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For several months, faith has been neglected in my life. I dabbled with the idea of never going to church again. It's very hard to be a Christian alone, apart from a congregation and without the Sacraments.
I live in Central Florida, and Episcopalians here have a reputation for being conservative and "Evangelical", and that troubles me. I really want to believe in the Anglican Communion- Desmond Tutu is the reason I darkened a church at all, but you go to churches here and you rarely here a message that has anything to do with the 5 Marks of Mission. Mostly, the Gospel preached is heavily colored by Evangelical sensibilities. The Kingdom of God takes a back seat to an individualistic religion focused on personal guilt and atonement. I want to be Episcopalian... but not like this... I've tried this before and I just feel like it's a dry desert for me spiritually, disconnected from Episcopalians I know in other parts of the country.
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As an evangelical, I struggle to see the problem. I don't recognise your assessment on evangelicalism either.
I have thought about this as well in the past few days reading the responses: maybe I misunderstand what evangelicalism is about.
Reflecting on things in my life the past few days, I feel like a lot of important institutions I was taught to trust, growing up, have failed me or let me down, and I don't just mean that as some kind of cliche. If anything, the circumstances of my life fit better with the Christian narrative of a sinful world, than the secular account. The spiritual confusion I feel is also symptomatic of that. I'm starting to rethink everything again and hopefully find some patience.
I realize I had only limited contact with a Christian community. I was not raised in a very religious home, we were not regular churchgoers. We moved around a lot as my father was in the military, and we never had roots in the local community. And being autistic, albeit high-functioning, still puts walking into a community and feeling accepted as a very difficult thing. It gets even worse when one struggles with physical disability (I can't drive anymore, I had my license taken away a few years ago, and the state of Florida doesn't have programs to get low-vision drivers back on the roads, unlike many other US states that have bioptic programs or driver training classes).
It's sounds to me perhaps the issue is not finding the right Christian denomination, but the right parish?
It's sounds to me perhaps the issue is not finding the right Christian denomination, but the right parish?
I've done confession a few times at the Episcopal church, and one time the priest tried to give some advice and I just found it ackward. (and my estimation is that few people down here in the Episcopal church make private confessions). In general, I've not found auricular confession to be such a blessing, it seems to lead to more spiritual problems down the road: I'm a natural worry-wort and take those things seriously, perhaps too seriously. I tend towards scrupulosity.
I think good spiritual direction is just the sort of thing I am asking about, but I didn't know to put it in those terms. That seems to be what is missing from my life, somebody else to talk to about spiritual matters (not necessarily theology). I have a therapist in RL but he's not a churchgoer and might even be hostile to Christianity (he's openly gay, and I my experience of the gay community, many feel wounded by religion and not the best sources for spiritual discernment).
Recently I was reading some thoughts by ELCA Lutherans on the theological debates about gays in their church, and I came to realize I agree with a critique by some liberals in the church: having good biblical arguments in favor of a position is just not good enough if it excludes a Gospel-based hermeneutic (in other words, being faithful to God is reduced to following the Torah to the letter, vs. following the example of Christ and being willing to liberally interpret the Torah in the light of the greatest commandments). Core Lutheran principles like justification by faith, or law vs. gospel get thrown out the window if people start reducing being faithful to God to following the law.
I don't agree with Biblicism, which I believe is usually one of the characteristics of evangelicalism? (that and crucicentrism and activism?). I'm not sure it squares with a Christ-centered, Gospel-centered hermeneutic. This definitely puts me outside the conservative Protestant camp... but does it make me non-evangelical?
They go in for salvation by obedience. They need to be obedient to the law, and must not stray even non-intentionally or unwittingly, so may up their own tighter set of rules.
Accepting that Jesus died for our sins and to decide to follow him is the only credential we need.
Of course, but she didn't deny that.Isn't obedience to the moral law one of the things Christians generally hold up as at least an ideal?
I'd agree, except that the minute we agree to that concept as you stated it, no rules or commands are seen as anything but generalities or loose guidelines to be reinterpreted at will.I'm uncomfortable with what is called "divine command ethics". It's very common here in the US among many Christians, especially conservative evangelical Christians. I believe a lot of Jesus teachings point to a virtue ethic. Rather than a list of "do's" and "don'ts", we are left with a list of character traits to develop- meekness, humility, peace-making, justice-seeking, mercy, and so on. Rather than give us some commandments in black and white, Jesus gives us sacraments and patterns of life to follow.
.To be more concrete, some Christians think following Jesus for a gay man would mean renouncing his same-sex relationships and even attempting to alter his sexual orientation
Some would say that, but it's rare to find among Anglicans, even conservative ones.anything less is somehow proof that a person is unsaved.
Yes, giving up sinful pleasures is often unpleasant, whether it's gossiping, cheating, telling lies, or whatever...sexual acts included. What makes anyone think that following him who said we would have to take up the Cross to follow him was supposed to be totally comfortable? Heterosexuals are expected to abstain from lustful actions and adultery, etc. so why would a person with a different orientation get a pass on this because it's going to be uncomfortable for him?The pain and anguish this would cause in this persons life is immaterial, they have biblical evidence on their side, of course, but in the last couple of years I've gradually come to realize maybe that is missing the Gospel as "Good News" altogether.
I'd agree, except that the minute we agree to that concept as you stated it, no rules or commands are seen as anything but generalities or loose guidelines to be reinterpreted at will.
Heterosexuals are expected to abstain from lustful actions and adultery, etc. so why would a person with a different orientation get a pass on this because it's going to be uncomfortable for him?
Well, we were not speaking of what Jesus did or recommended. The point was only that if you give most people an inch, they'll take a mile.Isn't that what Jesus seems to have done, though? He healed and worked on the Sabbath, in fact it almost seems like he made a point of rubbing it in the Pharisees faces.
For gay people often times it's not just as simple as saying no to lust, it can also be walking away from relationships that involve real peoples physical well-being. Like if two gay people are together raising a family with kids (like my therapist and his family), or a gay couple where one is disabled and physically dependent on the other one. In my experience, traditionalist Christians often just don't want to look very closely at those issues. And the love those people share is beyond just "lust": only the greatest of saints can live alone like many conservatives demand. I really cannot believe Jesus is asking all of us to become inhuman ascetics.
Well, we were not speaking of what Jesus did or recommended. The point was only that if you give most people an inch, they'll take a mile.
Isn't that what Jesus seems to have done, though? He healed and worked on the Sabbath, in fact it almost seems like he made a point of rubbing it in the Pharisees faces. It seems Jesus was not much of a literalist when it came to his interpretation of Torah, he was fairly liberal.
For gay people often times it's not just as simple as saying no to lust, it can also be walking away from relationships that involve real peoples physical well-being. Like if two gay people are together raising a family with kids (like my therapist and his family), or a gay couple where one is disabled and physically dependent on the other one. In my experience, traditionalist Christians often just don't want to look very closely at those issues. And the love those people share is beyond just "lust": only the greatest of saints can live alone like many conservatives demand. I really cannot believe Jesus is asking all of us to become inhuman ascetics. I was in the Orthodox world and had my fill of that, thank you. Reading St. Therese of Lisieux and seeing the real good that many Protestants do in their communities convinced me that was often misguided... the "little way" of faith and love is superior to an exaggerated asceticism: to paraphrase the saint, in the end we all come to God with empty hands, stained works, and have to be clothed by His justice, realizing that in the bottom of your soul is infinitely superior to being able to stay up for hours in prayer and go for weeks without meat.
Some Christians set the bar so high that they themselves don't enter in.
Don't take that as a personal judgement of you, Albion. I honestly don't know how most Continuing Anglicans handle that issue. All I know is that some conservative Episcopalians I've met are pretty naïve about gay relationships.
Churches are in the morality business by definition, and members say that they respect authority. But that's only the case so far as it doesn't cause them discomfort.
I know quite a few single Anglicans who are around middle age, or older, and have never found a partner they felt was a good choice for marriage. A few of these people might be gay, but most are not. Some of them have other issues that make married life or finding a partner difficult or impossible - mental illness, other kinds of illness, developmental challenges.
Being mentally ill or disabled doesn't preclude being able to have a partner. If two people really are in love, those things can often be worked out (I should know, that's the exact situation I'm in). This is really a good example of our ideals going awry and ending up torturing us with "shoulds", rather than opening up our imaginative horizons and our hearts, they shut things down and lead us into fear and exclusion. All the same issues apply with gay couples.
FireDragon, I'm not sure what I'm supposed to take from that. I addressed moral issues rather than doctrinal matters (such as Transubstantiation and the Immaculate Conception that don't require anyone to alter his lifestyle,one way or the other). And, in addition, no one has been talking about vague religiosity or other world religions that none of us belongs to.I'm not sure how important an extensive moral code is to be religious, or even Christian... there are certainly some world religions that don't really focus on moral codes (the great majority of the worlds cultures have some form of animism, for instance), and in Christianity in particular there are some themes, such as the Incarnation, that, at face value, are not really touching on morality.
I'm certain that you're right about that, but again, did someone say that it does????Being mentally ill or disabled doesn't preclude being able to have a partner.