scared....

Myself and many others have struggled with this. God also showed me that many dont even understand what the blasphemy of the Holy Spirit really is and the enemy uses it against many many people.

God led me to this audio sermon Calvary Chapel Modesto

Listen to it and understand what its all about.

I'm so sorry that you are tormented by your thoughts. I can feel your agony. Please don't give up. Many people have these kinds of thoughts. You know they are not true and OCD tells us lies. I was troubled with those kinds of thoughts and then I started telling myself this is not me, it's my OCD. It helped me and so did medication. There is good medicine for ocd. Do you have a psychiatrist? If not, you really need to see one and you will feel better. I believe you are a good person. It is great you are reaching out for help. Plese keep posting and venting. It's good for you and many will support you here. I'm praying you find relief from the torment. God bless you.

I know exactly what you are going through Sophia. I would always wonder "Of all trials, why do I have THIS trial?" But I have been through it for a long time and let me tell you Sophia, you will reach the other side and God will use your trial for your good(Romans 8:28). Even though I hated this trial and the thoughts concerning the unpardonable sin, I have developed a compassion for people who are going through it.

Hang in there Sophia.

I really don't want to fall away.. I mean really life is just dull living in the world, watching worldly movies and stuff i dont want that stuff, i want more a relationship with Jesus but it seems like these thoughts are getting in the way, I really don't mean these thoughts at all, a while ago i had a dream of this strange looking person that was standing beside me threatening me, to deny Jesus or else I'll get tortured maybe that means something? I domt know l started screaming out for Jesus and I woke up,, that was scary dream anyway this has become a stronghold,it started last august its getting worse, when I start reading the bible these disgusting thoughts come and sometimes I argue with it , I feel CRAZY !!!

Sophia, praying for you today! Been through it as well as many others have here as you can see. The Lord KNOWS you don't want these thoughts! He is not going to hold you accountable for thoughts you dont want and /or mean and even if you feel you have been angry with the Holy Spirit or something like that, this is still not what these scriptures refer to. If you want the Lord in your life, then you have not bladphemed the Holy Spirit. I dont believe anyone can just "accidentally" blaspheme the Holy Spirit!
About the unwanted thoughts~~the way to get rid of them is to totally ignore them. Yep, ignore them. Dont give them any credence whatsoever. If you must, say to the Lord ( for your benefit not really His) that uou are going to ignore the thoughts in order to get rid of them. Say thos only ONE TIME! After that, just let the thought come or not come. When you get anxious about them, it's difficult not to think about them. Like if someone says dont think about green monkeys or red gorillas whatever you do! Well, now green monkeys and red gorillas are in your thoughts incessantly.same with blasphemous thoughts. They are just mind clutter nothing more. Believe me the Lord knows your heart.
This is likely OCD. Please treat the OCD, not the thoughts!! Are you seeing a counselor or therapist familiar with OCD? If not, you need to consider it strongly!

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Good website to check out!!

I agree with Ruth... If you have not seen somebody than do so. It took me years before I had the trust and help to see one. I came close to dying and it is not worth it. Medication and therapy helped. Your family needs you. You can cure or at least be able to come to terms with your thoughts. I DID! Trust God. He will never lay more on you than what you are capable of handling!