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feeling crap, still some rage but not as bad as yesterday yet. I was still hallucinating this morning but at the moment all is quiet.
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Don't know about being a prophet Loyal, I suppose anyone in Christ is prophet, priest and king, at the moment I feel more like an anti-christ rather than one of Christ's.
The rage kept me awake yesterday so my already sleep deprived state dropped to an all time low, and then I got a flu on top of it, so I was very unwell indeed, but still couldn't sleep, and than the rage came back again, right when I was completely at my ends wits from feelings so unwell.
The rage was horrific. for in my out of control state I lifted my voice on-high as well, it was terrible! I couldn't bear any words of God and turned the music off swearing at my Creator at the same time, racing around like some lunatic. If it hadn't been for my wife grounding me in her loving embrace, I think I might have done something terrible to myself, that is how bad the rage got. The devil was right back that's for sure and I was completely powerless to do anything about it.
We realised defeat and I pumped myself full of all of psych meds and managed to get to sleep all the way till 5am this morning, so that was really good. About 7 hours all up think. It has been a long time ago that I slept for so long in one go. I feel terrible now, low and emotionally dead and so sick physically. These meds are not good for me that is clear as crystal, for feeling like this can't be good for anyone but I feel I had no choice in the matter, I simply had to sleep.
My heart is in mourning now. It has been many, many years ago I have so angry that is for sure and the strange part is that everything I screamed in my rage wasn't true, I didn't feel about it like that at all and haven't for many years, so I feel very confused why such would still come from my lips when I'm out of control.
Hoping you feel better than me.
Sometimes I feel bad. I was feeling that way yesterday.
The interesting thing with feeling bad is that my feeling towards Jesus changes. When I'm feeling well I'm happy to walk beside Him holding His hand - even letting go at times and running ahead to see what is coming up, but when I'm unwell I cling to Him with all I got, and can really smell the fragrance of His love for us troubled ones, while I hide under the shelter of His wings.
Just pay it or make arrangements.
am numb-- no more tears left in me to cry-- Jesus please come-- am ready-- tired of this sick evil world-- have had enough-- can't take it no more.
Jesus help me.
I woke up because of terrible heart burn. I've been using Magnesium roll on and put a double dosage on last night. I think I over did it. I had to take double anti-acid stuff to get rid of it, that is how bad it was, not going to do that again that's for sure.
Otherwise not too bad considering. Just before I was meditating on how all creatures would be so very happy to see The Lord when He comes, but most life within humanity will perish when He Comes. To think that many people thinking animals are lower life then they are, yet how few people realise how low sin drags us image bearers of God? So sad really. Especially for our faithfully loving Triune God in Heaven, dragging Him through the dirt like that. Still He loves us all. Something that makes me still and long after Him with even more longing than ever.
How we need Jesus down here? How we need His loving truth to rule humanity? My heart aches Heaven's need for Jesus to be King of kings and Lord of lords in all people's hearts down here.
Come Lord Jesus, please come quickly there are so many people who need you badly to lift them out of their misery.