It's now been 5 months of crippling depression and i have finally decided to go ahead with the ECT procedure. I start the first session tomorrow. I'm still nervous about the possible side effects (memory loss etc), but the despair to get better has now made me willing to try this procedure since the pain of depression supersedes my fear of the side effects. If anything, I now fear the prospect of it not working to lift me out of this long and agonizing depression since none of the meds have been effective.
Prayer, scripture and dependence on God are the only things that have given me moments of some hope and comfort as well as keeping the suicidal thoughts at bay. I want my life back, i want to have a better quality of life and return to the land of the living. Please pray for me during this difficult time. I pray that God draws me nearer to him, that my fears of not recovering from the hell of this depression subsides and that he repurposes my pain to love, serve and comfort others who struggle with pain.
I desperately need the support of Godly people in my life, good therapy and a good church---things i don't currently have. Except for the presence of God in my life, I've become a semi house-bound recluse, have become very isolated and feel very alone. I am unmarried and have no children or friends. Not having a church and Christian friends who can support me, has been very hard. The loneliness and isolation has exacerbated the cycle of depression. I pray that the severity of my current depression is lifted so that i may go to church once again, enjoy the fellowship of believers and be there for my mother and nephews.
If anyone here has had ECT, I'd love to hear about your experience. Thanx for listening.
Prayer, scripture and dependence on God are the only things that have given me moments of some hope and comfort as well as keeping the suicidal thoughts at bay. I want my life back, i want to have a better quality of life and return to the land of the living. Please pray for me during this difficult time. I pray that God draws me nearer to him, that my fears of not recovering from the hell of this depression subsides and that he repurposes my pain to love, serve and comfort others who struggle with pain.
I desperately need the support of Godly people in my life, good therapy and a good church---things i don't currently have. Except for the presence of God in my life, I've become a semi house-bound recluse, have become very isolated and feel very alone. I am unmarried and have no children or friends. Not having a church and Christian friends who can support me, has been very hard. The loneliness and isolation has exacerbated the cycle of depression. I pray that the severity of my current depression is lifted so that i may go to church once again, enjoy the fellowship of believers and be there for my mother and nephews.
If anyone here has had ECT, I'd love to hear about your experience. Thanx for listening.
