Why my therapy/books have not helped so far

I am not a doctor, but I have researched a great deal on OCD. What CBT does is gets you immune to your thoughts in a sense. The goal is to get you to realize that the anxiety will subside and the bad thoughts are not directly tied to reality. By that I mean that just because you think it, does not make it so. I've had intrusive thoughts before, and they are absolutely terrifying and can make you feel like the scum of the earth! But in CBT, the goal is to make you more anxious and for the anxiety to build and then subside whilst you are still in what you fear and not engaging in compulsions. This way, you can learn that while you may feel anxious, the anxiety WILL leave, and you can be more calm. I hope this helped.... I may have misunderstood you.

From what I've come to understand, letting these thoughts take over is not a good idea- particularly because it's normalizing something that should not be normalized. This is a very dangerous method to be playing with. CBT is thought to be effective for the treatment of a variety of conditions, including mood, anxiety, personality, eating, substance abuse, tic, and psychotic disorders... But it doesn't sound like it's these thoughts specifically that are the very root of your anxiety, so that she would prescribe this treatment doesn't seem very much like it would solve your problem. I hate to disappoint you in any way or sound at all like I'm jumping the gun to my own conclusion, but there have been cases where psychologists have not properly diagnosed their clients.

If I could suggest, any and every time these thoughts pass through your mind, immediately bring it to a halt with saying to yourself, "God, this is impure. I do not want this thought, please take it from me and forgive me. Take this thought from me." Please pray about these thoughts. You must govern your thoughts and meditate on what is Godly;

Romans 8:5-7; "For those who are according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who are according to the Spirit, the things of the Spirit. 6 For the mind set on the flesh is death, but the mind set on the Spirit is life and peace, 7 because the mind set on the flesh is hostile toward God; for it does not subject itself to the law of God, for it is not even able to do so,"

Honestly, I feel the trigger of your anxiety is the Spirit groaning and rejecting this. Please pray continually against these thoughts each time they occur until your anxiety subsides. Consider, too, that therapy is heavily based on a bias of human/worldly wisdom and understanding, chemicals and correlation. There's no consideration of spiritual battles beyond this realm when it comes to therapy.

You're in my prayers... I hope this helps.

In your case, you don't have to necessarily look for the thought, however they will come. What you have to do when the thoughts come is to smply let them be there, stop fighting them, regard them as harmless and a result of a disorder. They dont reveal who you are, they are a result of a sickness. Remember any attempt to stop them will only multiply them and makes them violent. The way you view them determines wether they dominate you or not.

Ocd thoughts are very serious and cannot be brought to a halt by saying some phrases or even quoting scriptures. As in my life, when my ocd was at its peak, my mind was filled with those thoughts from the moment i wake up in the morning till the moment i sleep at night. I tried to to say something else like ''Lord i don't want that thought, its impure'', i tried to caught scriptures but those were just compulsions and made the ocd stronger.