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[FONT=Verdana","sans-serif]GenetoJean: Not comfortable around men. In my experience, men are always competeing and my lack of competition makes men think less of me. My lack of caring about perceived slights seem to make men think less of me.[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial Narrow","sans-serif]Thanks for sharing
It sounds like you experienced a lot of ongoing rejection. That is very painful[/FONT][FONT=Verdana","sans-serif].[/FONT]
[FONT=Arial Narrow","sans-serif]Im not comparing myself to your situation and all what you have gone through, but it makes me think of a woman that I used to work with that I'd like to share. We were to work as a team, but she very and unnaturally competitive, for no valid reason! I wont go into the long details of what she did, but some of the things were underhanded, and it made me look bad and I felt bad. I was very much a people pleaser back then, and the fact that she wouldnt let me connect with her (as women like to do) made me feel scared and out of control. It wasnt until a couple years later that I read that this type of behavior could be the mark of a woman who did not get enough nurturing from her mother (being another female) , but instead was competitive with her. Whether that was a valid explanation for her, I dont know, but at that moment I felt a compassion for her, a paradigm shift I guess, and it was a process of forgiveness thereafter. Its taken a while of continually releasing it to God, renouncing any bad feelings that continually kept wanting to come up, until He healed me, and I no longer feel that pain. She had really made my life miserable[/FONT][FONT=Verdana","sans-serif].[/FONT]