- Nov 21, 2011
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Today I behaved badly. My words were not godly and my thoughts were even less godly. I am sorry for behaving so badly. I was late for my appointment and that is what started it all as well as a family of people filling up the bus. I felt horrible at the reaction of the people on the bus. It all stems from caring what other people think of me. I am deeply ashamed of my reaction and how I felt about them. I found myself to be close-minded and bigoted.
My thoughts were those of rudeness and pure hatred for them for no good reason whatsoever. I felt like a total hypocrite because I behaved like a hypocrite. I didn't feel joyous or happy. My prejudice made me miserable. God, forgive me and help me overcome this prejudice that I have. What is so wrong with me that I have rude thoughts about people who didn't judge me, or anything like that? They were just like every other passenger, they were minding their business. I still feel somewhat icky. Looking at someone's character is of the utmost importance, not their outside. I am sorry, Father, and I wish I could take back those thoughts.
I usually don't go out of my way to hate on people who were different from me. I didn't want to be around someone who is not like me. I usually believe that we are all equal but we are all different and that differences are not a bad thing to be afraid of. I found myself with continuous terrible thoughts of hatred and dislike and mistrust. I didn't and usually don't want to sit around someone who is different from me, much less someone who is like me. I like to have my own space and I tend to feel uncomfortable around other people period. But today, it dawned on me that there is something wrong with me. Why do I feel this way? Why did I have these thoughts? Am I really that bigoted and close-minded? Why do I seem so obsessed with this issue?
My thoughts were those of rudeness and pure hatred for them for no good reason whatsoever. I felt like a total hypocrite because I behaved like a hypocrite. I didn't feel joyous or happy. My prejudice made me miserable. God, forgive me and help me overcome this prejudice that I have. What is so wrong with me that I have rude thoughts about people who didn't judge me, or anything like that? They were just like every other passenger, they were minding their business. I still feel somewhat icky. Looking at someone's character is of the utmost importance, not their outside. I am sorry, Father, and I wish I could take back those thoughts.
I usually don't go out of my way to hate on people who were different from me. I didn't want to be around someone who is not like me. I usually believe that we are all equal but we are all different and that differences are not a bad thing to be afraid of. I found myself with continuous terrible thoughts of hatred and dislike and mistrust. I didn't and usually don't want to sit around someone who is different from me, much less someone who is like me. I like to have my own space and I tend to feel uncomfortable around other people period. But today, it dawned on me that there is something wrong with me. Why do I feel this way? Why did I have these thoughts? Am I really that bigoted and close-minded? Why do I seem so obsessed with this issue?