My name's Chelsea. 25, American. Nice to meet you all If you could offer me some advice, I'd greatly appreciate it!
I want to get back into religion. I was raised a Christian, but as I've gotten older I just haven't really 'bought into' it. I still believe that God created the world, and I still believe that Jesus came and died on the cross for us...but it kind of stops there. I'm more of a Deist, in that I believe God created the world and pretty much wound it up like a watch and just let it go, leaving people accountable and responsible for their own lives without too much interference from Him.
Anyway, I've recently joined Overeaters Anonymous, and the second step has to do with turning your life over to a Higher Power. Part of me wants to just have that HP be 'the Universe', but then there's a fear in me that says, by not putting God as my HP, I'm denouncing him. This is kind of embarrassing to admit, but going to Hell is one of my biggest fears. I have panic attacks thinking about God/Jesus returning to Earth and the Apocalypse starting.
So, I guess my question is, how does one get 'into' religion when they don't actually feel it? How does one pray when they don't actually believe God will do anything about it? Is doing things out of fear even a good reason to do them? I don't know.
I want to get back into religion. I was raised a Christian, but as I've gotten older I just haven't really 'bought into' it. I still believe that God created the world, and I still believe that Jesus came and died on the cross for us...but it kind of stops there. I'm more of a Deist, in that I believe God created the world and pretty much wound it up like a watch and just let it go, leaving people accountable and responsible for their own lives without too much interference from Him.
Anyway, I've recently joined Overeaters Anonymous, and the second step has to do with turning your life over to a Higher Power. Part of me wants to just have that HP be 'the Universe', but then there's a fear in me that says, by not putting God as my HP, I'm denouncing him. This is kind of embarrassing to admit, but going to Hell is one of my biggest fears. I have panic attacks thinking about God/Jesus returning to Earth and the Apocalypse starting.
So, I guess my question is, how does one get 'into' religion when they don't actually feel it? How does one pray when they don't actually believe God will do anything about it? Is doing things out of fear even a good reason to do them? I don't know.