Evening brothers and sisters
I'm pleased the reformed forum is still here on Christian forums. It's great to be able to ask advice and discuss topics on here. I'm not planted in any church right now. I haven't been for years. One recent acquaintance from work is the only touchpoint I have with Christians or the reformed perspective.
I don't know how typical this sort of life situation is for a self-labeled Christian. That label is the reason I'm posting here. I want to be Christian. The decisions I have made may not show it. I was baptized late as a Catholic at 20 years old, but following that baptism I've grown into some pretty rocky soil.
Last year I became acquainted with reformed theology. It excited me, wetted my thirst for scripture, but as a result of my career I ended up moving cities and lost any progress I made as a Christian: the discipline and joy of prayer, study, charity, family. Only God knows if there is some reason for my erratic faith, providence over my confusion. But I'm just not sure where to start again. The only thing I'm certain is I'm not happy just chasing money, girls, positions at work. I'm hungry for something else. Starving.
I've pulled my Bible down from the bookshelf, put it back, took it down, set it on the desk. And I'm not asking where to start as an atheist would, or an agnostic, or a muslim. I'm asking as someone who has been by all definitions a poor follower of Christ.
If you made it this far, thanks for reading this. I wrote it looking for advice, but I think partly I just had to write it.
I'm pleased the reformed forum is still here on Christian forums. It's great to be able to ask advice and discuss topics on here. I'm not planted in any church right now. I haven't been for years. One recent acquaintance from work is the only touchpoint I have with Christians or the reformed perspective.
I don't know how typical this sort of life situation is for a self-labeled Christian. That label is the reason I'm posting here. I want to be Christian. The decisions I have made may not show it. I was baptized late as a Catholic at 20 years old, but following that baptism I've grown into some pretty rocky soil.
Last year I became acquainted with reformed theology. It excited me, wetted my thirst for scripture, but as a result of my career I ended up moving cities and lost any progress I made as a Christian: the discipline and joy of prayer, study, charity, family. Only God knows if there is some reason for my erratic faith, providence over my confusion. But I'm just not sure where to start again. The only thing I'm certain is I'm not happy just chasing money, girls, positions at work. I'm hungry for something else. Starving.
I've pulled my Bible down from the bookshelf, put it back, took it down, set it on the desk. And I'm not asking where to start as an atheist would, or an agnostic, or a muslim. I'm asking as someone who has been by all definitions a poor follower of Christ.
If you made it this far, thanks for reading this. I wrote it looking for advice, but I think partly I just had to write it.