I hate this world and everything it stands for, I just want to die. God is seeking people who feel this way. God wants us to die to ourselves and to our own desires and our will. If you hate yourself, hate your life and want it to end, then do it. I am not talking about suicide here.
Jesus said if you find your life you will lose it, if you lose your life you will find it. Often a depressed person feels they have no hope for a happy life. If you feel this way, I urge you to consider becoming God's slave instead and putting behind you the idea that we must seek happiness - this idea of pursuing happiness enslaves us to the world and does not bring freedom.
Dying to ourselves is a process all Christians must go through. Being born again is like a dead seed that germinates bringing new life and a living plant that bears fruit. Many of us Christians seem to be stuck as a dormant seed that hasn't fully died. We struggle with sin and wonder where is God? But we haven't fully died to him, he is still patiently waiting for us to seek him with our whole heart, with our whole life.
Having talents, hopes, desires, and a special purpose sounds very spiritual but this is a counterfeit gospel we are being fed! I am writing on here in 'Depression' because God is seeking you guys, he seeks the lost, the broken because you are the people that may be prepared to die and put him first, leaving your life behind you. I'm really praying for you all