I've posted this on another thread in this forum, but had a recommendation to try it here too.
I am a thirty-something Atheist. Raised Catholic and educated in the Catholic School system, it wasn't until pursuing an upper level degree that my questions about the validity of a super-natural creator graduated into doubts, to denial, then into a stable non-theistic worldview. Now I have two children, and the question of whether or not to raise them as secularists or as Catholics - my traditional family religion - is constantly on my mind. Despite my current outlook I know that my religious upbringing and education had a considerable impact on me.
I've decided to continue my journey of non-faith. To reopen the case, as it were, to confirm my position for the benefit of my children. As a product of upper -level education my first stop is in research. I'm planning on reading the Bible cover-to-cover. My thought is that tunneling into the founding scripture of the big B might be just the activity to reignite the process.
However, at Barnes and Noble, I ran into my first road block; stacks of thousands of Bibles. KJV, NIV, study Bibles, side-by-side Bibles, red Bibles, blue Bibles, pink Bibles, annotated Bibles, large print Bibles?
So what would be the best bible to choose from a research standpoint? I'm leaning toward an annotated Bible with historical and geographical reference in footnotes alongside the text. But I also need one that is hardy, can withstand lots of highlighting and underlining? Please tell me why you like the Bible you suggest.
Thank you for your help in this, my continued journey of either faith or non-faith.
You have courage. I respect you for wanting to know for sure: Does God exist?
I was raised by atheists, believed atheism, lived atheism and liked my atheism until I was about 37 years old with two daughters. At 37 I had two thoughts, “Is what I have been taught really true? How do I know that atheism is true?" I now attribute those thoughts to God, but at the time I had a low, vague unsettled feeling. I still loved my atheism, but now I wanted to know beyond doubt.
During the next two years I reviewed everything I had been taught. Here is what helped me, and I pass it along for whatever it may be worth:
- While in college I had one teacher mention in an epistemology class (a class on how we know) that "Christians have a different epistemology from what we have been discussing, but of course, it is incorrect." As I began my review of what I had been taught, the professor’s comment kept coming to my mind.
- I looked for the assumptions in any claim and I rejected claims that beg the question in the atheist/materialist worldview
- I discounted straw-man arguments
- I returned again and again to the question of how we can know rather than what we can know
Looking back I now see that I developed the deep, unshakeable desire to know the Truth no matter what the cost and regardless of whether I would have to admit I had lived a lie and had been wrong, my parents were wrong, and "all my friends" were wrong. The desire to know was another key element to my journey to dwell with God. Only that strong desire could overcome my pride which is still a horrible sin I struggle with every day. But I was driven to know absolute Truth no matter what.
I eventually had an encounter with God and became a Protestant for about 20 years. The best proof of God’s existence is God himself, not logic.
A chance visit to a Catholic Benedictine monastery led my wife and I into the Catholic Church where we focused on the Desert Fathers – something I wish I would have started when I first became a Christian. It seems obvious to me now, but it was not until over 20 years later that I began reading them.
As to which Bible to read I like the Douay Rheims Haydock version which is available
online here, but is also available in print versions,
here and
here. I like the Douay Rheims for its Catholic beauty and the Haydock commentary because it has no 20th-century taint.
Catholic Tradition is key to Truth and you may want to check out these Bible Study CDs (most are also available in DVD versions).
You seem like a strong man, mature in responsibility and discernment. God always keeps his promises to every heart that seeks him.
May Christ's glory beheld by Saint Mary Magdalene
also call us to penance,