Dear Christian Forums
I'm a 17-year-old male. A 17-year-old male who believes that Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior was crucified and resurrected on the third day. However, I feel that I've got a major problem, to be honest.
I've got an obsession with sadistic fantasies.
Whenever I'm idle, and usually that's when I'm lying down in bed, I'll imagine of a young six-year-old who was cursed to be immortal and to be an extreme [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]. He would then be tortured mercilessly repeatedly, but he would be in pleasure. Parts of him which are decapitated due to torture would be grown back due to the curse. The torture lasts forever and the person who cursed him would think of new and more painful ways to torture him so to increase his pleasures.
I feel that these sadistic fantasies are devouring me, they are tools of Satan and they are bringing me further and further away from Christ. I did pray to God to give me control over myself, but then whenever I'm idle I would still feel a strong urge, and I fall to temptation.
My brain has turned from a blessed gift from God to a source of indirect inappropriate contentography.
What should I do with myself?
If we were to take Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior's advice directly, I would have to destroy the sources of this sin, which are my brain, my eyes, my hands and other various parts of my body. For Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior said: "If your right eye causes you to sin, tear it out and throw it away. For it is better that you lose one of your members than that your whole body be thrown into hell. And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. For it is better that you lose one of your members than that your whole body go into hell." - Matthew 5:29-30, ESV
But destroying parts of your body is indirect blasphemy to God, since 'God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.' - Genesis 1:27, ESV and 'your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you' - 1 Corinthians 6:19, ESV. Also, I cannot afford to lose my brain because I would die and I have people that I need to take care of. I also have a future. So according to this logic, as well as interpretations of many other believers, Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior used a hyperbole.
But this problem of having sadistic fantasies should be considered very serious. Part of me wants to stop this self-destructing habit but part of me still wants to maintain it to no end. 'For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do.' - Galatians 5:17, ESV.
I'd like advice on this issue. There are countless unknowns in my mind right now. Thank you very much.
I'm a 17-year-old male. A 17-year-old male who believes that Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior was crucified and resurrected on the third day. However, I feel that I've got a major problem, to be honest.
I've got an obsession with sadistic fantasies.
Whenever I'm idle, and usually that's when I'm lying down in bed, I'll imagine of a young six-year-old who was cursed to be immortal and to be an extreme [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]. He would then be tortured mercilessly repeatedly, but he would be in pleasure. Parts of him which are decapitated due to torture would be grown back due to the curse. The torture lasts forever and the person who cursed him would think of new and more painful ways to torture him so to increase his pleasures.
I feel that these sadistic fantasies are devouring me, they are tools of Satan and they are bringing me further and further away from Christ. I did pray to God to give me control over myself, but then whenever I'm idle I would still feel a strong urge, and I fall to temptation.
My brain has turned from a blessed gift from God to a source of indirect inappropriate contentography.
What should I do with myself?
If we were to take Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior's advice directly, I would have to destroy the sources of this sin, which are my brain, my eyes, my hands and other various parts of my body. For Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior said: "If your right eye causes you to sin, tear it out and throw it away. For it is better that you lose one of your members than that your whole body be thrown into hell. And if your right hand causes you to sin, cut it off and throw it away. For it is better that you lose one of your members than that your whole body go into hell." - Matthew 5:29-30, ESV
But destroying parts of your body is indirect blasphemy to God, since 'God created man in his own image, in the image of God he created him; male and female he created them.' - Genesis 1:27, ESV and 'your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you' - 1 Corinthians 6:19, ESV. Also, I cannot afford to lose my brain because I would die and I have people that I need to take care of. I also have a future. So according to this logic, as well as interpretations of many other believers, Jesus Christ our Lord and Savior used a hyperbole.
But this problem of having sadistic fantasies should be considered very serious. Part of me wants to stop this self-destructing habit but part of me still wants to maintain it to no end. 'For the desires of the flesh are against the Spirit, and the desires of the Spirit are against the flesh, for these are opposed to each other, to keep you from doing the things you want to do.' - Galatians 5:17, ESV.
I'd like advice on this issue. There are countless unknowns in my mind right now. Thank you very much.
