I am struggling

I have recovered from severe depression. I'm on meds.
One thing I learned is that our feelings are not reliable. Our feelings can have nothing to do with reality. When you are flying in the dark and can't see your way, you can't feel the way, trust God to be the instrument panel that steers you through the night.
*hug*

Phil. Ch3 v6-7

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will gaurd your hearts and minds though Christ Jesus."

Yeah sometimes I feel like what your taking about. For no reason things get confusing and you just what to scream or even cry. But just keep trusting God and push your way though it. Without pain, I believe we never grow. Hard times make as strong. Without the rain nothing grows.

I hope you find peace and a renewing of your faith. Just spend time praying and reading the bible. Seek God and he will come, He will speak. God will give you peace.

Sometimes i struggle with faith too. I don't know what and how God can get me out of a situation with my own finite mind. Of course, at the back of my mind, i know He will save me from this, but it's the now that i sometimes struggle. Sometimes i can't see what's beyond this period. I think memorizing verses help because it is clinching to those promises the Bible states so you can live each day.

*hugs* Father please draw Amie all close to You and supply for her, carry her thru and out of this and please let her know, see... how much You love her. Please make everything work out great & awesome for her, You alone know what's the totally best for her, please do this. Please help her totally trust You, rely on You and love You & people. Please fill her heart with Your love, peace & joy again and comfort her. In Jesus' name. Amen

mhhhh I've been confused & all in the past & things were just going...um I dunno lower than I thought & just stuff I didn't imagine to happen sometimes...
I was feeling pressed & all..got a weird pic of God, got um kinda 'hateful' (wow thats sounding so harsh to me..) (mostly to myself but my thoughts were just ..bad..shouted at my family.. stuff like that.)
& it went for like longer than it used to before & dunno really but it felt so different & bad & I was just asking God for help (I mean I did before) & was gonna get online to maybe talk to someone/ask for help whatever.
well I don't remember exactly how things went but I read some cool devotions
(like this one : http://www.christianforums.com/threads/32921.html)
..didn't completely 'break the ice' I think.....then I just read something that totally touched me made me cry just one lil sentence & an old reply I wrote to someone.

I know what you mean about the unanswered questions....

but God's sooooo cool
I got down 'bout some of that stuff like how does he actually want me to live, how does life work, what is he like, how is this stuff in the bible actually meant... I remembered this verse in James 1/5 (2-5 is pretty encouraging aswell )
that God will give you wisdom when you need it & ask for it.
but then I got a 'lil bit' down again like he wouldn't for some weird I'm-not-worth-it/too-bad-whatever-like reason & was just like please God umm like show me how this works, please answer me.
I just opened a devotion-book at any page and got psalm 32/8 like I want to show you how to live...I will advise you..I never loose sight of You & the last part got me a bit of an understanding 'bout my questions aswell I think.....
wow !! then some time ago I read Job like cool. so He got these questions ..could kinda identify but God actually doesn't really explain them to him I think.
What I got out of this is that God might not come up to me and tell me exactly what's the matter about every question I have but He's the same perfect God who created the world, knows everything and is love & I can just trust Him on everything.

God Bless you sista don't give up relying on God & placing stuff in his hands .

cling to God more in your uncertainty, and you'll find a door opened for you. *hugs*

praying for you.

Hi Aime,

When things just seem to become overwhelming and you find yourself struggling with your faith, just remember the story about how Peter walked on the water.  As long as he kept his eyes on the Lord he was able to walk on the water.  But when he looked at the storm raging around him, he began to sink.  It is the same with us, don't look too hard at the storm but look at the one who can calm the storm.  You're gonna be alright.

Amie,
I'll say a prayer for you... several of us have walked the same road you're on and do understand. Have faith, and God will give you the strength you need.

Smilin

how are you doing??? Thinking about u

Stormy, nobody is just gone. You know Christians deal with spiritual warfare.

You'll make it amie, your heart is too big, just pray and do the best you can. I am up and down too, but I don't stop praying and seeking.

[size=2.5] For Amie:
Amie, I think you're one of the best human beings I know. You put your heart and your service where your mouth is. Someone with your kind of strength and intelligence is going to come out of this a better person because you have a double dose of the "survivor genes".

I wish I could do more to help you through the pain and fear of losing your loved ones. It is my opinion that if a person is really a friend then one should be able to be angry and difficult and still be regarded as a friend because, at the end of the day, a true friend has the compassion to forgive us when we are being difficult. If those who claim to love you abandon you now, then they probably weren't really your friends. You deserve better.

Hang in there, I'll be thinking pleasant thoughts for you and about you. [/size]

Gladiatrix[/b]

I don't know Stormy. I'm married to a non-Christian and his thoughts have never overtaken mine.
I live my life the way I see fit and I let him live his. A belief in Christianity doesn't suddenly go away because of outside influences.

but anyways...i agree with Mr. Cheese.  i've gone through times when i felt pretty much like you do now.  but don't be deceived by your feelings.  emotions are something you should never trust, because they can change at a moment's notice. 

trials in this life are inevitable.  and even though you feel that no amount of prayers are helping, just understand that God really does have a plan for you.  even though you struggle now, God can use that for the good later.  like for me, i know that it's easier for me to be able to relate to others in the same situation.  and with that...be able to help them.  another words...people who have never hurt before are more likely to not care as much.  but don't worry...you will overcome through Christ.  no one can snatch God's plan for you away, if that's what your will is too.  and also, God only has the best for His children.

and i don't think that it's impossible for a christian to struggle like that.  God never expects His children to put a smile on their face just because we're saved.  it's not even about making yourself happy.  but i think that God will be our peace once we really recognize that all we need is Christ; that we can't live this live without Him.  if you really feel that you can't be near people at this time, then don't.  don't seclude yourself...but you don't have to pretend that you want to be there.  but at the same time, draw closer to Christ.  if you do, i promise you that He will be your peace.  you won't even have to try yourself.  actually, you shouldn't.  i don't think that you even have to be the best christian.  but just be honest that you're unhappy.  He already knows.  and then tell Him that you can't live like this without Him.  even if your saved.  and just trust in Him.  and in the end, His name will be praised because you can say you overcame only through Him.

i'm not sure if i worded everything correctly.  but i will for you.

Like anyone seriously ill, in the hospital, I always fall in love with my nurses! In fact I have always had a soft spot in my heart for nurses, and when I came here you were very sweet to me and I have not forgotten.

I can tell you that most every human I have ever encountered has experienced what you are describing, so even though that is no consolation, at least know you have a world of company.

I don't have all the answers you seek, but I know the One that does, and His letter to us tells us that He is NOT the author of confusion. That is the enemy who attacks all of us each day. I have been under relentless attack because I seek to have a closer walk with Jesus, and I do not believe God authored the confusion in the minds of those who attack me.

I can tell you I will pray for you. I know that the answers we all seek are in His Word and all I know to do is pray and seek those answers there.

Once we have confessed our sins and accepted Jesus as our personal Saviour, we will still have trials and troubles, but at least we have a place to go for rest and comfort.

Do not be concerned with those who would wrongly judge you but hold onto the love of those who care and of the One who loves us most!

Amie, where are you?

Amen, hesmyall!! I just heard a sermon Sunday on keeping your eyes on Jesus and not of things of the worl. IE: When Peter used his faith (looking at Jesus) he didn't sink, but as soon as he let his sensory thing kick in ( using his actual eyesight) and saw the storm he sank. Keep your chin up and trust in God to help you! I go thru the same thing once in awhile. I have so many unanswered questions but keep telling myself that God will answer them all when I see Him someday. We're going to have to have a serious chitchat!! Glad He's there for eternity cause I may need that long to get all the answers I need!!

hey Amie, I'll be praying for ya sis