K guys this is really big and if you cant help me out that is cool... Im having some huge questions with my faith [Christian] lately. I got questions that so far I cant see any answer to... well let me tell the story.
Okay I think it all started when I got my frist girlfreind 5 months ago. Suddenly when she came into my life I found I had so much to think about [okay Im obsessed with her], but that just started it, shes not the problem here. So time moves on, as it does Im slowly starting to pray less and just start goin to sleep without praying [Ive prayed before bed for a long time before this, usually 7-12 mins]. And yeah so that's happening and then we start reading this book in school [btw I go to a private Christian school] called Brave New World by Aldous Huxley. It talks a lot about the needs of a human being and talks about this perfect society where people dont think for themselves.It talks about religion and how it relates to life, it discribes it as a crutch at points... Im starting to see this in my life. Right now I dont feel a need for God... so things are starting to get interesting right, its not done.
One day Im drving wiht my dad passed the cemetery where my grandpa is burried and he pops me the question, "where do u think people go when they die?" Okay so Im just like whooa... I sorta could tell he was looking for a meaning in life, hes at that age, but I didnt expect him to start talking to me about the Bible being *perhaps* a 'medaphor', a good way to live your life. So yeah this is wierd, my father is a very smart and good man. Does more good then some people do, involved in the church and whatnot, so this makes me think...
Okay so now Im thinking, talking with very little people [told one person to this day... thats my gf, shes a christain] about it but thinking and observing things... Im seriously considering if Christianity is real. I got these questions, they are very hard:
OKay why should anyone who's not a Christian actually decide to become one? Why should a perfectly happy atheist leave his good, full, life and start being a Christian? Sure he's heard of God and Jesus but he's also heard of Buddah. There isnt anything logical about Christianity, and especailly if they are educated and understand the types of stuff that book [brave new world] was talking about, why should they come into MY faith, because my book says so?
Okay that doesnt even account for other religions... the ONLY reason Im a Christian is taht I was raised in the house Im in. The only reason Joe Jew is of the Jewish faith is because that is where he was as a baby... there is no reason on earth he should change. I had a presentation in school today about Islam... its like the same thing as Christianity cept they are more devout... how can I pick Christianity over it? How can a merciful God **** 1.3 billion people because of what family they were brought up in?
There are so many religions that all appear to be just as good in the formalities and intracacies... if I go looking at which one is 'the best for me' how am I supposed to afterwards believe that there is only one God? Why is Christainity better then Islam? The only religion that I can see being tangeble in that sorta was is a polytheisetic one.
How can I accept Christianity with these questions, these questions im pretty confident none of you will be able to touch for me? It doesnt add up... how can people be expected to choose Christainity? How can I be expected to? I dont even have the capacity to decide this stuff! Im a freakin 16 year old kid! I guess that is why I came here...
I have had a fairly good spiritual life in teh passed few years. I know that there is more to it then just believing, that there is feeling... but I get so much outta things like love [going back to the good old gf] and other games and reading and stuff as well. Its not adding up...
And on top of this being a Christian teenage guy is not fun. I want to have sex, I want to do all the fun things... the things God says no to.
There is also one up side to the Christian business... but its iffy. The things the Bible says are amazingly true. They are good to follow and for the most part I think it has brought me up to be a much better person, even the Christian schooling... but Im starting to get the feeling that it is just some sorta medaphor for living a good full life...
SO any insite is apprecaited... hahaha if u actually read all this u must care a bit or have somthing to say
. Im not gonna drop my faith if u dont help me, this is just a source of help... thanks guys, you really must be nice if u read all taht lol.
Okay I think it all started when I got my frist girlfreind 5 months ago. Suddenly when she came into my life I found I had so much to think about [okay Im obsessed with her], but that just started it, shes not the problem here. So time moves on, as it does Im slowly starting to pray less and just start goin to sleep without praying [Ive prayed before bed for a long time before this, usually 7-12 mins]. And yeah so that's happening and then we start reading this book in school [btw I go to a private Christian school] called Brave New World by Aldous Huxley. It talks a lot about the needs of a human being and talks about this perfect society where people dont think for themselves.It talks about religion and how it relates to life, it discribes it as a crutch at points... Im starting to see this in my life. Right now I dont feel a need for God... so things are starting to get interesting right, its not done.
One day Im drving wiht my dad passed the cemetery where my grandpa is burried and he pops me the question, "where do u think people go when they die?" Okay so Im just like whooa... I sorta could tell he was looking for a meaning in life, hes at that age, but I didnt expect him to start talking to me about the Bible being *perhaps* a 'medaphor', a good way to live your life. So yeah this is wierd, my father is a very smart and good man. Does more good then some people do, involved in the church and whatnot, so this makes me think...
Okay so now Im thinking, talking with very little people [told one person to this day... thats my gf, shes a christain] about it but thinking and observing things... Im seriously considering if Christianity is real. I got these questions, they are very hard:
OKay why should anyone who's not a Christian actually decide to become one? Why should a perfectly happy atheist leave his good, full, life and start being a Christian? Sure he's heard of God and Jesus but he's also heard of Buddah. There isnt anything logical about Christianity, and especailly if they are educated and understand the types of stuff that book [brave new world] was talking about, why should they come into MY faith, because my book says so?
Okay that doesnt even account for other religions... the ONLY reason Im a Christian is taht I was raised in the house Im in. The only reason Joe Jew is of the Jewish faith is because that is where he was as a baby... there is no reason on earth he should change. I had a presentation in school today about Islam... its like the same thing as Christianity cept they are more devout... how can I pick Christianity over it? How can a merciful God **** 1.3 billion people because of what family they were brought up in?
There are so many religions that all appear to be just as good in the formalities and intracacies... if I go looking at which one is 'the best for me' how am I supposed to afterwards believe that there is only one God? Why is Christainity better then Islam? The only religion that I can see being tangeble in that sorta was is a polytheisetic one.
How can I accept Christianity with these questions, these questions im pretty confident none of you will be able to touch for me? It doesnt add up... how can people be expected to choose Christainity? How can I be expected to? I dont even have the capacity to decide this stuff! Im a freakin 16 year old kid! I guess that is why I came here...
I have had a fairly good spiritual life in teh passed few years. I know that there is more to it then just believing, that there is feeling... but I get so much outta things like love [going back to the good old gf] and other games and reading and stuff as well. Its not adding up...
And on top of this being a Christian teenage guy is not fun. I want to have sex, I want to do all the fun things... the things God says no to.
There is also one up side to the Christian business... but its iffy. The things the Bible says are amazingly true. They are good to follow and for the most part I think it has brought me up to be a much better person, even the Christian schooling... but Im starting to get the feeling that it is just some sorta medaphor for living a good full life...
SO any insite is apprecaited... hahaha if u actually read all this u must care a bit or have somthing to say
. Im not gonna drop my faith if u dont help me, this is just a source of help... thanks guys, you really must be nice if u read all taht lol.
