Hey I'm new here. I'm 18 year old male and have been a serious christian for about 5 years now. I've been dealing with insecurities and things like that. Like I have some acne scars. A lot of them and feel like I'll never find a beautiful wife.
There is no reason at all to be insecure. GOD is your Father and he LOVES you much. Just make sure you are yielded to the Lord's will. He will be completely faithful in taking care of you (which doesn't mean life will always be wonderful; He can see how everything will affect the next thousand years of your life). Your insecurity (which I realize you don't have direct control over) is going to have 50x the effect as your acne on how appealing you are. The older you get, the less your external appearance is going to have anything to with a Godly woman wanting to be your wife.
Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart. (Psalms 37:4, 1984 NIV)
The biggest things you can do to get the wife you want is spend a lot of time with the Lord every day and be obedient in everything (which requires continuing to study the Bible), and learn to leave it all up to him. Ask him for what you desire, but be accepting for what he decides, since that is what will be best for you.
I had issues with inappropriate content and lust and also masterbating. I talked to my youth pastor and for almost two weeks I haven't watched inappropriate content or masterbated. My question is, is it a sin to touch? I know lust and watching inappropriate content and sex outside of marriage are sins. Today I had to touch. I didn't think about sex or lust after women. I thought about nothing at all. If I go a couple weeks without doing it I get stressed and sore some. How do I deal with this high sex drive as a single christian? And also pray that God will send the right girl for me soon. Thanks and God bless!
After Moses spent time with the Lord, he would return to the people with light shining from his face. I'm not going to suggest it would be easy, but if you spent an hour a day in prayer (along with being obedient, in general), I think you would find it much easier to deal with everything related to your sex drive. I've never heard of anything that works as well. Also, there are a variety of big payoffs for exercising mental self-control as a pattern for your life (e.g., James 3:2-12).
... Keep yourself pure. (1 Timothy 5:22b, 1984 NIV)
There's lots of Christian inappropriate content support groups if you think that might be helpful to you.
I have prayed for these things for you.