I need friends who struggle with OCD

Hi River
i have harm OCD
my thoughts tell me to harm people on the bus or harm children i cant leave the house without my husband i cant go on the bus on my own am so scared ill hurt someone
at the moment a member of my family is pregnant am scared am going to hurt her or the baby

my husband says i will not hurt anyone because am worried about it means that i care about other people

I also believe that i can pass illness on to other people a family member had cancer and i believed that i gave her it the family member is in remission but am scared that ill give her it again

if you ever need someone to talk to an around

Can I suggest you join the Scrupulosity group on Facebook? It is helpful like this forum is. It's called: Scrupulosity Religious OCD. Type that exactly the way I wrote it in the search bar on Facebook and ask to join the group. Join the one with 85 members. People respond more quickly to that one. Kind of wish this site was as fast as Facebook. I hope that helps.

I have Scrupulousity OCD. Feel free to chat or discuss with me.

I have HOCD--fear of becoming/being gay, mainly having to do with the division between certain groups of Christians and secular culture's love of homosexuality. I get so paranoid about that and wonder how I can I live in a world that will supposedly try and make me into something that I'm not, nor do I want to be. It's crazy, but you know how ocd is. And I don't like telling people on here because I'm afraid they'd misunderstand.

grandvizier1006 said:

I have HOCD--fear of becoming/being gay, mainly having to do with the division between certain groups of Christians and secular culture's love of homosexuality. I get so paranoid about that and wonder how I can I live in a world that will supposedly try and make me into something that I'm not, nor do I want to be. It's crazy, but you know how ocd is. And I don't like telling people on here because I'm afraid they'd misunderstand.

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Not misunderstood here. Plenty of people here have HOCD symptoms. You're not alone!

We harm someone, every time we argue or are unforgiving.

So, even if we control certain obviously harmful things in us, still we need to get into all the Bible says about loving and not harming. Even any kind of a bad example can hurt others and ourselves.

"Love does no harm to a neighbor," we have in Romans 13:10.

So, I see we all need to grow in God's love with His strength and control.

I used to be one who was planning to derail trains so I could kill and cripple as many people as I could. That was going to be a "hobby". I was evil for the sake of it . . . all-out about whatever I might decide to do. As an all-out person, I then switched to religion, but still deeply I was not a loving person. And there were ways I could hurt people, but these were not obvious illegal things or what religious rules said anything about . . . such as getting involved with a woman when I did not even care for her. And I could just use people for what I wanted, not really first caring personally for each and every person, in God's all-loving love. I was mostly concerned only about myself and what I wanted to do . . . to prove my religion was better than all the rest.

But now I am a Jesus person, and I have discovered various special friends and family in Jesus, plus I can enjoy sharing with some number of people who are not children of God. And, at times, while I am loving, I might think how these special people would be ones I was planning to kill and maim. And I'm like, "I am glad I did not do that."

The more we are busy with loving, I find, other stuff can't even come to mind. Or, if it does, it does not want to stay and I am praying for God to make it go away . . . to the flaming sewer which burns with fire and brimstone.

I now get attacked with stuff about how so-and-so is messing with me, and I might start in my mind to do whatever to that person; but then I get reminded I need to love and care for and pray for that person and have hope for how God is able to do that person good. And prepare in prayer to be good with that person . . . and everyone else, since God's love makes me all-loving, too.

And love is gentle and not dominating and driving and dictatorial; and, even though God's love and emotions are gentle and humble, His love is stronger than the obsessive compulsive stuff. So I need to be stronger in love, and busy with enjoying how we can be in loving.

OCD=Owie said:

Not misunderstood here. Plenty of people here have HOCD symptoms. You're not alone!

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Glad someone gets it. Being a more conservative Christian and having struggled with looking and dirty stuff (men and women, it's more ocd-fueled than genuine attraction sometimes) just sort of makes me feel like i'm "Bisexual" when I don't want to be. I'm attracted to women and want to have sex with one, not a man, (I am male) but the stuff I looked at would give me doubts about my sexuality--why did I look at naked men as well as women. I found out why, but I was scared that if people found out they'd say i was LGBT in denial).

Sorry to unload like that but that's what my ocd is often about. Either that I'm "an lgbt person" and that if people knew that about me AND my stance on homosexuality in practice (I.e. I think homosexual sex is a sin) people would call me a hatemonger, make me lose my job and not want to read a book if I had written it. And I was worried that if I told people on here they'd get offended or not understand me and tell me to either resist or embrace my supposed homosexuality.

It does feel great to say what it is I'm afraid of, though. Kudos to the OP!