For me it came when I started reading and meditating on the Word, and praying everyday. I wanted to know God badly, my heart was really seeking. I used to ask the Holy Spirit to help me understand the Word and to imprint His truths in my heart and soul like a tatoo, so that it would change my thoughts, my behaviour and character. It was in that mode that the Holy Spirit really moved in my life as never before and the Word just became alive. It healed me and I would say it was just supernatural, meaning it wasn't any of my doing, except for just sitting there and seeking with all my heart. I remember being able to memorize scripture passages that I never even consciously set out to memorize, they just flowed out of my mouth, and I remember how each one's meaning was felt so deep and personal in my spirit. My faith as a result began to grow and I started to trust Him more, and I can honestly say again it was from Him. I think it's like any other relationship. As human beings we dont normally trust any stranger on the street, or any co-worker we meet, but we trust through relationship. Whether it's your mommy or daddy or whomever that you have been close to, and have been nutured, protected and cared and loved for, they have earned your trust. You KNOW them intimately. And so it is with the Father.. If you dont spend time with him, then you can never get to know Him, and He cant fully show Himself to you, and therefore you wont have any basis to trust Him. Maybe on a superficial level, a baby Christian's level, since you acknowledged and asked Him to be saved, but it will never grow from there if you dont seek Him regularly with all your heart and soul. Saying all that I have fallen away since that amazing time I have described to you. I am still a believer and love the Lord, and still pray and read the Word, but much less than I did at that time. and much less frequency. My prayers are less as well, and because of that my faith is not way as strong as it was. This has saddened me for many months now. The world, life, and the internet/ social media which is so stimulating, entertaining and addicting.. it can all draw us away from our precious time with the Lord. Anyways, I am somewhat am appreciative of my experiences, of this experience because it demonstrates to me without a shadow of a doubt that this is not some secret or hard to find key.. It's just very simple..
p.s. I think something else that is very important is to sit before the Father in all my brokenness without any agenda, without any questions. Just being there submitting to Him without wanting something, except to only worship Him and be with Him. spending time with Him. LIke a good friend would do. Can you imagine if we knew a friend would only come to us if they wanted something from us ? I think that is also what I found and understood. Wherein came the answers..
