I know this might be weird question, but I'm really trying to have strong faith, but I'm struggling with one thing in my mind, I can't visualize God creating things...I mean when I look around it's pretty obvious He did create all things, but when it comes to going back into the very beginning my mind is having a really hard time grasping and visualizing it and it bothers me...Is this weird? or do others have the same problem?
This is the reason you cannot visualize it:
Isaiah 55:9
For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways, and my thoughts than your thoughts.
The ways of the infinite God cannot fit inside our finite minds. This is why Gods word says we need to surrender our understanding to Him:
Proverbs 3:5-7
Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths.
Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the LORD, and turn away from evil.
I do not try to imagine how God created the Universe from eternity, because I have no reference point. I have a beginning but God has no beginning. We have a drive to try to figure everything out, but God has many mysteries that we cannot figure out. It says this in the word:
1 Corinthians 2:9 But, as it is written, "What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love him"—
The wonderful plan that He has for us we have caught only glimpses of; we cannot understand the fullness of it through our own reasoning process. It must be revealed to us by the Holy Spirit:
1 Corinthians 2:10
these are the things God has revealed to us by his Spirit. The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God.
Even then, the scripture says that we are seeing only a poor reflection of the true reality:
1 Corinthians 13:12
For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.
One day we will see God face to face and we shall know Him as fully as He knows us now. That day has not yet come, but if are curious about something, ask God about it. He has bid us to ask Him to reveal His mysteries:
Jeremiah 33:2-3
"Thus says the LORD who made the earth, the LORD who formed it to establish it, the LORD is His name,
'Call to Me and I will answer you, and I will tell you great and mighty things, which you do not know'