and don't see anything change. I am very tired of this fruitless life and I am sure that I am going to end my life after this year, if this [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] goes on. Can't believe any God could allow a situation like mine and I know for sure that I won't bother praying or reading my Bible anymore.

HisWay2016 · Apr 3, 2017

Galnaros said:
The escitalopram, as I had already expected, did not work at all. I'm using it for 2 months now and don't see anything change. I am very tired of this fruitless life and I am sure that I am going to end my life after this year, if this [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] goes on. Can't believe any God could allow a situation like mine and I know for sure that I won't bother praying or reading my Bible anymore.

HisWay2016 · Apr 3, 2017

It would be easy, hurtful to tell you what happened. Not fair to you.
What an attack...no!!!..Attacks on you. Satan won. Set you up.
You loved your life in the Spirit. There's tough and Tough...and ToUgh
Mine is tough and I WAS where you are. Healed...but...still?
Residue. How horrible is it? Is it 24/7?
Mine is not awful, not 24/7.
Any relief ever?
Every 2 days for me, JOY occurs.

Hopeless spiritual crisis

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