what are you feeling right now? (23)

STAYING_STRONG4HIM said:

I'm not familiar with EFT what is that?

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It's similar to acupuncture, but no needles. It regulates energy throughout the body. Look into it, it's worth a try. I hope you find something that works. I remember not having a problem with flashbacks ever since I started doing it.

Hatred for OBOB, Christians, Atheists, Liberals and Conservatives. This place has only hardened my misanthropy, I feel absolute hatred toward the posteres on this site.

When Jesus sends me to Hell I will sneer at him for sending me to a world so devoid of God. This world is the true Hell and people are its demons.

I am devoid of all remaining grace and I can no longer bare the self-righteousness and the complete domination of liberals and atheists over the Catholic board.

I'd hope they all go to Hell, but then that would mean having to deal with their presence in my afterlife!

Love your neighbor as yourself, so except God,learn to love oneself sooner than neighbor?

Yusuphhai said:

Love your neighbor as yourself, so except God,learn to love oneself sooner than neighbor?

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That is such a good observation and question, and something I struggle with. I struggle with having a healthy attitude toward myself. On one hand, I want to avoid sinful, selfish self-love, to the point that I put myself and my needs above others. However, I typically am quite self-loathing in all honesty. I am just sick and tired of myself and my weaknesses and I am not sure if this is a Christlike attitude either.

I am keeping you and many others here in my prayers.

Yusuphhai said:

Love your neighbor as yourself, so except God,learn to love oneself sooner than neighbor?

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Learn to do both.

Fortran said:

That is such a good observation and question, and something I struggle with. I struggle with having a healthy attitude toward myself. On one hand, I want to avoid sinful, selfish self-love, to the point that I put myself and my needs above others. However, I typically am quite self-loathing in all honesty. I am just sick and tired of myself and my weaknesses and I am not sure if this is a Christlike attitude either.

I am keeping you and many others here in my prayers.

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Here's how I view it: Would you create an entire beings and give them the power to love, hate and all other things we can do, make them intelligent beings, only for them to hate themselves? Why call yourself a loving parent and condemn your child the moment they like themselves as they are? It's contradicting.

Self love and self esteem, as well as a healthy amount of pride (they're all the same in my books), are good things. When you learn to love yourself for everything you are, even the nasty parts, you will be a much happier person.

It's not selfish to put your needs above others sometimes. You gotta take care of you first and others second. Selfish is ignoring everyone no matter what.

Tired but good.

I just want to sleep for a couple of hours. I have gotten maybe 20 minutes of sleep at most. My sleep schedule has been pretty terrible (I've been trying to change it) but this is the latest I've stayed up in a while. I couldn't get comfortable at all. It was like my senses were hyped up. I was also experiencing head pressure and scalp tingling (I chalk that up as a physical anxiety symptoms). Every time I started to dose off I woke up and normally I sleep with my fan on but I was overly aware that the fan was causing my floor to vibrate. Which in turn caused my bed to vibrate too (normally I don't even notice this but I could really feel it as I tried to sleep). The trucks that passed by my house also seemed so much louder (and when they pass sometimes my floor shakes so more vibrating). I heard my family moving around earlier and it's like I could hear everything from them moving around the kitchen to closing a door. My step dad he sprayed cologne or something and I can practically taste it even behind the closed door of my room.

FlaviusAetius said:

Hatred for OBOB, Christians, Atheists, Liberals and Conservatives. This place has only hardened my misanthropy, I feel absolute hatred toward the posteres on this site.

When Jesus sends me to Hell I will sneer at him for sending me to a world so devoid of God. This world is the true Hell and people are its demons.

I am devoid of all remaining grace and I can no longer bare the self-righteousness and the complete domination of liberals and atheists over the Catholic board.

I'd hope they all go to Hell, but then that would mean having to deal with their presence in my afterlife!

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Listen, I know how you feel. I've had that resentment at people and the world as well, too. Some people on here tick me off as well, but I won't name names.

Don't sell yourself short and assume that you're going to Hell, and don't get excited over other people's condemnation. Just try to remember that everyone is a human being, and that maybe they have some of the same issues with hate as you do. I know I certainly did before I became a Christian, and sometimes I still do. I feel so much shame for my hateful thoughts, but I feel like I should feel even more.

Let God take away the hate. Pray to Him and ask Him to help you see people with love, sympathy and compassion. I know it's hard, but it is possible for everyone to be healed.

OCD is spiking again. I cried last night because of how bad it was, just full of pain and fear and "help, the world's going to explode!" madness that I bottled up inside like I always do. This place is always the trigger, so maybe I'll just have to leave for a while. But not if someone needs me to give them encouragement.

I want to go insane, but I can't. I want my stupid family to be gone, just like they should be, but they're here when they're not supposed to be. They said they'd be back by Friday, but it rained and so its Wednesday and they're back early. I hate this. I was supposed to have time alone, but I can never have that.

Fortran said:

That is such a good observation and question, and something I struggle with. I struggle with having a healthy attitude toward myself. On one hand, I want to avoid sinful, selfish self-love, to the point that I put myself and my needs above others. However, I typically am quite self-loathing in all honesty. I am just sick and tired of myself and my weaknesses and I am not sure if this is a Christlike attitude either.

I am keeping you and many others here in my prayers.

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If one does not like oneself, and try to love one's neighbor as oneself, how can one like neighbor honestly? So love oneself is just love neighbor. sometimes i can hardly trust God and others and myself love me, that means panic attack.

anyway, have a blessed day to you and all here!

Listen, I know how you feel. I've had that resentment at people and the world as well, too. Some people on here tick me off as well, but I won't name names.

Don't sell yourself short and assume that you're going to Hell, and don't get excited over other people's condemnation. Just try to remember that everyone is a human being, and that maybe they have some of the same issues with hate as you do. I know I certainly did before I became a Christian, and sometimes I still do. I feel so much shame for my hateful thoughts, but I feel like I should feel even more.

Let God take away the hate. Pray to Him and ask Him to help you see people with love, sympathy and compassion. I know it's hard, but it is possible for everyone to be healed. __________________

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I don't feel I'd be honest with myself if I was sympathetic and compassionate toward others. Perhaps in the end my natural state is being a bigoted, lazy worthless waste of human life, that would be homeless or dead if it weren't for amazing parents that tolerate my shut-in pathetic life.

People have lived full lives at 23, meanwhile I"ve accomplished nothing but earning a worthless History degree and getting 25k in debt to the University. No friends, no ambitions and a future at a dead end career teaching High School students and making a meager existence if I can find a opening at all.

At this point I don't care how much of attention harlot I must sound like, but life is wasted on me.

FlaviusAetius said:

I don't feel I'd be honest with myself if I was sympathetic and compassionate toward others. Perhaps in the end my natural state is being a bigoted, lazy worthless waste of human life, that would be homeless or dead if it weren't for amazing parents that tolerate my shut-in pathetic life.

People have lived full lives at 23, meanwhile I"ve accomplished nothing but earning a worthless History degree and getting 25k in debt to the University. No friends, no ambitions and a future at a dead end career teaching High School students and making a meager existence if I can find a opening at all.

At this point I don't care how much of attention harlot I must sound like, but life is wasted on me.

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Please don't feel like your life is doomed just because you're stuck where you are. I've felt that way sometimes, too--bigoted, lazy, worthless--but God can use all sorts of people, even shut-ins. I've already found a lot of company and people to help out on here despite having few friends in real life and an uncertain future. He can do the same for you, too, if you are willing to trust in Him and let Him use you right where you are

Praying for everyone.
God is in it all, no matter how far away we feel he is.
You are loved and precious. s

Restless, being on bed rest is so boring. I don't know how I am going to do this until the beginning of April when the baby is due.

Jess90 said:

Restless, being on bed rest is so boring. I don't know how I am going to do this until the beginning of April when the baby is due.

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You're having a baby, though. Congratulations! That is something to be happy about. It will all be worth it

Tired.

Recovering from a period of stress. Some people on here were very helpful in helping me get out of it.

J0SHUA said:

It's similar to acupuncture, but no needles. It regulates energy throughout the body. Look into it, it's worth a try. I hope you find something that works. I remember not having a problem with flashbacks ever since I started doing it.

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I have a counseling appointment this coming week so I'm hoping that will help.