PTSD, flashbacks & church

I went to church earlier, been going there for about a year, and while my pastor supports me becoming a member of the church, several things seem to stand in the way. Not his choice but the other people in church. One in particular told me this...

1. I don't pay tithes.
Well, I give what I can when I can. I'm not rich, but I'm not greedy either.

2. I'm not there every Sunday.
No, sometimes I don't feel good. You know, so sick it's coming out both ends. But that's not all of them, no.
Or the Sunday a month back where I decided to go take photos in the mountains instead, and ended up saving four lives.
Or then there are the Sundays I don't show up because my PTSD is kicking in, and buddy I like you but you don't wanna see me when I'm going through my flashbacks. You served in the Navy during 'Nam. I'm happy for ya. Doesn't matter- you don't wanna see me going through those flashbacks. If you have to see what I remember, you'll scream <staff edit>.

Churches are supposed to be open to the people. Now it's a "click"? A "private club"?

Go tell that to your idea of who Jesus is, and you let me know what He tells ya.

Thank you, though while I did serve I never said that in the post and the PTSD is not service-related.

I'm in a quandary. While this church is not what I would typically choose, it's the best available here.

Thank you Armoured. Yeah, when my flashbacks are bad, the last thing anyone wants to do is try to intervene. One friend did that and paid for it. I felt horrible for destroying my den and even more horrible for beating the crap out of him. I have told people before, if I'm going through a flashback, don't get involved. And they just don't get it. Just like the people that think those with PTSD can control the flashbacks.