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You know brother that this is how I got to know the devil - stupid me - i dabbled with lies - not into new age stuff so much - but satanism and occultism.

(carefully feel it all out brother as your read the Word with your heart (ignore my words as such) it makes much more sense when you do that.)

See lies suck up our very life (force) from us and create another force within us who is given a 'heart as well' - we think and feel through it - Daniel 7:4 The first was like a lion, and it had the wings of an eagle. I watched until its wings were torn off and it was lifted from the ground so that it stood on two feet like a human being, and the mind of a human was given to it. We create an untrue self. This is why our brother Peter (5:8) writes; Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. This untrue self - can you see the why God said not to eat from the fruit of right and wrong? We die be one though many - like God our Mirror Image is within Himself - and become divided within. This is why we loose our Eternal life, because we carry death himself - the destroyer in us and he will kill us guaranteed when he gets his chance, don't ever doubt that.


However when untrue being becomes then we in our good life begin to suffer. The light/vision/reality we had before the lie(s) entered has blown to smithereens and only a few little sparks of that light are now visible in our night if any at all. (Isaiah 57:1-4.)

For look the second beast in Daniel 7:5, the Bear devouring. “And there before me was a second beast, which looked like a bear. It was raised up on one of its sides, and it had three ribs in its mouth between its teeth. It was told, ‘Get up and eat your fill of flesh!’ Isn't that what happens when we believe lies brother? In our true self we suffer the lies of ourselves within ourselves and in our untrue self we hurt others being ruled by the horrible thoughts and feelings untrue self brings about within us. - - and their rule over us - that come into existence into our life affected by untrue self. The bear has three main spiritualities with which to destroy us in flesh - lovelessness, greed and lust are in essence the three rib like teeth talked about. This enormous stampede of the wicked within our 'image of God' turns our universe into an ever expanding darkness with only a few sons of God giving warmth and light but most place are at subzero degrees. And no life is possible whatsoever, leaving our dwelling place very small, compared to all the darkness around us, which has now been divided into four main points of reference hovering above our inner world so to speak.

Daniel 7:6 “After that, I looked, and there before me was another beast, one that looked like a leopard. And on its back it had four wings like those of a bird. This beast had four heads, and it was given authority to rule.

Untrue us conquering the remaining good life in our inner world of being and taking control of all our thoughts and feelings and dividing it into four main camps.


1) Education, knowledge and wisdom.
2) gathering possessions and wealth
3) growing in ability strength and power
4) being ruthless and loveless.

Which brings us to the fourth beast - Daniel 7:7 “After that, in my vision at night I looked, and there before me was a fourth beast—terrifying and frightening and very powerful. It had large iron teeth; it crushed and devoured its victims and trampled underfoot whatever was left. It was different from all the former beasts, and it had ten horns. The most terrifying monster lies produce within the human soul has seven heads and ten horns. The Dragon accuser using the truth of God - the ten commandments - in a untrue way within our world of inner being and rules a reign of terror. This monster rules our world of being through his beast, false prophet and harlot, all installed within our psyche and produce the son of lawlessness who dares to raise his voice up against The Truth of our existence and signifies our pridefully arrogant spirit ruling our inner world of being through selfishness - even claiming his 'hot air' filled spirit is divinity itself.

Much more could be said about all of this - the book of revelation gives us some really accurate description of this spirituality ruling our inner world of being and its downfall. See Revelation 9, 12, 17, 18 for example.

The best part is what happens when The Truth comes back in sight though!!! Here the Word speaks all for Himself and anyone who meditates on what happens when the truth exposes the lie within will see that the description is absolutely perfect.

Daniel 7:9-14
“As I looked,


“thrones were set in place,
and the Ancient of Days took his seat.
His clothing was as white as snow;
the hair of his head was white like wool.
His throne was flaming with fire,
and its wheels were all ablaze.
A river of fire was flowing,
coming out from before him.
Thousands upon thousands attended him;
ten thousand times ten thousand stood before him.
The court was seated,
and the books were opened.


“Then I continued to watch because of the boastful words the horn was speaking. I kept looking until the beast was slain and its body destroyed and thrown into the blazing fire. (The other beasts had been stripped of their authority, but were allowed to live for a period of time.)


“In my vision at night I looked, and there before me was one like a son of man coming with the clouds of heaven. He approached the Ancient of Days and was led into his presence. He was given authority, glory and sovereign power; all nations and peoples of every language worshiped him. His dominion is an everlasting dominion that will not pass away, and his kingdom is one that will never be destroyed.

Here is another perspective of this greatest of event - in whatever size Wheel we find Him in - for The Truth will always come down from on high in The End and utterly wipe out the lie ruling his hay day down here. We can be utterly assured of that when we understand what the truth does when He exposes the lie(s) ruling and showing us believers that the authors of The word knew The Truth very well indeed and recorded what they heard and saw faithfully in their ancient scrolls.


1 Peter 3:10
But the day of the Lord will come like a thief. The heavens will disappear with a roar; the elements will be destroyed by fire, and the earth and everything done in it will be laid bare.


I wrote a poem about Daniel 7 many years ago, and though I understand the truth much better now than I did then, it is still a good read I reckon. See what you think.


Five Goats Ruling!

Oh you he-goats are so strong and cruel
To slaughter and devour is your will
What kingdoms of destruction to rule?
Making the rest of us pay your bills! (Daniel 7:1)

Let's name a few of you kings by name
I want to be sure that everyone knows!
for you are unfaithful to our life time and again.
always denying The Truth when the [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse] crows!(Matt 25)

Yes you - lying tongue - so very brave
in the dark breeding shady parts within
dragging God's chosen down to their grave
death as reward for your voice of sin.(Daniel 7:4)

Loveless voice - what an abomination
entering our soul through Satan's lies
The chosen suffering extermination
as cold-heartedness our conscious fries.(Daniel7:5)

Greed eye - you have our good times lost
All you get your hands on is history
those compelling demands as cost..
...such loudly wailing misery!(Daniel 7:6)

And so - The Dragon - comes in play
ruling mind controlled by The Accuser
Babylon captivating lawless sway
rules and laws taxing the user.(Daniel 7:7)

(A lament; )

Oh - lawless unfaithful egocentricity!
arrogance and pride robbing control
proclaiming godhead and divinity
burning good life right out of our soul.(Daniel 7:8)

(Conclusion; )

Yet the rule of goats will not last!
Kingdom Come - goats reign demise!
for when the final king dies the past..
...judgement cuts down those ugly ties.(Daniel 7:9-12)

For behold when Christ says "Hi!"
His Light of Day sinfulness demise
those unruly goats will surely fry
when Christ denies them paradise.(Daniel 7:13-14)






I like your concept of "the four camps". Anyone who is regarded as successful in life has one or more of these four temptations to deal with. Will they be used to help others and bring God's will and desires to fruition or will they be used selfishly?

Your poetry is wonderful; very thought provoking. A gift from God.
 
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Good Sunday evening everyone! I'm planning on getting my driver's license (now that the fare of the public transportation is going up to $3 USD here in my city starting next year, whereas the price of the gas per gallon is still at around $2 USD). Got to cram for it hehe
Good news. You will do just fine. Don't let nerves get to you or overthink things.

If the likes of me was able to successfully yank an 80,000 lb rolling bomb all over the country for 28 years and make a good living at it I can assure you that you will do well with your driving test.
 
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I'm sorry to say that Flower doesn't come any more she hasn't for a while. However I still have contact with her through facebook and she is doing really well. Very much better than she was when you still knew her here at CF.

I am in contact with her on Facebook too, glad to hear she is doing better. :)
 
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I like your concept of "the four camps". Anyone who is regarded as successful in life has one or more of these four temptations to deal with. Will they be used to help others and bring God's will and desires to fruition or will they be used selfishly?

Your poetry is wonderful; very thought provoking. A gift from God.

Thanks for he compliment Ron. I hope that my creative one inside will rise from the dead soon. I was basically killed in that self 5 years ago when I went on medication. I traded my creativity for a stable mind at the time. And although it has been worth it, I've written only a few poems since then, compared to how they used to simply flow out of my heart - often to my own astonished consternation while writing them.

I know the four camps are not hard to see in our day and age, however even those four camps, once known in the our day and age as the ruling middle class, has now completely merged into one main encampment. The dragon has surely come into sight and God's holy ones are dying inside of people every day and no one seems to care whatsoever about that. When the power of the holy people has finally been broken then all of these things will become clear to us I know from experience.

There is so much more to be said Ron. One thing I have come to realise, and that is that a lot of brothers and sisters in Christ have a very poor diet. Hardly understanding/eating any of God's Words spiritually unless they dappling with 't evil eye instead of God's spirit of truthful love, ruling our hearts and minds. The four forces of God's good - the truthful side of things is described in

Zechariah 1:18-21 and chapter 2 as well
Then I looked up, and there before me were four horns. I asked the angel who was speaking to me, “What are these?”

He answered me, “These are the horns that scattered Judah, Israel and Jerusalem.”


Then the Lord showed me four craftsmen. I asked, “What are these coming to do?”

He answered, “These are the horns that scattered Judah so that no one could raise their head, but the craftsmen have come to terrify them and throw down these horns of the nations who lifted up their horns against the land of Judah to scatter its people.

Then I looked up, and there before me was a man with a measuring line in his hand. I asked, “Where are you going?”

He answered me, “To measure Jerusalem, to find out how wide and how long it is.”

While the angel who was speaking to me was leaving, another angel came to meet him and said to him: “Run, tell that young man, ‘Jerusalem will be a city without walls because of the great number of people and animals in it. And I myself will be a wall of fire around it,’ declares the Lord, ‘and I will be its glory within.’

“Come! Come! Flee from the land of the north,” declares the Lord, “for I have scattered you to the four winds of heaven,” declares the Lord.

“Come, Zion! Escape, you who live in Daughter Babylon!” For this is what the Lord Almighty says: “After the Glorious One has sent me against the nations that have plundered you—for whoever touches you touches the apple of his eye— I will surely raise my hand against them so that their slaves will plunder them. Then you will know that the Lord Almighty has sent me.

“Shout and be glad, Daughter Zion. For I am coming, and I will live among you,” declares the Lord. “Many nations will be joined with the Lord in that day and will become my people. I will live among you and you will know that the Lord Almighty has sent me to you. The Lord will inherit Judah as his portion in the holy land and will again choose Jerusalem. Be still before the Lord, all mankind, because he has roused himself from his holy dwelling.”


So much prayer is needed - that God's love may indeed spread across this planet wiping out the wicked ruling down here.

Much love brother.


Oh Come, Glorious Judgement!

Judgement Day begins when you meet up with Jesus,
He will search out your heart completely,
dividing the sheep from the goat!

He will address your inner lovelessness with His love,
and chase the clinging coldness away,
from death setting your soul wholly free!

Truly Judgement Day, is a day of ecstatic joy,
freedom for all those hurting and killed,
Only His Loving Truth ruling your inner reality.

Bad religion shall no longer cause any bother,
As His loving joy now finds deeper root,
Lush growth replacing all the deadness!

Yet Judgement Day will be the end of your fear,
As no terror may travel on The Way,
All of you in union, praising the Lamb!

Your big I, gets new function in the rear,
Loving Jesus ruling as king in place!
You loving our Heavenly Father dearly.

In all your life's deeds The Son you'll meet,
Answerable for all that you have done,
In good and bad His truth visiting you!

Judgement Day is about being rightly placed,
good and loving upfront - to B(b)e -
all bad behind - passing away!
 
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Good news. You will do just fine. Don't let nerves get to you or overthink things.

If the likes of me was able to successfully yank an 80,000 lb rolling bomb all over the country for 28 years and make a good living at it I can assure you that you will do well with your driving test.

Thank you so much for your encouragement! I remember a majority of the answers to the DMV's online chapter quizzes :)
 
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Thanks for he compliment Ron. I hope that my creative one inside will rise from the dead soon. I was basically killed in that self 5 years ago when I went on medication. I traded my creativity for a stable mind at the time. And although it has been worth it, I've written only a few poems since then, compared to how they used to simply flow out of my heart - often to my own astonished consternation while writing them.

I know the four camps are not hard to see in our day and age, however even those four camps, once known in the our day and age as the ruling middle class, has now completely merged into one main encampment. The dragon has surely come into sight and God's holy ones are dying inside of people every day and no one seems to care whatsoever about that. When the power of the holy people has finally been broken then all of these things will become clear to us I know from experience.

There is so much more to be said Ron. One thing I have come to realise, and that is that a lot of brothers and sisters in Christ have a very poor diet. Hardly understanding/eating any of God's Words spiritually unless they dappling with 't evil eye instead of God's spirit of truthful love, ruling our hearts and minds. The four forces of God's good - the truthful side of things is described in

Zechariah 1:18-21 and chapter 2 as well
Then I looked up, and there before me were four horns. I asked the angel who was speaking to me, “What are these?”

He answered me, “These are the horns that scattered Judah, Israel and Jerusalem.”


Then the Lord showed me four craftsmen. I asked, “What are these coming to do?”

He answered, “These are the horns that scattered Judah so that no one could raise their head, but the craftsmen have come to terrify them and throw down these horns of the nations who lifted up their horns against the land of Judah to scatter its people.

Then I looked up, and there before me was a man with a measuring line in his hand. I asked, “Where are you going?”

He answered me, “To measure Jerusalem, to find out how wide and how long it is.”

While the angel who was speaking to me was leaving, another angel came to meet him and said to him: “Run, tell that young man, ‘Jerusalem will be a city without walls because of the great number of people and animals in it. And I myself will be a wall of fire around it,’ declares the Lord, ‘and I will be its glory within.’

“Come! Come! Flee from the land of the north,” declares the Lord, “for I have scattered you to the four winds of heaven,” declares the Lord.

“Come, Zion! Escape, you who live in Daughter Babylon!” For this is what the Lord Almighty says: “After the Glorious One has sent me against the nations that have plundered you—for whoever touches you touches the apple of his eye— I will surely raise my hand against them so that their slaves will plunder them. Then you will know that the Lord Almighty has sent me.

“Shout and be glad, Daughter Zion. For I am coming, and I will live among you,” declares the Lord. “Many nations will be joined with the Lord in that day and will become my people. I will live among you and you will know that the Lord Almighty has sent me to you. The Lord will inherit Judah as his portion in the holy land and will again choose Jerusalem. Be still before the Lord, all mankind, because he has roused himself from his holy dwelling.”


So much prayer is needed - that God's love may indeed spread across this planet wiping out the wicked ruling down here.

Much love brother.


Oh Come, Glorious Judgement!

Judgement Day begins when you meet up with Jesus,
He will search out your heart completely,
dividing the sheep from the goat!

He will address your inner lovelessness with His love,
and chase the clinging coldness away,
from death setting your soul wholly free!

Truly Judgement Day, is a day of ecstatic joy,
freedom for all those hurting and killed,
Only His Loving Truth ruling your inner reality.

Bad religion shall no longer cause any bother,
As His loving joy now finds deeper root,
Lush growth replacing all the deadness!

Yet Judgement Day will be the end of your fear,
As no terror may travel on The Way,
All of you in union, praising the Lamb!

Your big I, gets new function in the rear,
Loving Jesus ruling as king in place!
You loving our Heavenly Father dearly.

In all your life's deeds The Son you'll meet,
Answerable for all that you have done,
In good and bad His truth visiting you!

Judgement Day is about being rightly placed,
good and loving upfront - to B(b)e -
all bad behind - passing away!
I am SO ready for His return!:clap: Love ya!
 
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Had a rough night and now I'm having a rough early morning. :sigh:
Krissy, you have experienced this before, and God has carried you through. You will weather this episode also. I am sure you are aware there are suicide help lines available. Also perhaps a trusted friend or relative.

I know it may seem trite and of little value when we are hurting and feeling hopeless and helpless and someone says I will pray for you, but I mean it and I will.

Prayer is useful and powerful, though we sometimes don't feel or see it's effects from our limited perspective. Jesus spent much time in prayer and drew strength from it.

What you are most likely feeling is your brain acting up and misfiring. See these thoughts for what they are-thoughts. Your brain is spewing out garbage now. Let it pass and don't act on anything. If you are on meds, sometimes they don't always work as well as they should.

I am going through something now I should be on top of; I am capable of it, but I'm not in control. Depressive, negative "I can't" thoughts pouring from my mind tie me in knots and hamper my success at something I know I can accomplish. I decided I'm turning this around with God's help today.

Slog through it, Krissy...you can do it. Even if you have to shoot up a "Help Me!" prayer every 5 minutes at times. This is temporary; you will overcome it. :clap:

Thank you for sharing.:hug::pray:
 
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I may have sorrow, and the darkness of this world may come against me, but it cannot prevail. If my lot is sorrow, then I will learn profit in it. All things work good. God is the beauty that I look to when things seem so unpleasant , I will not cast away my confidence, but will learn to wait upon the Lord. This world is utterly confused and hopeless, so that makes it easy to hope in something else, therefore I wait upon the Lord.


 
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Is our world broken down and desolate? Does confusion and fear hang overhead like a dark cloud of despair? Count your blessings then because the Lord shines ever brighter in such places. We can learn to persevere, and to wait upon him. Colossians 3 says we have already died and our life is hidden with Christ in God.

Consider yourself dead and raised then. Dead to hopelessness, raised in hope. Dead to fear, raised in peace. Dead to depression, raised in joy. Don't let the grave destroy you, instead destroy it by faith in Christ. This faith is simple, just die to worry and wait upon the Lord.
 
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Krissy, you have experienced this before, and God has carried you through. You will weather this episode also. I am sure you are aware there are suicide help lines available. Also perhaps a trusted friend or relative.

I know it may seem trite and of little value when we are hurting and feeling hopeless and helpless and someone says I will pray for you, but I mean it and I wil.

Prayer is useful and powerful, though we sometimes don't feel or see it's effects from our limited perspective. Jesus spent much time in prayer and drew strength from it.

What you are most likely feeling is your brain acting up and misfiring. See these thoughts for what they are-thoughts. Your brain is spewing out garbage now. Let it pass and don't act on anything. If you are on meds, sometimes they don't always work as well as they should.

I am going through something now I should be on top of; I am capable of it, but I'm not in control. Depressive, negative "I can't" thoughts pouring from my mind tie me in knots and hamper my success at something I know I can accomplish. I decided I'm turning this around with God's help today.

Slog through it, Krissy...you can do it. Even if you have to shoot up a "Help Me!" prayer every 5 minutes at times. This is temporary; you will overcome it. :clap:

Thank you for sharing.:hug::pray:

Thank you so much for this. :hug: I sometimes feel like its me against everyone. I'm feeling better right now. So thank you so much again. :hug:
 
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Thank you so much for this. :hug: I sometimes feel like its me against everyone. I'm feeling better right now. So thank you so much again. :hug:
Glad to help. I've been there; my wife has been there. That's the great thing about this forum...we know.
 
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I may have sorrow, and the darkness of this world may come against me, but it cannot prevail. If my lot is sorrow, then I will learn profit in it. All things work good. God is the beauty that I look to when things seem so unpleasant , I will not cast away my confidence, but will learn to wait upon the Lord. This world is utterly confused and hopeless, so that makes it easy to hope in something else, therefore I wait upon the Lord.


Amen, brother. I really like Sons of Korah. Jeshu put me on to them.

Here is a shot of my newly created prayer/meditation spot. I own the woods and there is wonderful seclusion.....just to get away from phones, internet, dogs, traffic and other distractions.....even my beloved and theraputic music for a little while. (Lol-I just noticed the crosspiece on the cross looks uneven but it's an illusion. I'm actually a little better with a hammer and nails than that!) :)
 
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Amen, brother. I really like Sons of Korah. Jeshu put me on to them.

Here is a shot of my newly created prayer/meditation spot. I own the woods and there is wonderful seclusion.....just to get away from phones, internet, dogs, traffic and other distractions.....even my beloved and theraputic music for a little while. (Lol-I just noticed the crosspiece on the cross looks uneven but it's an illusion. I'm actually a little better with a hammer and nails than that!) :)
I believe it was Jeshu who first turned my attention towards SoK as well. I love their music and the Psalms as well.

Even if your cross was uneven it wouldn't matter, because the Lords cross was probably uneven, rough, hand hewn lumber. Its more realistic if its imperfect. :)

My meditation spot is in my little garage, where I like to sit and meditate.
 
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Amen, brother. I really like Sons of Korah. Jeshu put me on to them.

Here is a shot of my newly created prayer/meditation spot. I own the woods and there is wonderful seclusion.....just to get away from phones, internet, dogs, traffic and other distractions.....even my beloved and theraputic music for a little while. (Lol-I just noticed the crosspiece on the cross looks uneven but it's an illusion. I'm actually a little better with a hammer and nails than that!) :)

Rest in Peace Ron!
That is an awesome shot brother. My heart rejoiced to see the blacksmith preparing his workplace. Holy Holy Holy unto The Lord Ron. You will be baking The Bread there brother, please make sure that you get to know Zerubbabel brother and of course Joshua before you begin to built the Temple. The mountain has to be leveled first. Not by might, nor by power but by my Spirit says The Lord. This is of utmost importance if you want your plans to succeed - Remember the plumb line Ron. That is why Zerubbabel is so important to get to know well, without him everything will be crooked but we want it perfectly straight. We can never trust ourselves to do that rightly if you know what I mean.

I have been well Ron otherwise. Learning a lot.

I just made a peace treaty with my God believing grand father. We have both understood the purpose of our lives together like this, and marvel the unbelievable love and wisdom Jesus is giving us while we collect the lost in us on our way down. My grand father agreed to be on the look out for the lawless ones. He assured me that was his purpose all along and I agree that this is so. For that is where he has a really sharp eye for.

Jesus told us with a smile that Opa will be the very best person in the universe to do that job and we both agree with our Lord about that, after what we have all seen Jesus reveal in us. Oh did my grand father swell with pride in God when he saw his salvation. And so good to have him as a friend instead of foe. It is mind boggling awesome that is all I can assure everyone. No need to ever doubt God's loving truth again that is for sure. Finally my mind has come to rest and the horrible voice that kept abusing, screaming threatening, scorning, hating and defiling me has finally gone forever out of my life. Can never tell anyone how great a relief that is.

I know my grand father will do a good job - lawlessness has been my biggest curse and he knows it. (in sinful spirituality he caused me to become like that for I rebelled against my grand dad's loveless ways right from the day first I met him like that, ) so in this way he and i in Christ are actively undoing the harm sinful spirituality has caused us. So good to see Jesus allows us to undo all that, as well as live His revenge on the wicked, as Christ destroys them on our way down trying to stop us from unwinding their lies from our lives together.

Having my grand dad on his throne beside me like that is perfect really. He also promised me to teach me to play the organ and pleaded with me to get one. I told I can't effort one right now and that I have other things on my mind right now, but that I'm open to such ideas in the future. Opa sings psalms and hymms all day long. Do I recognize my Opa now, I tell you. I love him. For the first time in my life I love my grand dad and am not scared of him anymore

. However in his sin hardened self things have not been well. As a matter of fact I feel nauseated just thinking about it and realise I have to get away from there - honest it is a burning pool of hateful fire. I feel sick to death in my gut watching it. I have never met pure hate before but I have now. I know I've been watching satan in his raging fire down there. I don't know how such can live in me it makes me shake and feel so sick. I can't wait till we have dropped that horrible dragon off at Jesus feet at the full stop of our journey together. All that horrible devil wants is for us to let him go, but there is no way we are going to that. The rotten loveless lying thief is coming along - no matter how sick i feel - he's stolen our lives when in our folly we heeded the liar and now reap this horrific death as reward for doing that. So unbelievable grateful that this is what Jesus saved us from. If people only knew how evil satan truly is.

Sadly my other grand father is basically a lifeless mummy. It is awful really the trap satan got him in. He has as good as no life in him, he lost basically everything he has ever been. The weird thing is he keeps apologizing for killing me, but I don't know why he is wailing me, for he should be wailing Jesus. I'm so upset he is so dull.

And not only that he keeps taking me back to very early on in my life when I visited him one day and I sneaked into the backyard and ate some berries he grew there. I loved those berries I tell you as a kid. He court me out and told me off. Yet now, can you believe that? my grand dad is wailing that! He think he did me harm. And it doesn't matter how much I hug him and tell him that nothing bad happened, he is frantic about telling me otherwise. He was such a soft hearted kind man he would never do me any harm. Yet he says he killed my child in me. I certainly don't understand him about that, I have no recall of that at all.

Otherwise all I can see is him sitting beside me staring into the darkness all around wailing his stupidity not believing in God and loosing his life like that. I've assured him we will get everything back, but he doesn't seem to have that much hope good will come, though he keeps asking where his wife is. I've told He will have to wait as this is the male line in me and we are a very long way from her as she is in Heaven praying for our safe return.

Poor man I do really feel for him, though I know he gets what he deserved being like that for he allowed satan to steal his soul - so what can he but be lifeless? Yet it is so sad really for he wasn't a bad man at all otherwise. I'm so very thankful Jesus died for my grand dads sins and will restore him to me and us all, as hades is emptied of all the good life stolen by that lying thief we three have been fornicating with down here as sinners. What can we do but wail the truth of our sin? For as Jesus retrieves our lives in our willful sinner self we loose the spirit/essence that gave us life like that and are renewed by Christ to bring forth good and loving instead of wrongful selfishness building godforsaken egos and so the grapes are pressed and both the blood and the new wine flows and all we can do is watch the truth of our bad life burn up and release that what was stolen to us.

Isn't Jesus amazing brother?


Otherwise I'm doing fine. I'm sleeping a little more than I have. Last night I got about 5 hours in one go I think. The best I have done for weeks. As things progress the tension lessens and I become calmer within myself all the time. A lot of nausea keeps coming up and I have nothing to treat it with which is not so nice but, otherwise I feel better than I have for years and have more hope than ever.

I have also been battling on face book and have gained both friend and foe. All I can think about is spreading the gospel of grace and pray for the suffering in this world. Amazingly yesterday I commented on a post on facebook and got 40 plus likes in less than hour and about 11 comments - most of them challenging ones - one even hailed the devil. I never experienced that before. Mostly people don't care what say or think and I get very few likes or otherwise for what I say and write even from my own family this can be like that. I saw this morning that the likes had risen to 90 something but no more comments apart of likes for answers I gave. I found it an interesting experience.

Any way I'm going to have a cuppa I hope you have a blessed day brother.

Peace.
 
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I believe it was Jeshu who first turned my attention towards SoK as well. I love their music and the Psalms as well.

Even if your cross was uneven it wouldn't matter, because the Lords cross was probably uneven, rough, hand hewn lumber. Its more realistic if its imperfect. :)

My meditation spot is in my little garage, where I like to sit and meditate.

So good to know where you are brother. I got a back room my son build for himself but since he left it has been the junk room ever since and perfect for someone like me. This is where I spend a lot of time praying and meditating but I'm just inside the house mostly though. Our dog Shado is almost always with me and is perfect as guard dog fro she responds to the spirituality in and around me like I have see no other animal do ever. Jesus advised me to keep a very close eye on her and I have already heard so much good news when it comes to pets and all creatures great and small that I understand why Jesus would have impressed this on me. The death of our other dog is still a mystery to me, especially that she ate dirt before she died, not sure whatsoever why that was. I have missed her but not as bad as I thought I would.

Shadow is a perfect replacement of Roxy though as she has many awesome characteristics for a dog. What is really nice is that she loves sleeping on my feet when I mediate in my room as if she doesn't want to miss anything going on. She is really cute though she is growing tall and lengthy not the solid look I love so much and had hoped she would have, her personality is awesome.

Have a blessed day bro.
 
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