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azariah1982

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Thanks I have been going through a lot lately. I don't want to be here still. I just wanna be with God in heaven. I hate my life. I feel highly unloved. I have an appointment with the doctors tomorrow. I despise this government because I know they made this disease.

This so called HIV. Which I think the people die from
The pills. I don't take them I through them away.

I wish sometimes God had let me die a long time ago.

I'm not happy.

I see the evil in nursing home institutions. I turned 32 in January and I'm still Here. I thank you for your prayers.
 
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I think you should take the medicine. I know you dont really trust the government but there have been people who have got well with taking medicine. You are loved by us here and by God. Is your family coming to see you? God has a purpose for you still being here.It may be hard for you to understand but he knows. Are you praying to God about your feelings? Im praying for you each day, I am always reminded of you. There is always hope. :hug:
 
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I've been in so much physical and mental pain I've prayed the same thing... don't feel bad about doing that or feeling that.

I think you need to find a counsellor or therapist to talk to, pastors are not usually good at dealing with depression.

I've had depression all my life off and on. I do not take medication because mostly the side effects have been bad, due to my unusual brain chemistry (I have cerebral dysplasia). So I just live with it. I think love is a good antidote to dealing with suffering. Find a higher purpose to your life beyond yourself, be somebody's friend or partner who has none, and it will help you find beauty and purpose in life. Your life can be all broken up and God can still use that for a greater good, you do not yourself have to be whole.
 
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