I was re-introduced to Christ in 1993. I lived my life as a Believer since then, at least I tried my best. Now in 2015, I am wondering if my Christian life is going in the correct direction. I've been through alot of heartache since I've become a Christian. I've hurt many others after I've become a Christian. I have been reprimanded many times since I have become a Christian. I even feel as if God Himself is reprimanding me since I've become a Christian. Everyday I go through severe trials, for myself, because I am not good enough (cliche). I try everyday. I try all the time. I am wondering if I am on the correct path. Each night is almost a nightmare and each morning starts almost immediately with condemnation. Daily. There is some force outside of myself that I can't overcome. Every Day. All throughout the day. It's almost becoming my normal life. I wonder if this is a normal life a Christian is supposed to live. My health is deteriorating, my mind is deteriorating, my relationships are deteriorating. I get weaker and weaker everyday and the condemnation gets stronger and stronger because I am getting weaker and weaker. I ask Christ daily to help me. I ask His Father daily to help me, I ask the Holy Spirit daily to help me. All I seem to be receiving is "it's your shortcoming." That I'm too weak to accomplish normal everyday tasks that everyone else breezes through. I can't do anything correctly, it seems. It's becoming more and more difficult to remain a Christian.