I can't it would cause me to need to believe that I am horrible, evil thing that needs to be destroyed if it cannot be changed and I cannot bear feeling that way again and I just don't believe it and it would cause me to believe that my friends must also be destroyed if they cannot be changed and that my children too, my sweet little girls will one day face death at the hands of a god.
But death doesn't just come this way, that all that he calls the old life must perish, must be killed is a rule that he made and that he chooses to enforce. He is choosing to kill my friends if they don't meet him.
Even if I did accept him somehow, 95% of the human race would still feed his fires and I could not love him afterwards, he would have to wipe my mind, cause me to not know or remember and that doesn't need right, he'd be crafting worship in me, not getting it freely.