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Are you guys sick of me yet? Lol
I've had such horrible anxiety ever since I had that set back a week ago and had that lung CT scan done which gives a ton of radiation and a lot absorbs into my chest.. And that's after having an abdominal ct a month before. I feel like I've destined myself to have cancer sometime in the future by doing it. I keep wrestling with whether I should have done it or not. The fear is awful.
The risk is supposedly low or possibly even nonixestent based on some studies. But Google has been my enemy again.. And I'm just struggling to find the peace in this. I know I need to trust at God will protect me and I will be okay. But I am so scared now. More than I was before this.
I'm actually seeing a Christian therapist on Wednesday because I think I've just dealt with more than I can take.
I just need a lot of prayers.. I need to get back to being a wife and mom and stop worrying over things that most likely will not happen.. And honestly with faith in a God who has answered every prayer thus far.. Something that won't happen.
I've had such horrible anxiety ever since I had that set back a week ago and had that lung CT scan done which gives a ton of radiation and a lot absorbs into my chest.. And that's after having an abdominal ct a month before. I feel like I've destined myself to have cancer sometime in the future by doing it. I keep wrestling with whether I should have done it or not. The fear is awful.
The risk is supposedly low or possibly even nonixestent based on some studies. But Google has been my enemy again.. And I'm just struggling to find the peace in this. I know I need to trust at God will protect me and I will be okay. But I am so scared now. More than I was before this.
I'm actually seeing a Christian therapist on Wednesday because I think I've just dealt with more than I can take.
I just need a lot of prayers.. I need to get back to being a wife and mom and stop worrying over things that most likely will not happen.. And honestly with faith in a God who has answered every prayer thus far.. Something that won't happen.