- Jun 8, 2009
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I have threads which explain this. I have let a man from church stay with me for over a month, because he had no where else to go.
I was new to this church, and was someone who was on the "sides" and kind of in the shadows. He saw me as an easy target to take advantage of and has used me for money. He is an alcoholic and drug addict.
When I kicked him out, he got violent, made me scared, had me go into my bedroom to lock the door. And, then tried to break in, but I told him to stop or I'd call the police. Then became frustrated and vandalized my apartment.
Afterward, he went outside and I locked him out of my apartment. Then he let the air out of my tires out.
I then called the police on him.
He couldn't collect all of his belongings and after he stayed in Jail for two days, he returned. My brother told me to throw his belongings out in the trash, but I didn't.
I wanted to love him like the Bible commands me to. But, after he collected his things he said something weird like he's lead me to believe that he's told people at church bad things about me.
Before kicking him out, I did manage to tell the pastor about this man's drug problems, and after my facebook posts, some people seem to be on my side.
I even asked the leaders of our Young Adults group to reach out to him so he doesn't fall deeper.
But, one person at this church said that he spoke to the drug addict first, and thinks that I hurt the drug addict too.
The aforementioned man is also a leader in our Young Adults group and he and I don't get along very well. I dislike his views that I can sin as often as I want and still go to heaven.
I don't acknowledge that I am saved, because I think that we can't know that we're saved. I heard this from a Lutheran pastor and I agree with his logic.
Belief in Jesus is a start, but if I go around sinning all the time then I take for granted the sacrifice that he made for me.
But, the leader who seems to dislike me says that Jesus said that "My burden will be easy" and that I can sin as often as I want, and that I shouldn't "use a sliding scale of righteousness" and "not to compare myself to others".
He even made me sound like a Pharisee and said, "I'm willing to do anything or give up anything for God, are you?"
I didn't tell him this, but I was thinking that if he was willing to do ANYTHING for God, then why not give up inappropriate contentography? And, give up all his material wealth, and go help people like the drug addict that I let stay with me?
He refused to take this person in before I left to go back and visit home. Home, btw, is MILES AWAY. It's so far, that I have to take a plane to get there.
And, going home is EXPENSIVE. I can't go do it that often.
So, I have no choice but to look for community in a far away place. But, I have bad people skills, and I sometimes make enemies without meaning to.
Like the drug addict, and the Young Adults leader who says that he's saved in spite of his inappropriate content problem because he is willing to do anything for God.
I might be a hypocrite. I don't know. Maybe I shouldn't talk about this guy, because I look at inappropriate content, too?
But, I would never say that I'd be willing to do ANYTHING for God, because God might test me to see if that's the case.
I feel like people who actually say this, say this because they really don't believe in God and don't worry about God actually testing them. Or, else, why say such things?
Either that, or they're the real deal. But, I doubt that most of those who say those kinds of things really are legit.
Please pray for my protection within this church, if I am meant to go to this church. If not, please help me find the place where I belong.
I need protection against my enemies within this church. Please don't let these two sway their opinions, and please pray that my behavior doesn't do this as well.
I was new to this church, and was someone who was on the "sides" and kind of in the shadows. He saw me as an easy target to take advantage of and has used me for money. He is an alcoholic and drug addict.
When I kicked him out, he got violent, made me scared, had me go into my bedroom to lock the door. And, then tried to break in, but I told him to stop or I'd call the police. Then became frustrated and vandalized my apartment.
Afterward, he went outside and I locked him out of my apartment. Then he let the air out of my tires out.
I then called the police on him.
He couldn't collect all of his belongings and after he stayed in Jail for two days, he returned. My brother told me to throw his belongings out in the trash, but I didn't.
I wanted to love him like the Bible commands me to. But, after he collected his things he said something weird like he's lead me to believe that he's told people at church bad things about me.
Before kicking him out, I did manage to tell the pastor about this man's drug problems, and after my facebook posts, some people seem to be on my side.
I even asked the leaders of our Young Adults group to reach out to him so he doesn't fall deeper.
But, one person at this church said that he spoke to the drug addict first, and thinks that I hurt the drug addict too.
The aforementioned man is also a leader in our Young Adults group and he and I don't get along very well. I dislike his views that I can sin as often as I want and still go to heaven.
I don't acknowledge that I am saved, because I think that we can't know that we're saved. I heard this from a Lutheran pastor and I agree with his logic.
Belief in Jesus is a start, but if I go around sinning all the time then I take for granted the sacrifice that he made for me.
But, the leader who seems to dislike me says that Jesus said that "My burden will be easy" and that I can sin as often as I want, and that I shouldn't "use a sliding scale of righteousness" and "not to compare myself to others".
He even made me sound like a Pharisee and said, "I'm willing to do anything or give up anything for God, are you?"
I didn't tell him this, but I was thinking that if he was willing to do ANYTHING for God, then why not give up inappropriate contentography? And, give up all his material wealth, and go help people like the drug addict that I let stay with me?
He refused to take this person in before I left to go back and visit home. Home, btw, is MILES AWAY. It's so far, that I have to take a plane to get there.
And, going home is EXPENSIVE. I can't go do it that often.
So, I have no choice but to look for community in a far away place. But, I have bad people skills, and I sometimes make enemies without meaning to.
Like the drug addict, and the Young Adults leader who says that he's saved in spite of his inappropriate content problem because he is willing to do anything for God.
I might be a hypocrite. I don't know. Maybe I shouldn't talk about this guy, because I look at inappropriate content, too?
But, I would never say that I'd be willing to do ANYTHING for God, because God might test me to see if that's the case.
I feel like people who actually say this, say this because they really don't believe in God and don't worry about God actually testing them. Or, else, why say such things?
Either that, or they're the real deal. But, I doubt that most of those who say those kinds of things really are legit.
Please pray for my protection within this church, if I am meant to go to this church. If not, please help me find the place where I belong.
I need protection against my enemies within this church. Please don't let these two sway their opinions, and please pray that my behavior doesn't do this as well.