I'm at a very discouraging point in my life. How is one to stay happy and okay with being alone while waiting for who God has for you? I thought I found who he was, but God showed my pastor different. It's bittersweet. And I know it's not just her, she is a great woman of God and things God has shown her about me before have come to pass even when I thought there was absolutely no way or I could change it. Anyways, I guess it's hard because not to sound vain or pretentious, but I'm a good looking woman and in the secular world, I've never stayed single longer than I wanted to. But it freaking baffles me that one of my main issues on dating christian men is no sex before marriage. How in the heck do so many Christians think it's okay to bang whoever and God be okay with that? I mean, trust me, it's hard to follow it, it's hard not to give in to anything of a sexual nature, but no sex before marriage SHOULD be a common practice among the church. Anyways, sorry about the side rant. How does one not give into doing things your way and wait patiently on God for what he has for you without being freaking depressed about it?